Chapter 27

when we lose the ones we love

I was getting used to, used to

Having you with me

So why you gotta leave?

Hold me like you used to- Zoe Wees

Daliah's POV:

"I was so scared Xavi. I never want to see you in this state ever in my life again", I whimpered while slowly placing my head on his chest.

"I know I scared you Baby but you know this more than anyone else that I will lay down my life for you, if it means you are safe and here", he slowly caressed my cheeks guiding his eyes with the tear stains.

"It doesn't matter if you aren't here my love, so please not ever again. I already had this fright once and now twice but that's it, not another okay. I'm so happy that you're actually here with me", I kissed his hands and stared into the pair beautiful eyes I love so much.

"Wait, let me call the doctor!" I panicked as soon as it clicked into my head that I did not call the doctor yet.

Xavier chuckled at my state earning a glare in return from me but did that make him stop being amused by my state obviously not.

My pretty boy

I pressed the button to indicate we need the doctor now since he woke up and stood up from the chair to go to the bathroom to refresh myself.

"Where're you going?" Xavi whined making me chuckle.

"I am not going anywhere baby, I'm just going to the bathroom to refresh okay?" I blew him a kiss and went inside.

The girl in front of the mirror is not who she was the past few days when she was away from her family. Had it not been for Xavier, I would have given up on hope as soon as I was kidnapped. The happiness of being back with my people is very much evident in my face. The once lost glow is gradually appearing back because its reason is with me, close to me.  I washed and dressed myself in to the cloths Mama brought for me and brushed my long, thick hair and put into a loose braid.

Third person POV:

Exiting the bathroom, Daliah saw that the doctor has already arrived and speaking to Xavier.  She went towards them and listened keenly to all the advices, the doctor is giving them to take care of him. After all the consultations finally the couple was getting ready to go to their home.

Daliah's POV:

When I opened the door to our apartment I was engulfed with the warm and homey feeling it always carries. I took Xavi to our bedroom and slowly made him lie down on the bed to rest. I sat beside and cuddled a bit until he was completely asleep so that I could look around our home.

Entering the living room; there was not a big mess but a few photographs of mine that Xavi had once taken from his camera scattered on the coffee table and Xavi's laptop laid on the couch.

I slowly walked towards the scattered pictures and collected them one by one, even though I don't hold a great value to these pictures Xavi does because he takes care of these pictures like a treasure and once when I asked him he said even though his gallery is basically filled with mine and our pictures, the feeling of holding a picture of you is more beautiful.

He always makes sure he has my pictures in his wallet and office desk, always.

The way this man loves, adores, respects and value me is beyond my imagination.

I placed the pictures back into the box and started tidying up the living room.

After finishing tidying up I went to the kitchen to clean it before making us dinner to eat before Xavi has to take his medicines for the night.

Opening the fridge, I took out some vegetables and chicken to make a chicken soup with some boiled vegetables whilst writing down the groceries needed to be bought the next time we make a trip to the market on the small whiteboard.

Just when I placed the cooked vegetables next to the steaming soup, I felt his body warmth right behind me, so close to my body. A smile married my face as soon as my nostrils inhaled his smell.

Home

Why did you come here Xavi?" I leaned back into his warmth while finishing placing the food quickly so I can make him sit because I know this stubborn man will not leave me at all.

Xavier grumbled.

I chuckled and turn towards him once I was done plating our food.

"You left", he placed his head on my neck and pecked.

Wait! Did this man just licked my neck?

"What are you doing baby?" I lightly squealed and looked back making the grumpy man even grumpier.

I kissed his forehead and took him to the couch to feed him. I kept our plates instantly when I heard his wince while sitting down.

"Please be careful Xavi", I helped him to relax and started feeding him while taking bites from my plate in between.

"I like this", Xavi said out of the blue breaking the comfortable silence.

"What baby?" I asked while I made him drink some water after finishing his meal.

"Being treated like this, when I can be vulnerable and not always be guarded and hard. It's nice to feel like a human. I hate how I used to talk a little with you when we were young but still you understood me My Angel. I don't know how you do that Baby girl; you always knew and know exactly what I am trying to say.

I want to be this way only with you. Even when we have a family of our own in the future I will only show this side of me to you, only because the little Xavier only feels safe with you.

I will be a fun, loving and a caring dad no doubt on that but moments like these will only be ours and only ours", he said so quietly staring into my moist eyes.

Drop by drop tears started to drip down my eyes. This man is unreal, God what good deed have I ever done to have this man who is right in front of me as my life partner, my soulmate, my future husband and the father to my kids. My heart cannot bear the fact that his inner child feels safe with me.

How much has the society affected men in general to hide their emotions and only hustle? They are mere humans too like women, there are good men too.

I am speechless and he always does this; rarely talks a lot but when he does it always leaves me speechless.

I let out a sob and wrapped my arms tightly around his neck being careful of his wound and cried into his neck because I was feeling too many emotions at the moment; sadness, happiness and anger.

"Hey hey hey Baby girl, please don't cry I never meant to make you cry by saying all that", he quietly whispered rubbing my back, successfully calming my heavy flow of emotions.

"You did not make me cry, I am so happy that you feel safe with me enough to be yourself Xavi. When you told me that the little boy inside you feels safe enough to be him with me made me burst out in so many emotions.", I said after I came out of his embrace.

After the emotional breakdown both of us decided to call it a day and sleep since the both of us need it so badly.

Once I gave Xavi a sponge bath since he cannot risk wetting his dressing for two days and made him get dressed for bed, I went in and took a good warm shower and joined Xavi on the bed who was barely able to keep his eyes open but waiting till I come and cuddle. So I quickly got under the covers and held him in my arms.

He placed his head on top of my breasts, wrapped his arms slowly around my waist not trying to hurt his wound and slowly drifted to sleep with a content smile.

I kissed his forehead numerous times slowly while running my fingers in his hair that has grown up to his ears and fell asleep.