chapter 44

Thulir's POV "Finally!!!"I heaved a deep sigh after closing the trolley, and just as I was about to stand up, the little devils dashed towards me with even more items in their hands, which made my eyes widen in shock. Surely, these wouldn't fit in the trolley anymore, and I certainly had no intention of packing the entire house also I know what would happen now again, her Chithapa's & Chithi's, grandparents, and especially Thuyavan and my father, would spoil this duo for sure Since Revathi Illam was already filled with our belongings and clothes and my dear daughters already have a separate room to share.....yet I am not going to let them sleep alone till 12 at least...Children need their privacy Bla-Bla is fine but I do not supporting the idea of making them sleep in separate rooms till certain age.....Adapting the Western culture too much is not something I am very fond of mainly in parenting I didn't have a separate room until I was 17; I shared one with my siblings, Thalir and Thuyavan. They were about 9 when I moved out. They continued to share a room until my marriage when Thalir went to the UK for her studies. Even though she could have had her room, she chose not to because she feared being alone at night, which often led to panic attacks. Since I had already moved to Tanjavor for my studies, I couldn't share a room with her, so she stayed with Thuyavan. Despite their differences and frequent quarrels, they always supported each other. Thuyavan would visit her monthly in the UK to ensure she was well, as phone calls weren't enough for him. He encouraged her to seek therapy to overcome her fear of sleeping alone, knowing he couldn't always be by her side anymore as they were going to have their battles...I love the bond they share than what we three have.......or now should I say what I have with my baby brother alone.......Because my sister doesn't want my presence in her life and I did give that freedom to her....it's been 7 years since I last spoke with Thalir......the last conversation of us was a huge fight moments before my delivery....Sometimes seeing how Malar and Alar behaves I do miss my sister and at times I do think may be I should have been more patient with her when she was out bursting and blaming me for everything happened in her life which she herself brought.I was already upset with her for the way she treated Thugil, and her accusation that day caused me to utter harsh words in an attempt to silence her. Even though they were facts, they came out harshly as I was overwhelmed by emotions, and the pregnancy was not easy for me. I ended up saying things I shouldn't have, but she was no less hurtful... her words wounded me deeply.Now that she is also the daughter in law of Revathi Illam, she got things she wanted without me interference in her life, That's good for her......if she doesn't want me anymore I am not going to beg her......You might call it an ego clash... let it be. I was born before her, and if she has that much ego and audacity, I possess twice as much....."Ammaaaaaaaaa pack this too""This drawing Book to amma I want to show this to patti"The screams of Malar and Alar jolted me out of my series of thoughts.......I took a deep breath and looked at the duo "what else you guys want to take bring it all....empty your cupboard and study room fully if that helps hmmm"I said to them strenly....they both pouted and looked at each other then at me......I signed "What exactly you guys want hmm"I asked them they again looked at each other and spoke through eyes making me frown what are they planning now..."Alar say it"She pouted at me and said "we both want separate trolly for us.....remember that Spiderman trolly you brought last month we want to show that to Thatha and patti.....that's why "Alar said looking down in guilt....I know my daughter is now feeling guilty for make me work more.....awww.......yeah she is quite empathetic in nature.......and I also know this idea was Malar's "Pleasee amma......En Thango laa"Malar cooed me.......okay both of my daughters are cute...."Okay"I said and unzipped the trolly and started removing their stuffs, they even gave me their homework notes to pack them..."Ammaaa unaku Okayavaaa?????"(is it Okay for you Amma?)Malar asked me in shock...I chuckled at her open mouth and wide eyes expression trying to visibly emote she is shocked..."Yes....""Are you not angry at us Amma?"This time it was Alar... I left the clothes and turned towards them... they both came closer and stood in front of me...."Why do you think I would be angry?""Because we made you do more work.."Alar said meekly without looking into my eyes....I looked at Malar who sneakily looked towards me then again looked down when I caught her she again made a sad face.....drama queen I chuckled and opened my arms; within moments, they both cocooned themselves in my embrace, and I kissed their heads."Chorrry aammmaa"They both said in unison..."Okay that's enough of icing....both go and get that trolly from next room will finish the packing before your appa comes okay before that call him and ask when he would come its already time and he didn't had his dinner yet "They both nodded their head and ran outside....I smiled at their retreating figures and turned towards the task in hand.....I have to remove all this and have to take only few necessary items...Realizing I needed a smaller trolley, I sighed, stood up, and retrieved a compact one from my wardrobe. After searching for a while, I finally found the perfect one that I hadn't opened in a long time.Then it hit me......this specific trolly have all the sexy lingerie's I brought...nope he brought for me....I don't think they will fit me now....yet out of curiosity I opened the trolley and searched that one piece he brought me during our honeymoon......it barely covered anything and he said that was perfect than other ones he brought....It's dark brown colored and have a elastic fabric so that might suit me now....why the hell I am thinking about wearing that again....we are going back to our home not for honeymoon....I said to myself"It's not just that you wore them only on your honeymoon; remember, you also wore them to test his patience during your minor disagreements and arguments...."My mind replied me......"That time I was at shape but now...I am not sure"Muttering to myself in the mirror, I took a deep breath, placed the lingerie back into the same trolley, closed it, then grabbed another empty one and moved out to start packing items into it. Malar and Alar were already waiting for me with their new Spiderman trolley. Together, we repacked the items. I assisted them and showed them how to pack efficiently, making it a familiar and manageable task for my daughters.About me and Agathiyan......I don't know what is happening between us.......it's been 2 week since that conversation or should I say my outburst.....I couldn't say nothing has changed as well as everything is changed.....he is being pretty normal about it and that is bothering me.......His acts were kind of strange if I say.......It's not like he fully stopped talking with me and isolated himself from home.....neither he was usual too......his talks with me are now even more limited.....But the way he looks at me in past weeks makes me feel different....it's not uncomfortable but strange.......That look wasn't something new for me either..........He was watching me like how he used to be when we were lovers even to be precise secret lovers....the teenage mode where we both didn't confessed anything yet there was this tension.....He's evoking the same feelings in me now... I can't decipher his thoughts... His actions leave me feeling both intrigued and anxious... It's reminiscent of the time when my unspoken love and longing for him were palpable, and how he would draw near yet not touch me, somehow making me feel as though he was touching every part of me...the way his eyes scans me makes me feel so different and.......the younger self of mine was kind of confused then....But now, it feels both strange and thrilling...........What are you Planning Agathiya......Author's Note Happy Reading 📖📖📖📖📖📖📖Thank you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️