chapter 27

                         Elley had understood what exactly Brian was trying to explain her; but she wasn't ready to accept his wise words. In spite this she got more panicked and said helplessly, " Probably you are right Brian but still I don't want to live anymore. Don't try to save me. I am exhausted. I am tired of this life. I have nothing to start new journey.                         I have lost my everything. I have nothing. No one is there to hold my hand. No one is with me. Everyone has left me. Now I am standing here alone.                         The person who showed me this colourful world is not with me just because of that person whom I loved blindly. I am the only reason of my dad's death.                         He suffered just because of my stupid decisions. He told me to stay away from Aiden but I didn't listen him. Moreover I made him believe on my words but at the end what he received? Only pain!                         He was against our relationship from the beginning. Although I was the one who I forced him to change his  mind but at the end I found myself wrong.                         What have I done? Why did I hurt dad? Why did I refuse dad's decision? Why did I trust on unworthy guy? Why did I love that Aiden so blindly?                        Why did I behave like this? And for what am I regretting now? Why should I wish to live? Why should I fight for this absurd life.                         When I had time I didn't understand and now when I have lost my everything, I am suffering in guilt. What is this life? I don't want to suffer anymore.                         I don't scare to struggle but I am empty handed. I don't have that support which my dad gave. I don't have the shadow of my dad. I have nothing Brian. I have nothing. Therefore I don't want to live.                         My mom has died when I was child and now my dad has passed when I need him the most. The person whom I loved selflessly betrayed me badly. I am failed to find true love.                         I am totally shattered and with these regrets I can't live. I don't want to struggle for a second. So, for god sake don't save me. Let me die. Might be I will find peace then. "                        Her voice was carrying full of disappointment. Her hopeless words were hurting Brian internally. He was full of emotions even though he ignored himself and tried to calm Elley. He said to her, " Elley, don't be so negative. Please, calm yourself. "                          Brian didn't step back but Elley also wasn't ready to listen. Moreover, she yanked her own hands from his hands and started running towards the rooftop.                         Briefly she was trying to commit suicide by jumping from the roof but at the same time Brian had understood her motive, so he stopped her and slapped her strongly.                        After getting slapped by Brian she got more emotional than before and hugged him tightly. Brian understood her state of mind.                         He had sensed her broken and hurt feelings, so he was caressing her head as well as patting her back slowly to make her calm. After some time when Elley started feeling better Brian started talking to her." Who said, you deserve this? I know what are you facing right now but why are you blaming yourself? Don't overthink.                        I know what you deserve and what not. I know, the pain of losing loved ones. It hurts but still you have to live. Don't be shattered so soon.                         Look everywhere and try to find happiness. I know you are hurt, you are in pain but still you have to live! And why are you regretting? Who could disbelieve on our partner? Everyone does such mistakes as you had done.                         Believe me, you don't deserve a partner like Aiden. He was not your soulmate but nevertheless you can seek true love. Stop thinking about those things which can't be fixed but think about present and future. " He looked at her teary eyes and said prudently. To be continued... ..............................©®Sejal Punje.