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as i thought kyle is in the bathroom just staring in the mirror. he looks okay, but i know he is not.

"hi, kyle! i've been looking for you" i say to him and i step closer.

"hi johnnie" he says and gives me a smile. i feel really emotional so i just step closer and hug him. "i feel awful" he says after he breaks the hug.

"why?" i ask him while staying close.

"life sucks" he says and i have to nod. life really sucks sometimes.

we just stand in the bathroom for a few minutes, we wanted to sit down on the floor but it was so dirty, we couldn't do it. kyle talks about his situation and about his mental healt and i listen and give him advice (which is kinda hard if you struggle with your mental healt too). kyle thanks me that i'm with him and hugs me, which turns into a really long hug and when he pulls away, he kisses me. obviously this is the time jake decides to burst in to the bathroom. me and kyle get away from eachother faster then ever.

"what the fuck" he says and i can see that he had more drinks than he should've.

"jake, i can explain" i say and kyle turns his head away from us.

"johnnie i was so understanding about kyle eventhough i knew you were together or some shit and you fucking cheat on me with him in a fucking dirty bathroom?" he asks and he seems angry as fuck. his fists clenched at his sides.

"jake, it was my fault. johnnie didn't want to kiss me. i kissed him" kyle muttered, avoiding jake's gaze.

"and you thought it was a good idea to kiss my boyfriend?"

"your boyfriend?" i interrupt him. "we're not together, jake" i say.

"oh" he says and starts laughing hysterically. "nevermind then, i guess" he says still laughing and turns around to go outside of the bathroom. i just stand there in a shock.

"go after him, he is wasted" kyle says.

"yeah... i'm sorry"

"it's okay" he sighs and i rush after jake.

JAKE'S POV:

i could fucking kill someone right now.

i'm literally against violance, i think it's always unnececarry, but damn. i mean i'm fucking drunk because i downed like five vodka tonics while i waited for johnnie to come back, but he never did because he made out with kyle in the bathroom. i hear tiny steps coming behind me and i know it's him. i just go forward like i can't hear him. i reach my cigarettes in my pocket and light one.

when i realise i don't know where i'm going i just stop and wait for johnnie to talk to me, because i know he will, eventhough i don't want him to.

"hi beautiful" johnnie says, just like i did after the concert. i almost chuckle on the irony, but then i remember, that i only fucking asked a question and johnnie kissed a boy.

"shut up" i say and i'm so not myself right now. i would never talk to johnnie like that. maybe i should stop drinking.

"i'm sorry, but it was literally nothing" he says.

"yeah, maybe nothing to you, but it was definietly something to me." i say. johnnie seems sad but i don't care. i am too.

"i'm sorry jake... i wasn't... i didn't meant to..." he stutters.

"whatever... you're not my boyfriend after all."

"but i want to be."

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i know a wrote tw:sex in the story description but i realised that i'm so not gonna write smut in this story 😭 i don't feel comfortable writing this kind of stuff about real human beings and i also don't think i could write smut in english

soooo

if you only read this story for this i'm sorry 😔