Chapter 2
When I Stopped Being Your Shadow
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âHey, Ryan. what is thatâ¦â¦â
âOh, itâs noisy! Donât meddle in my affairs, okay?!â
Ryan slapped Inesâ hand, who was fixing his collar, and then walked out of the house.
It had been 3 days since they lost contact.
However, Ines could not even send a person to check on Ryan easily. It was because she was afraid that Ryan would get angry again.
But then.
âAh!â
Ines opened her eyes wide.
Through the window, she could see the carriage stopped at the townhouseâs front door. Ines, forgetting a noble ladyâs manners, rushed outside in haste.
âRyan!â
As she approached the carriage, she saw Ryan, who was drunk and unable to greet him, leaning in the carriage.
Ines opened the carriage door and tried to help Ryan.
âOh my God, what is this? Why did you drink so much⦠⦠â
The stagnant air in the carriage rushed towards her. The strong smell of alcohol and the sweet scent of perfume mixed with it.
â⦠This perfume smells definitely for women.â
She felt like cold water was poured over her head. However, she decided to ask Ryan when he woke up.
Ines stood there blankly, looking at Ryan who was asleep without knowing the world.
âNo way. No way. Iâm sure heâll give me an answer that makes senseâ¦â
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The next day, Ryan woke up late.
âWhat? perfume? What the hell are you talking about?â
He asked back with a shameless face.
Rather, he scolded Ines as if he was tired of it.
âItâs only because youâre so sensitive, will we be able to live properly as a couple in the future?â
âUh, what do you mean we canât live as a couple?â
âYou make people tired like this, and you think our married life can last?â
Ryan sarcastically mocked her.
âWhat if the heiress of the venerable Brierton was divorced?â
ââ¦â
Ines bit her lip.
The Brierton with a long history, one of the most prestigious families in the kingdom.
The Brierton was Inesâ pride and was the most precious legacy her parents left her. The reason why she gave up such a position as head of Brierton to Ryan was partly because of the trend in society where male were more recognized than females.
Above all, it was because Ines loved Ryan that much.
Because she wanted to make Ryan happy, because she wanted to laugh alongside him. But Ryan was now threatening Ines by tying the âmarried lifeâ and âBriertonâ. Because he was sure Ines loved him and Brierton passionately.
Even for the honor of the family, knowing that she will never leave him.
âBut itâs true that youâve been out too often lately.â
Ines, who could not stand it, protested like that.
âInes, are you admonishing me now?â
Ryan only looked at Ines up and down with a shocked expression.
âYou have to understand that men have a social life. How long are you going to be so immature?â
At that cold reply, Ines felt as if the world was collapsing.
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While Ines was struggling alone because of her relationship with Ryan.
âInes, long time no see!â
Charlotte visited, as if waiting for the couple to argue.
Ines was a little embarrassed by the unannounced visit.
âThis is how you communicate with your friends? Right, Ines?â
At Charlotteâs kind words, Ines silently nodded.
Her relationship with Ryan confused her head. She didnât want to say anything bad to Charlotte, her only friend and best friend.
âI have an appointment around here today, so I came to visit for a while because I have some time in the middle.â
ââ¦â
It was a very dignified attitude.
Charlotte shrugged and continued.
âWill you treat me to a cup of tea, Ines?â
âOh, yes.â
Of course, Ines prepared high-end tea and refreshments as usual.
In front of that splendid tea table, Charlotte opened her mouth as if she was giving a great favor.
âTell me if you have any concerns.â
ââ¦â
âThatâs what friends are for.â
Of course, if Ines had been in a normal state, she would have suspected Charlotte, who had visited Ines at the right time and was impulsive. However, Ines was half out of her mind because of her concerns about Ryan.
âThatâs actuallyâ¦.. .â
So Ines cautiously told her about this matter.
âWell, isnât that your fault?â
But all that came back was Charlotteâs unbelievable answer after she heard Inesâs story.
Ines shuddered and stiffened her shoulders.
âIs it my fault?â
âOf course. If not, then is it Count Briertonâs fault?â
For a moment, Ines felt speechless. It was strange.
It was definitely Ryanâs fault with her common sense, but everybody was telling Ines that she was wrong.
Charlotte shrugged her shoulders.
âHonestly, you are the kind of person who is a bit bothersome to men.â
âMeâ¦.?â
âYes. Men absolutely hate obsessive women like you.â
Charlotte continued to grumble over the high-quality sweets that were served as refreshments.
âIsnât Count Brierton tired of you because you bother him?â
âWell, then what should I do?â
âUm, if it were me⦠⦠â
Charlotte, who had tilted her head pretending to be thinking, smiled softly.
âI think Iâll just leave the Count alone.â
â⦠⦠Ryan? Butâ¦â¦â
âActually, the Count has a very free-spirited personality. Loosening a little can help improve relationships in the long run.â
Charlotte, who said so, was surprised and raised her body.
âOh, itâs almost time for my appointment. Then Iâll get going, and see you next time!â
Ines looked at the back of Charlotte, who was walking out of the room with a bewildered gaze.
She didnât know until then that Charlotteâs promise âto be aroundâ was a secret meeting with Ryan.
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Ines, who could not depend on anyone, gradually became isolated.
âAm I really weird?â
âIs my lack of understanding the problem?â
âIf I keep trying, will Ryan come back to me someday?â
âIâm bad, Iâm wrong. I couldnât satisfy Ryanâ¦â¦ â
In the midst of endless self-deprecation, self-hatred, and self-pity, Ines was getting more and more devastated.
Meanwhile, she witnessed an affair between Ryan and Charlotte.
She would rather have an opportunity to completely clear up her relationship with Ryan.
After working at the studio, Ryan changed his attitude like flipping the palm of his hand to convince Ines.
âIâm sorry, this is just⦠I just deviated for a while.â
Despite being cold-hearted until now, Ryan hugged Ines, who was dazed, tightly in his arms.
âMen sometimes act like children. You understand, huh?â
âBut Ryanâ¦â¦ â
âIâll get rid of Charlotte quickly.â
Ryan shoved a push into Inezâs ear.
âYou are my only wife, Ines.â
ââ¦.â
âIf I achieve a little more success, Ines, I will surely make you happy.â
Unable to refuse those sweet words, Ines still loved Ryan too much.
Because it was.
âIs there anything new youâre working on these days, Ines?â
ââ¦â
âI want you to paint some still lifes this time.â
All works drawn by Ines were published under Ryanâs name, and were praised as masterpieces that will never happen again.
Three years passed like that.
In the meantime, Ines drew countless pictures, handed over the rights to *Gottâs family, and helped Ryan. (*Ryan Gott)
She wanted Ryan to like her.
Because she wanted to receive even a small piece of affection from him.
Then one day.
âYouâve worked hard all this time, Ines.â
Ryan smiled and patted Ines on the shoulder.
That time when Inesâ face brightened at the kind words she had not heard in a long time.
âSo, letâs end our relationship.â
ââ¦â¦ What are you talking about, Ryan?â
âSee, Ines?â
Ryan handed a document to Ines.
âYou are no longer the Countess of Brierton.â
âWhat?â
âYouâre just a psychopath.â
The document issued by a certain large psychiatric hospital had a full history of Inesâ mental illness.
Excessive confidence, obsession, paranoia, hallucinations ⦠. The only problem was that Ines had never even set foot in that mental hospital.
âThe hospitalization procedure has already been completed. The psychiatric hospital will come to pick you up soon.â
âI donât like it, no Ryan⦠!â
Ines, who was shaking her head violently, faltered back.
Ryan narrowed his brow.
âInes?â
At the same time, Ines ran out of the house.
âI must run away. I canât stay locked up in a mental hospital for the rest of my life!â
She ran breathlessly.
She wanted to get out of Ryanâs grip somehow.
And.
Boom!
âHey, whatâs going on?â
âA person was hit by a wagon!â
There was a commotion all around.
Ines was lying on the floor, immovable.
However, there was no pain. She was just confused.
âThen, I think Iâve only lived for Ryan all my life.â
Even the honor, wealth, and title that Ryan had built up so far.
All of these were the things given to him by Ines.
âI want to get it back.â
At the end of the regret that cut through her heart, Ines slowly closed her eyes. It was an insignificant death that did not remain in anyoneâs memory.