Chapter 27

"Excuse me?" I was surprised at his words. Do I really prefer Alex over Arek? It can't be...

"It looks like so." He said sitting next to me on my bed.

"Neither one nor the other!" I objected belligerently. "It's just that I admire Alex in some way. He is my..." A certain word stuck in my throat and I couldn't get it out.

"He is your...?" Mateusz encouraged me to finish the sentence.

"My..." I tried again slowly but I could say nothing.

"Your friend?" Mateusz finished for me and I nodded reluctantly.

"We can put it that way." I finally agreed.

"I knew it! That you are more into him than into Arek!"

"When he saw us, he became so sad and I felt so stupid..." Mateusz smiled with satisfaction.

"Because he loves you too. It's obvious." I got irritated by his stupid ideas.

"What are you talking about?" Despite my visible irritation my heart beat faster.

"Come on! Each time I talk to him he always talks about you. And every time he sees you he gets... different. I mean... His facial expression brightens up and generally his mood gets better." I thought about his words for a moment but quickly pushed them out of my head. I've always thought that Alex is always like this.

"You're talking nonsense." I snarled. "You're telling me that on purpose!"

"Not at all!" Mateusz objected instantly ready to defend what he had just said. "If Alex wasn't on his night shifts I'd bring him here now and he'd tell you everything himself. We can wait until morning." He crossed his arms over his chest.

"No one will wait until morning. You better go to sleep.  You don't seem to be feeling well to me as you're out of your mind. Now, get off my bed." He got up offended and was already leaving the room when he suddenly stopped.

"You know, you can deceive yourself and others but you can never deceive your heart." And he left me alone with my thoughts.

For a long time I couldn't stop thinking about this conversation, about my date with Arek and Alex's behaviour. I was thinking about my date with Arek, about all the stuff we did together and my attitude towards him. Also I was analysing each word Alex spoke to me, each movement he made towards me. Mateusz was right. I could deceive others or even myself but my heart knew best. The only thing that didn't allow me to accept this fact was thought that actually we are enemies. A person can't fall in love with their enemy. It's just impossible...