Bonus Accident: Three

Songs for this chapter:

Zombie by Day6

Never felt so alone by Labrinth

Stoned at the nail salon by Lorde

Nobody by Mitski

Cardigan by Taylor Swift

Evergreen (you didn't deserve me at all) by Omar Apollo

Hallucinate by Declan McKenna

Džanum by Teya Dora

Hi! Couldn't sleep so here's a little something. Hope you enjoy it!

The realization had Jimin awake all night.

It was like he just woke up from a good sleep, feeling rested, eyes wide awake, even though he did not catch a wink of sleep in almost the last twenty four hours.

He couldn't sleep, couldn't really comprehend the act, when he had the realization of being in love with Jeon Jungkook.

He felt stupid, Jungkook is so young, he is so young.

He didn't know if being young meant his feelings are more pure, genuine, or just childishly dumb.

Park Jimin did not know any better.

Not when a boy with bambi shining wide eyes always looked at him with admiration even if timidly.

But Jungkook wasn't good with feelings, wasn't good with words either.

Jimin knew that.

So the easiest fucking thing in the world was to love Jeon Jungkook unconditionally.

Jimin had no idea how something like that could hurt, and how much it did so, but it also felt so good.

Park Jimin was raised by love, was full of love himself that he sometimes didn't know where to put it.

Most times he put it in his family, and then his new family and band mates, and somehow, the younger one a little more.

This Park Jimin did not know Jungkook will eventually be his, cause he really will be.

So the bravest thing Park Jimin has ever done was love Jeon Jungkook, his friend.

He loved him that day, probably loved him the days before that, and he continued to love him through all the sleepless nights and the good ones as well.

The thing was, Jimin did not choose this, not at all, not when this could complicate everything, not when Jimin could lose everything.

So he really came to learn that the easiest thing really was loving Jungkook unconditionally.

And it showed.

Jungkook could wake up on the wrong side of bed, be rude to his hyungs all day, even when all of them were wounded up tightly, the youngest somehow found that he had the most right to show it.

So in the hyung's eyes that was Jungkook worst version.

Somehow, Jimin seemed to see past all of that.

He realized it, he saw it, he lived in it, and somehow, he couldn't really see what was the big deal?

More and more, the hyungs would point out character flaws in the youngest, in all good intentions and as hyungs living with a growing boy, and making sure they teach him good manners, they tried to do it as often as possible, while still being gentle with him.

Jimin was the only one who would never point out anything like that.

Not because Jimin is too kind, and such a people pleaser that he physically couldn't do it, no.

But because Jimin genuinely could not see any flaw that he could point out to help Jungkook grow in the right direction.

And that was generally what made Jimin start to suspect he loved his donsaeng a little more than he should.

Jungkook was the flakey type, he never answered the group chat, couldn't pick up any calls cause he didn't like to speak on the phone, disappeared on breaks and was always with himself.

It frustrated the members.

All but Jimin, he couldn't find what was wrong with it.

So he liked to be alone, so what? He doesn't like to talk a lot, okay? He rarely ever opens up, what was wrong with that?

The other thing was, Jimin never, never really got mad at Jungkook.

Even when Jungkook hurt him repeatedly, intentionally or not.

Rejecting making lives with him, rejecting his hugs, pushing him away when he got too close, barely complementing him, and always ranking him last in looks.

These things hurt Jimin sure, one of them he actually found himself crying later at night about it but he never really held any bad feelings towards Jungkook.

Jimin was treading dangerous territory he knew that.

Still he couldn't stop.

He wondered if there will ever come a time where Jimin will just stop.

He wondered if one day, Jungkook could do anything to change that, to make Jimin force himself to stop his unconditional love for him.

That would be the second worst thing that could happen to Park Jimin.

He could not imagine the younger ever breaking his heart enough that he would have to stop himself from the thing he did best.

Loving.

Jimin couldn't imagine ever having to stop himself from doing something so, ordinary, familiar, habitual.

As Jimin continued to stare at his ceiling he began to wonder when did he start to burn for Jeon Jungkook.

A piece of his heart told him that it has been lit aflame for a while, he was just too damn distracted for him to notice.

His heart had been burning for too many summers now.

He just didn't know.

Didn't notice.

Maybe he should stop it now? Maybe he should do the responsible act of keeping his feelings in check? Maybe he should cool it down?

What did that even mean?

No, he will love Jungkook as long as he breathed.

Maybe he'll spend all his life loving Jeon Jungkook unconditionally, unrequited.

But then maybe, maybe they'll make history?

Jimin didn't know any better, but he was willing to bet on his love for Jeon Jungkook.

And as a heavy body made his bed dip, Park Jimin was reminded of the worst thing that could ever happen in his life.

Jeon Jungkook moved to scoot next to Park Jimin, seeking shelter and warmth.

"Can't sleep too, Jimie hyung?" He had mumbled sleepily, seeming like he was already in a deep sleep before he woke up and got here.

Jimin was still frozen laying on his back with his arm laid up on top of his head, he was only able to turn his head to the boy who he was so deeply in love with.

And as Jimin let himself be moved by Jungkook so the younger could hide into him while he slept, Park Jimin thought of the worst thing.

The worst thing to happen in Park Jimin's life, was losing Jeon Jungkook.