Chapter 10
Murder Notes (Lilah Love Book 1)
Iâm not one to linger and fret over things. In fact, people who spend time fretting get on my nerves. If something bothers you, do something about it. Grow some balls and grab someone elseâs. And thatâs exactly why, knowing Samantha runs her clothing-design business from her home rather than from her family business located in New York City, I drive to her mansion a few miles from Kaneâs offices. I donât expect her to be there, of course, since she was just putting a note on my window, and her mansion is the only place I would know to look for her, but I want her to know I came for her.
I donât get past the gate. The staff she keeps on the property simply refuse to allow me to pass. Iâm about to back up and depart when a silver BMW I know to be Samanthaâs pulls up behind me, blocking my exit. A power play perhaps, but itâs also the move to keep me outside her private space that I find really fucking interesting.
I place the car in Park and then give Juniorâs note in the passenger seat a glance. Intentionally leaving it there, visible should Samantha join me, I exit the vehicle as Samantha does the same, her long, blonde hair a sleek, beautiful reminder that Iâm the only brunette in Kaneâs life. Iâm not even the manâs type. Sheâs also wearing black slacks and a black turtleneck, giving off the illusion of being prim and proper. ~Oh, come on.~ We all have a superpower: baking muffins, drawing pictures, listening to dead bodies speak to you. Hers is fucking men senseless. Sheâs not prim and proper. Sheâs exactly what I said last night. A ho, bitch, or whatever the fuck I called her. We walk toward each other, meeting at the trunk of my car, as she places her brand-name sunglasses over her face. A little trick we in law enforcement know is to hide the lies about to be spoken.
âLilah Love,â she says, greeting me.
âAgent Love,â I state, indicating my badge, which she may or may not give a glance to, since I canât see her fucking eyes. âIâm sure, since youâre fucking my brother, you know there was a murder last night.â
âThe whole of the Hamptons knows.â She hugs herself. âItâs unnerving.â
Like her doing dirty deeds with my brother. ~And Kane, damn it.~ âWhere were you last night?â
âLast night? Why in the world would it matter where I was? I wasnât at that womanâs house.â
âWhere were you, Samantha?â
âWith your brother.â
âReally?â I ask, imitating Kaneâs classic and highly arrogant arch of one single brow. âThat isnât what I was told.â
She removes her glasses and looks at me, her stare unblinking. âAsk him,â she says, and with no acknowledgement of my comment about her whereabouts, she adds, âI was with your brother.â
âFrom what time to what time?â I ask, since Andrew was in Southampton when I got into town, the idea that she was with Kane and Andrew the same night turns my stomach.
âI donât know. I was here, working, and then I was at his place. I donât know the time.â
Iâve found that two âI donât knowsâ in one sentence means a person knows and doesnât want to say. âPerhaps your staff can help us with that,â I suggest. âOr the log on your security cameras?â
âI . . . perhaps.â
âGood,â I approve. âLetâs go talk to your staff.â
âIâll get you the security log, but talk to your brother.â
âI will. And your staff.â
âI have business going on today. The log and your brother should clear me. And this is really ridiculous. I might be many things, Lilah, things that you donât like, but I am not a killer.â
âYou are indeed many things,â I state. âSome quite easy to confirm, but as it stands, being innocent of murder is not one of them any more than guilty might be. I need proof of your alibi.â I turn and start walking.
âLilah!â
I keep walking.
âAgent Love!â
I stop and turn to face her. âYes, Ms. Young?â
âIf you choose to make this personal, you will not like the results.â
My lips curve. âSpoken like every suspect that has something to hide, even if itâs not the crime Iâm investigating,â I say, and this time when I start walking, I donât stop until Iâm sitting inside my car and have shut the door. Glancing up at the rearview mirror, I note Samantha has yet to move, which means her car has yet to move out of my way. I shift to Reverse and give a small pump of the accelerator that has her hands flying in the air, and she is apparently shouting something at me. I hold the brake and rev the engine, and she turns around and stomps back to her car.
From there, she is speedy to back up and pull off to the side of the drive to allow me to pass. I do so quickly, my mind already chasing conclusions from this meeting and the one with Kaneâmany I do not like. Iâm just beginning the process of dissecting them when my cell phone rings. Snatching it up, I glance at the caller ID and note my bossâs number.
âDirector Murphy,â I greet him. âYouâre early.â
âThatâs called good work,â he states. âTalk to me. Do we have a serial killer?â
My jaw clenches. âI told you. I thinkââ
âAn assassin. Back that up with facts.â
âDifferent ages, races, lifestyles, jobs, sexes, do I need to go on?â
âOne killer?â
âIâm not ready to say that.â
âDid they die the same way?â he presses.
âYes.â
âThen itâs one killer,â he concludes.
âOr one execution style.â
âThatâs a reach.â
Heâs right, but Iâm trying really damn hard here not to claim jurisdiction.
He reads my mind. âYou donât want to claim jurisdiction.â He doesnât give me time to argue. âThis isnât personal, ~Special Agent Love. This is your job.â
âWhich Iâm doing properly. I havenât even been here twenty-four hours. We canât shake up two police departments in New York in less than twenty-four hours and with an incomplete investigation. And how do we know thatâs not what our killer wants, considering I had a murder here waiting on me?â
Heâs silent for a few beats. âForty-eight hours from now, weâre claiming jurisdiction unless you convince me otherwise. Understood?â
âUnderstood.â
âWhat do you need from me right now?â
âSpace.â
âAll right then. Space. You know how to reach me.â He hangs up.
I glance up to find Iâve pulled back into the parking lot of the same diner Iâd caffeinated at this morning. I kill the engine, my fingers tightening around the steering wheel, several conclusions hitting me like a WWE Smackdown: If Samantha wasnât with Kane last night, neither has an alibi for the murder. However, if they were together, which is my gut instinct and also probably why she didnât want to tell me, Andrewâs sister, the truth, then I have a bigger problem. Because if she is the true whore she seems to be, with Kane and then with my brother on the same night, thereâs no way she was at my house. That would mean Samantha canât be my note writer. Not unless she hired someone to play the role. Translation: no matter how I look at this, someone I have yet to identify knows my secret. And while Samantha knowing my secret wasnât ideal, the other people I know control her to a certain degree. Most certainly Kane could control her. That spelled control of my own. What donât I know about that night? And who is motivated to get me out of town? Could it be Kane himself?
I grab the plastic bag holding the note from the seat and reject that idea. No. Itâs not Kane. Heâs not the note-writing, scary-tactic kind of guy. Heâs about power. Directness. Demand. Proven by his demands directed my way today and even that night. Not to mention the man tried to keep me from leaving town with a rock the size of Texas. ~And yet,~ I think, ~he never called me.~ Itâs odd, but I reasoned it away as his bruised ego. Only now do I consider there was another reason he distanced himself from me. He inferred as much. But what reason? And how does it connect to Junior? And why the hell am I not in on this secret?
Pissed off, I make a decision. I~ will~ find Junior and I will have my answers about that night. How I approach that will depend on how long this case keeps me in town and how much opportunity I have to fade into the shadows without really going away this time.
I do a search on my phone and find the Hempstead medical examinerâs office, retrieving Bethâs work cell phone number and then getting her on the line. âAgent Love,â she greets me. âI thought I was going to see you at the press conference this morning.â
âYeah. Right. No. Can we meet?â
âWhen?â
âYou went to the news conference, which means youâre still in the village. Now.â
âObviously you still donât believe in giving people a heads-up,â she states dryly.
âA heads-up gives people time to make up stories that waste my time.â
âIâll pretend you didnât just infer Iâd make up stories if you didnât rush me to this meeting.â
âCan you do it?â
âOh, I didnât mean that, Beth,â she says in a singsongy voice that, coming from her, is cute. Coming from me, and inclusive of at least one F-word, it would be a different version of cute. The kind of cute that isnât cute at all. âI trust you, Beth,â she continues. âWeâre friends, Beth.â
âOkay,â I say. âAll that. Can you . . . ?â
âYes. I just finished the autopsy, so Iâm free. Where?â
âMickiâs Diner. Iâll grab us a table.â
âSee you in fifteen,â she says, hanging up and proving itâs only the men in my life who donât bother with a departing remark.
I slide the note inside my bag, not about to give Junior a chance to clean up again. With it sealed away, I exit the vehicle and make my way to the diner. I reach the door right about the time itâs opening, and Jack Leroy is just exiting. âLilah Love,â he says, giving me a big hug.
Most people who are not me would love the chance to be hugged by a famous, once-hunky movie star. But the thing is, most people, including my mother, believe that he killed his very famous wife, and therefore Iâd rather he hug a street pole with cuffs holding him in place. âHow you doing, kiddo?â he asks, thankfully releasing me and giving me a once-over. âAs stunning as your mother.â
âYou say that every time you see me,â I say to the familiar compliment, which I brush off for one reason and one reason alone: Iâm not as stunning as my mother, and Iâm okay with that. âHow long are you here?â
He laughs. âWhy? Do you think I killed that woman?â
I donât even try to hide the sneer, which I hope I wear as poorly but obviously as I do bright-red lipstick. âThatâs not a funny joke,â I comment, âif itâs a joke at all.â
His expression tightens and he looks uncomfortable. âLighten up, Love.â
âAgent Love,â I correct, and fully enjoying that sourpuss look on his face, I press onward. âDid you know Cynthia?â I ask, calling last nightâs murder victim by her first name.
âI did not.â
âAnd yet you know who Iâm talking about?â
âI watched the news conference this morning.â
Itâs a reasonable answer but Iâm not done making him uncomfortable. âWhere were you last night?â I ask, because, you know, once a murderer always a murderer. Which actually isnât true. Once a murderer is statistically once a murderer, but I donât like him and choose to think he might just be the anomaly.
âAt a movie screening in Southampton.â
âWhat movie?â
âThe new Star Wars release,â he answers and immediately changes the topic. âYou canât seriously think Iâm involved in this?â
âI donât âthinkâ anything. I gather facts. And this alibi youâve provided can be confirmed and how?â
âThe screening was high-profile. I signed in. There were cameras. There were many guests I chatted with.â
âCall the organizer,â I order. âGet them to send the logs and statements to Andrew.â
âIs that really necessary?â
âYes,â I say. âEmbrace it and get this behind you and me.â I grab the door to enter the diner and pause. âScratch that. I need to know who else was at the screening. Iâll call myself.â I donât wait for a reply, entering the diner, where a sign says WAIT TO BE SEATED. I donât wait to be seated. I make a beeline to the corner booth that Iâd sat in earlier and sit down, putting my back to the wall, giving me a clear view of the door.
The waitress, Rose, a sixtysomething Hispanic woman who served me earlier, returns to my side, no doubt pleased that Iâd tipped ridiculously high. Youâd think everyone in this town would throw some dough at the help, but sadly, most are cheap, rich asswipes. âMore coffee, or do you want some food with that caffeine now?â
âCoffee,â I say. âIâll get some grease to go with it after my friend arrives.â
âGrease and coffee.â She laughs. âSounds yummy.â
âI highly recommend it,â I assure her, quite serious despite her amused giggle before she departs. A tingling sensation lifts my gaze, which lands on the table to my left and in front of me with a heavy thud. Sitting there, staring at me, is Alexandra Harris, a pretty brunette and the assistant district attorney. Sheâs also my exâbest friend, though the ~ex~ part wasnât her doing. She simply met the same demise as my mentor: the illness called âknowing me too well and seeing too muchâ that sheâd contracted by being with me ~that night~.
I reach for my coffee but never pick it up. SuddenlyâunwillinglyâI am back in time.
~âBloody Mary,â I tell the bartender.â~
~âOh no,â Alexandra says, grabbing my arm and looking at the man whoâs just taken my order. âThe most expensive bottle of champagne you have.â She turns to me. âItâs your birthday.â~
~âTomorrow is my birthday.â~
~âAnd tonight youâre mine.â Her expression softens. âI know you and your mother used to spend your birthdays together and this is only the second year since you lost her. We need to keep you busy.â~
~âWe did spend it together,â I say, my chest tight, my laugh sad. âMy father would hand me an expensive gift and send me on my way while she made a big deal out of it no matter how old I was. Chocolate cake. Coffee. Shopping. I looked forward to it every year.â~
~âOh good Lord. Iâm focused on your father here. I hope Kane is more sentimental than your father.â~
~âEveryone is more sentimental than my father,â I say. âItâs being in law enforcement, all these years, I assume. Not here as police chief as much as his years in the NYPD. It roughened his edges.â~
~âIs that what your job as NYPD is doing to you?â~
~âRough as a drunk sailor.â~
~âFoul-mouthed as a drunk sailor,â she jokes but sobers quickly. âI hope that Kane makes up for the bad stuff and seduces you until midnight.â~
~âMore like at midnight. Heâs in Houston and wonât be back until tomorrow night.â~
~âOh?â she says. âWhy?â~
~âHeâs closing a deal with a bank down there for his father.â~
~âHis father? I didnât think he worked for his father.â~
~âHe works for Mendez Enterprises. Of course he works for his father.â~
~âYes, but his fatherââ~
âDonât go there,â I warn, irritated that she, like so many, would travel down this path with me. âKane is an attorney with a degree from Yale and runs a nationwide conglomerate that employs thousands of people.â
âI know. I do. I just worry about you.â
âKane isââ
âHeâs a catch, Lilah. The man is smoking hot and filthy rich. Every starlet that hits this town is after him, but he only has eyes for you.â
Because we understand each other. I accept a glass of bubbly from the bartender and hand it to Alexandra. She takes it from me and lifts it to her lips while a glass is filled for me. âIâm sorry,â she says. âAlas, I think Iâm just jealous. You know this Larry thing has messed with my head.â
âYour ex was an asshole who doesnât deserve another thought.â
âYou just canât imagine, Lilah.â She shakes her head. âI can still see his white, hairy ass hanging out of his pants while he banged away at that bitch he calls his secretary. And I can still hear her moans. Oh God. Those moans.â
âBetter you found out before you married him.â
âI know, right?â She glances toward the end of the bar and grabs my arm. âOh my God. Jensen Michaels is here.â
At the mention of the up-and-coming movie star who sheâd turned down over Larry a few months back, my lips curve. âMy birthday. Your wish.â
âMy wish? No. I donâtââ
âYou do.â
Her gaze lifts beyond my shoulder. âHeâs motioning me over there.â
âWell, go. What are you waiting for?â
She looks at me. âItâs your birthday.â
âTomorrow is my birthday, butââI grab her handââremember. He wants to fuck. You want to fuck. This is about you. For you. I need you to say it. He wants to fuck. I want to fuck. Just fuck.â
She grimaces. âI donât say that word. You say it enough for the entire town.â
I roll my eyes. âSay it or youâre staying with me. He wants to fuck.â
âFine. He wants to . . . fuck.â
I laugh at how hard a time she has saying it. âNow say, âI want to fuck.ââ
âNo. Yes. I want to fuck. And Iâm going to tell you about it in graphic detail in the morning.â
âPlease donât.â
She laughs. âPlease, yes. Iâm going. Iâm really going.â
âPlease do.â
~She nods and takes off walking.~
I blink and stare at my coffee cup again, and then Iâm back in time once more, an hour later.
~I sip the champagne Iâve been cautiously nursing in case Alexandra needs me when she and Jensen head for the door. She waves at me behind his back and mouths, âHappy Birthday to me.â~
~I laugh and wave before finishing off the last sip of my one glass of bubbly. When my phone beeps, I dig it from my purse to find a text from Kane:~
Kane Mendez
Lilah Love.
~My lips curve and I type:~
Lilah Love
Kane Mendez.
~He types:~
Kane Mendez
Do you know what Iâd do to you if I were there right now?
~I laugh, and because I just love egging on this man, I type:~
Lilah Love
Nothing original, Iâm sure.
~I can almost hear his deep, rough laugh as he reads that answer and replies with:~
Kane Mendez
Challenge accepted. Iâm in New York about to get on a chopper. Iâll come to you. Adios for now.
~Itâs a good surprise, and I quickly stick my phone back in my purse and pay the tab. Alexandra will be appalled in the morning that she forgot, for no good reason. Standing up, I slip my purse on my shoulder and sway.~
~âWhoa,â I murmur, grabbing the barstool and giving myself a moment to steady. I shake my head and Iâm fine. Clearly, I need that dinner I skipped. I head for the door and make my way to the parking lot when it happens again.~
~And that was the beginning of hell,~ I think, snapping back to the present. Inhaling on the rush of unwelcome adrenaline pumping through me, I do the logical thing. I reach for my coffee, but before I drink, my gaze lands on Alexandra, whoâs now staring at me. But what I see is not her but me, standing in my living room, naked and covered in blood.