accident eighteen: fears

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Please never fall in love again by Ollie MN

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Both boys had stayed awake until the sun came up, catching up on the things they haven't told each other.

Taehyung told Jimin about how his friendship with Yoongi deepened, and how their hyung was always there for him when Jimin wasn't, at which Jimin kept apologising again and again.

Jimin told Taehyung more about that fear of his, and how he never wanted to take Jungkook for granted, so Taehyung told him he should voice those fears out to Jungkook, because relationships are all about communication.

When they finally fell asleep, it was 6:00 AM.

Taehyung had to get up after only two hours of sleep to make breakfast, deciding to pay Jungkook a visit on his way to the kitchen.

When he went into the room, he found Jungkook snoring away and cuddling to his pillow. "Jungkook-ah." Taehyung whispered, shaking the younger's shoulder slightly.

Startled, Jungkook snapped his eyes open and turned around. "What? Is something wrong? Is Jimin hyung okay?" He pushed the covers away, about to get out of bed and go to Jimin's room.

Taehyung laughed, so Jungkook paused. "He's okay. Everything is okay, we made up. I just woke up a little early to make breakfast, thought I should let you know." He said, giving Jungkook a wink after.

Jungkook groaned. "Hyung!" He said, covering his face.

"Don't get all shy now. Jimin hyung told me everything." Taehyung teased, wiggling his eyebrows.

Jungkook choked, coughing a little. "I don't know what you're talking about. I'm gonna go to Jiminie's room." He tried changing the subject, getting up from the bed.

"And do what exactly?" Taehyung teased again. It was so easy.

Jungkook turned red. "Hyung! We're just gonna cuddle!" He defended himself, about to walk out of the room.

"Jungkook-ah!"

Jungkook turned around. "Yeah?"

"Thank you." Taehyung said, giving Jungkook a sincere smile.

Jungkook smiled in return. "Anytime, hyung."

"Baby?"

Jungkook slipped into bed beside Jimin, cuddling against his back, and nuzzling his neck. "Mmm?" Jimin groaned, still half asleep.

Jungkook let out a contented sigh, falling back to sleep,

"Love birds! Wake up! Breakfast is ready!" and Jungkook was woken up again by banging on the door half an hour later.

"Seriously." Jungkook muttered. "Okay hyung!" He yelled to Hoseok who was behind the door. "Jiminie? Baby, wake up." He whispered, shaking Jimin.

Jimin only turned around to bury his head in Jungkook's chest, refusing to wake up.

Jungkook laughed. "Hey, I'm talking to you. Don't ignore me." He whispered again, playing with Jimin's hair and sweeping the strands on his forehead. "When did you sleep hyung? I have a feeling you stayed up till the morning." Jungkook continued to talk to himself. "You did, didn't you." He sighed, a little jealous. He then got up from the bed, and picked Jimin up in his arms.

Jimin opened his eyes slightly. "Huh?" When he found it was Jungkook who was carrying him, he simply closed his eyes again, going back to sleep.

"Oh, come on!" Jungkook grumbled when Jimin went back to sleep. "Don't make me do this hyung!"

The rest of the members were greeted by the sight of Jungkook carrying a sleeping Jimin.

"Is he okay?" Jin asked in concern.

"Yeah, hyung. He's just sleeping." Jungkook said to Jin, walking over to the nearest seat and sitting down with Jimin on his lap. "Taehyung hyung, when did you both go to sleep?" Jungkook asked, unconsciously tightening his hold around Jimin.

Taehyung placed two plates in front of Jungkook. "Around six in the morning I think." Taehyung informed, sitting down beside Jungkook.

The younger just hummed as a reply, and looked down at Jimin. "Jiminie?" Jungkook bounced his leg a little, so Jimin would wake up. "Baby, c'mon. We're in the kitchen."

Jimin woke up at that, squinting from the lights. "What?" He looked up at Jungkook. "Jungkook-ah?"

"Yes. It's me, and we're in the kitchen having breakfast, but you wouldn't wake up so I carried you here." Jungkook explained to a sleep induced Jimin, helping him adjust his sitting position.

Jimin looked at the two plates in front of him, and then turned to look at Jungkook.

Puzzled, Jungkook frowned his eyebrows. "Pick a plate I don't mind?" He said, confusedly, still not getting what Jimin meant.

Jimin just kept looking at the food, and then looking back at Jungkook.

"Oh!" Jungkook reached over and started to cut Jimin's pancakes into little pieces, forking some and feeding Jimin, who leaned back into Jungkook comfortably, chewing with his eyes closed.

"Cute!" Namjoon squealed.

Jin just slapped the back of his head.

"Ow!" Namjoon whined, turning to Jin, who was sitting beside him. "What was that for?"

Hoseok smiled evilly. "Hurts, doesn't it." He said, and Namjoon turned to him this time, and nodded. "Yeah. About time you got a taste of it!" He screamed in his face.

"Who am I sitting with? The Illuminati?" Namjoon muttered, rubbing the back of his head.

Jimin cleared his throat. "No, honey. You're sitting with your 'O.J.' members." He remarked, raising one eyebrow.

Jungkook pinched Jimin's thigh.

Jin chocked on his coffee.

"You knew!" Yoongi let out, standing up from his chair. "So it was you, and you both acted like you were sleeping."

Jimin looked anywhere but at his hyungs, trying not to make eye contact. "Oopsie?" He said cutely, not even trying to look guilty.

Jungkook just hid his face in Jimin's back, knowing what's coming.

Jin gasped, standing up from his chair too. "So that time you made hot chocolate for Jimin, you were both acting!" He exclaimed, putting his hand on his heart, feeling betrayed.

"You frauds!" Hoseok yelled, laughing at the mess Jimin made with a simple remark.

"Oh! So we're frauds because we accidentally found out you made a little alliance about setting us up together, and hid it from you to have a little fun?!" Jimin stood up from Jungkook's lap, and clapped. "Wow guys."

Jungkook was exposed now, literally and figuratively, so he just hid his face with his hands. "Jimin, just shut up you're making it worse." He whispered, pulling at Jimin's shirt to get him to sit down again.

Taehyung was the one to gasp this time, standing up to state another conclusion. "Oh my God."

"What? What is it?!" Yoongi urged.

Taehyung turned to Jimin. "You. You liar!" He said pointing at Jimin accusingly.

Jimin pointed at himself in question. "Me? What did I do?" He asked snarkily.

"Jimin just sit down please. We're about to be eaten alive." Jungkook whispered again, trying to get Jimin to sit down.

"You! You played us all. You made us all slip up, and mention your relationship just to tell us 'uhhh what do you mean?' right?!" Taehyung said, laughing in disbelief after.

Hoseok and Namjoon both stood up from their chairs. "What!"

"I was traumatized!" Hoseok said, fake sobbing.

Namjoon's eyes widened. "The guilt I had to live with! Ow! I think I'm having a heart attack." He said, putting his hand on his heart as if he was really about to have a heart attack.

Jin moved to steady Namjoon, and the latter put his arm around Jin's shoulders. "Look what you've done to our leader." Jin accused.

Jimin held back a giggle. "Our leader, or your leader." He mocked one last time, pulling Jungkook up and making their escape to their room.

"Yah!" Yoongi yelled jokingly, and sat down. "Told you guys Jimin would slip up." He reminded.

Namjoon sat down too. "But why did you insist on me saying the word 'Illuminati' hyung?" Namjoon questioned.

"Because that's what Jimin concluded that night when they heard our meeting." Yoongi explained simply. "The word would surely trigger that memory of his, so he would unconsciously point it out."

Taehyung sat down, the rest sitting down again. "You're a genius, Yoongi hyung!" He said, ruffling Yoongi's hair.

If it was any other member, they would have a broken arm by now.

Hoseok started laughing when he replayed what happened a few seconds ago in his head. "Guys, but their faces though; priceless. Karma really is a bitch." He kept laughing, the rest laughing along with him.

"You both know I still need to talk to you, right?" Namjoon said, walking into the studio where Jimin and Jungkook were.

Jimin sighed. "Is this about the O.J. thing? It's only fair now hyung! You knew, and pretended not to, and then we knew about you knowing abou-"

"I'm not talking about that Jimin-ah. I'm talking about the talk we agreed on. You know, 'the talk'." Namjoon interrupted, making quotation gestures with his hands.

Jimin's mouth formed an 'O' shape.

Jungkook reached over to hold Jimin's hand assuredly. "Okay, hyung. Do you want to do it now?" He said, sitting up properly, preparing himself for the worst.

Jimin felt shy all of a sudden when Jungkook did that. It definitely felt good to have someone to rely on.

All his life he only had Taehyung for that, but it felt different when being in a relationship.

"Yeah. C'mon. Let's find somewhere to talk."

The three of them walked into a small meeting room, and sat down with Namjoon in front of them.

Jungkook, with his hand still holding Jimin's was the one to start the conversation. "We're ready hyung." He said confidently.

"Well, I'm not gonna interfere in your relationship or anything. I just have a few advices to give you both, but first I need to ask you some questions." Namjoon stated, resting his hands on the table business like.

Jimin looked at Jungkook nervously, who was still composed. "Fire away."

"Are you planning on coming out to the company? Or to army?" Namjoon raised his eyebrows, waiting for them to answer.

Jimin stuttered. "We uhh-"

"Still haven't talked about it." Jungkook said, talking for the both of them, and squeezing Jimin's hand.

Namjoon nodded. "I understand. Now, have you thought about the possibility of this not working out? I'm not trying to jinx it or anything, but it's still a possibility that we can't ignore. Would it affect the band?"

Jimin bit his bottom lip, having nothing to say to that.

"We're gonna work hard on our relationship hyung, but if anything were to happen -which it won't- we're both mature adults, and I think we're fully capable of handling it well. Don't you think so Jimin hyung?" Jungkook said, bumping his shoulder into Jimin's.

Jimin looked up at Jungkook, imagining what it would be like if they broke up. "Yeah. Of course." He smiled, turning to Namjoon. "There's nothing to worry about hyung." He assured.

Namjoon clapped his hands in finality. "Okay! I'm done with the questions, but listen carefully. A relationship is all about communication. It's almost like our band. We're a team right? Now, you're a smaller team. Your decisions now don't just affect you as an individual, but it also affect your partner. That's why you should always put each other's feelings into consideration, and put yourself in the other's shoes. A relationship requires a lot of responsibilities. It's not a walk in the park, and it definitely isn't rainbows and sunshine all the time. There's gonna be times where you're gonna be sick of each other, and sometimes the little things would drive you crazy, so you always have to remember the reason you started this in the first place, and why you're doing it." Namjoon said, looking at Jimin and Jungkook to make sure they were listening, and they were. "One final advice. If either one of you falls out of love, they have to tell the other." Having said all of what was on his mind he leaned back on his chair. "You're dismissed." He gestured to the door.

Jimin and Jungkook turned to each other with the same look. They stood up and went over to Namjoon.

"We love you hyung!" They both yelled, attacking Namjoon with hugs.

Namjoon laughed. "Okay! I love the both of you too. Now go! You've got work to do!"

"Alright! Bring the popcorn!" Namjoon shouted from his place on the couch.

Jin walked into the living room with the last batch of popcorn, placing the bowl in Namjoon's lap. "I'm not your wife you know?"

Namjoon reached to tickle Jin, who squealed and moved away to the other side of the couch. "Oh I wish!" He flirted, turning to Jin and wiggling his eyebrows.

Jin replied with a smack on Namjoon's head.

"Ow!"

Yoongi walked into the living room, having just finished washing up. "Yoongi hyung!" Taehyung called, and Yoongi turned to look at him. "Come sit with me hyung." Taehyung gave Yoongi a boxy smile, patting the spot on the couch next to him.

And how could Yoongi refuse.

"Am I being the seventh wheel here?" Hoseok wondered out loud, making the members laugh.

Jimin raised his head from Jungkook's lap. "How is that possible hyung? We're the only couple here." He pointed out.

Hoseok gave Jimin a look and then turned around to look at the four members, and turned to look at Jimin again.

When Jimin noticed, he giggled. "Oh, my bad." He apologized, covering his mouth with his hand, holding back more giggles. "Jungkookie, stop!" He squealed, but Jungkook just kept on tickling him.

"A couple huh?" Jungkook teased, and got hit on the shoulder by Jimin.

Jimin blushed. "Shut up!"

"Hoseok-ah! Come here, and cuddle with us. You're not seventh wheeling or whatever." Yoongi said, pulling Taehyung with him a little to the side to make space for Hoseok on the couch.

"Oh! Thank you kind sir!" Hoseok said, getting up from the pillow he was sitting on, on the floor, and going to sit beside Taehyung, who wrapped his arm around him, and leaned on Yoongi.

"And, who's gonna start the movie?" Jungkook asked.

"Oh! Me. Wait!" Namjoon got up to look for the remote control, and started the movie, sitting down again next to Jin.

Jimin had moved to sit next to Jungkook, with the younger's arm around him, pulling him close. "Jimin-ssi." Jungkook whispered in Jimin's ear, giving the smaller one a little scare, but making shivers run down his spine at the same time. "Jiminie." Jungkook pouted when Jimin didn't say anything.

"What is it Kookie?" Jimin asked, turning to look at Jungkook, and ditching the movie.

Jungkook smiled at him, and Jimin automatically smiled back.

"What is it?" Jimin whined, pulling at Jungkook's sweatshirt.

"I missed you yesterday." Jungkook admitted, getting a little shy. "I actually didn't sleep that much. I went to sleep around the same time you did. I was a little worried about you." He looked down, playing with a thread sticking out of Jimin's shirt.

Jimin felt warm inside, despite wearing a short sleeved t-shirt. "I missed you too, Kookie, and I'm not just saying that for the heck of it, but- you're actually gonna laugh at this. When Taehyung went to sleep next to me, I woke up, because I knew it wasn't you." Jimin explained.

Jungkook didn't laugh, the image of Jimin cuddling with someone else prevented him from doing so, but he awwed instead. "Baby! You really did that?!" When Jimin nodded, Jungkook threw himself at him, laying on top of him on the couch and wrapping his arms around him as best as he could in their position. "I really love you Jimin-ssi." He raised his head to look at Jimin in the eye while saying it, just starting to lean in to kiss him.

Jimin covered Jungkook's mouth. "Kookie. I love you too, so much, but we're not alone." He said, widening his eyes and looking in the direction of his hyungs and best friend.

Jungkook sighed, and started to lean back, so Jimin pulled his hand away, only for Jungkook to quickly lean down again and steal a kiss from Jimin, and sit up straight like nothing had happened.

"Yah!" Jimin yelled, making the members turn to look at him.

"What's wrong Jiminie?" Jin asked.

"Yeah what's wrong Jiminie?" Jungkook teased, giving Jimin a challenging look.

Jimin blushed. "N- Nothing." Jimin said, and they all turned to focus on the movie again. "You're gonna pay for this Jungkookie." Jimin leaned to whisper in Jungkook's ear, making the younger gulp in nervousness.

"Bring it on, Jimin-ssi."

"You shouldn't have done that Jimin." Jungkook stated simply.

Jimin flinched from his tone. "I'm sorry. I swear I didn't mean to. I'm sorry." Jimin kept repeating.

"I think we should stop this." Jungkook finally said, ending the conversation that kept going in circles for the past half an hour.

Jimin quickly looked up, his eyes filled with tears. "What!" He cried, moving to hold both of Jungkook's hands. "B- But you said that we're gonna w- work hard on our relationship. Ju- Jungkookie please don't do this." Jimin begged, holding onto Jungkook's hands for dear life.

Jungkook removed his hands from Jimin's grip. "it's for the best Jimin hyung, and I also said that if we were to break up, we'd be mature about it, and you're not being a mature adult right now." Jungkook said, looking away from Jimin.

"Just hear me out. We can work through this. Right? I'm your Jimin-ssi. I'm your baby! Please Jungkook-ah. I can't- I c- can't live without you." Jimin kept on begging. His words coming out of his mouth in short breathes. His face red, and wet with tears. His heart kept squeezing uncomfortably. His hands were shaking.

Jimin was hyperventilating, he couldn't remember what he had done wrong at this point. All he could see, hear, and feel, was Jungkook breaking up with him. "Jimin!"

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry." Jimin kept repeating, closing his eyes tightly.

"Jimin!"

"I'm sorry." He sobbed, feeling pain all over his chest.

"Baby! Wake up please! You're making me worried." Jungkook was on the verge of crying himself, until he saw Jimin open his eyes. "Thank god!" Jungkook cried, pulling Jimin to his chest.

Jimin was literally shook awake, with the pain in his chest still there, and his cheeks wet with tears. The dream giving him an anxiety attack.

Jungkook rocked Jimin back and forth in his arms. "You're okay. You're okay. You're with me." He kept repeating, leaning down to plant multiple kisses on Jimin's forehead.

"Jun- Jungkook-ah?" Jimin looked up, just now coming back to reality.

Jungkook's tears came back when he looked at the state Jimin was in. "Yes baby. It's me. What's wrong? Tell me what happened." He leaned down again to kiss Jimin's head, it seemed the more he did it, the more it brought Jimin out of his state.

Jimin took a deep breath, sniffling. "You broke up w- with me." Jimin started to cry again when he remembered, the dream felt so real.

Jungkook pulled Jimin in a hug. "No I didn't. That wasn't me. We're here right now. Look around you. We're in our room, in our bed." He pulled away to hold Jimin's face in his hands. "What sane person would break up with a literal sunshine like you? Certainly not me. I would never do that, and even if you broke up with me, I would never let go of you. You hear me?" Jungkook whispered, pulling Jimin's forehead to rest against his.

Jimin sniffled again. "But you said if we break up we're gonna be mature about it, and you said that to me in the dream too. That's not being mature." Jimin mumbled.

Jungkook smiled. "That was me acting mature, but I'm far from it, honey. Don't tell Namjoon hyung though." He whispered. "Remember how I locked myself in my room for a week?" Jimin nodded. "And we weren't even in a relationship. Imagine what I would do if I actually lost you, after being with you like this, after I got to call you mine. Yeah, that's not happening. You're not gonna get rid of me that easily. I'm gonna be your stalker ex, baby." Jungkook wiggled his eyebrows, making Jimin laugh.

"Really?" Jimin asked, still laughing.

"Really." Jungkook confirmed, pulling Jimin in another hug. "God, you scared me." Jungkook sighed in relief. "You were screaming in your sleep about how sorry you were, and then you started crying, and shaking. I was so scared." Jungkook said, tightening his arms around Jimin, who kept rubbing Jungkook's back, trying to comfort him.

"I'm sorry, Kookie." Jimin whispered, resting his head on Jungkook's shoulder.

Jungkook started to sway them a little. "I don't ever wanna hear you say that again. It's too traumatizing for me now." He shuddered.

Jimin laughed. "Okay I won't."

"I'm actually offended you had that dream when I was literally holding you in your sleep." Jungkook remarked, acting like he was really offended.

The older rested his hand on the back of Jungkook's head, scratching his scalp. "It must have been triggered by our talk with Namjoon hyung, and my talk with Taehyung." Jimin theorized.

"What talk with Taehyung?" Jungkook asked, his jealousy about to come out.

Jimin held Jungkook's cheek. "Calm down, Kookie. It's nothing bad. It's just." Jimin trailed off. "Sometimes I would get this fear of waking up one day and you would stop loving me, or that you would break up with me when you realize you could do better, and that fear made me focus only on you, and not pay attention to Taehyung." He explained slowly, afraid of making Jungkook angry.

"Well, as much as I enjoy you focusing only on me, it's not healthy to neglect the rest of your life because of me." Jungkook advised. "Having said that, I wanna make another thing clear." He cleared his throat. "I Jeon Jungkook, promise to love you, Park Jimin, until the day I die. Nothing would change that, not now, not ever, not even in another life. And I promise that one day, when we're both ready, you won't be Park Jimin anymore." Jungkook vowed in a firm tone. "And now you may kiss the bride!" He joked, leaning the rest of the way to kiss Jimin, who couldn't decide if this was the worst day of his life because of the dream, or the best day of his life just because Jeon Jungkook existed.

When they pulled away Jimin was out of breath. "I couldn't be more in love with you." Jimin said, slightly dazed. "Jungkookie?"

Jungkook started to lean in again. "Yeah?"

"I have a massive headache." Jimin mumbled, he didn't mean to kill the mood, but the headache was killing him.

"Oh. Sure, hyung. Should I go make you something or do you want an aspirin? Are you strong enough to walk to the kitchen? Or should I bring it to you?" Jungkook kept asking, a little flustered.

Jimin opened his arms and made grabby hands, gesturing for Jungkook to carry him, and Jungkook did, walking to the kitchen with Jimin holding onto him like a koala bear, and resting his head on Jungkook's shoulder. "Your shoulder is so comfy." He mumbled, closing his eyes.

"I'm glad, hyung." Jungkook joked, well aware Jimin was about to go to sleep any second now, so he started to make Jimin his herbal tea, with the mochi still in his arms.

When he was finished, he bounced Jimin to wake him up. "Why do I feel like, today, you literally treated me as a real baby?" Jimin said, his voice rough with sleep.

"I don't intend to. I just find myself doing it. I mean, have you met yourself? You're the real definition of a baby mochi." The younger explained sitting them down in front of the kitchen table, Jimin turning around to face the table.

Jimin laughed. "No, I haven't met myself, but I wish to, someday." He said sarcastically, taking a sip of his tea.

"Don't sass me Jimin-ssi." Jungkook warned, poking Jimin in the waist.

Jimin squealed. "Okay! Okay." He took another sip of his drink, the warm liquid calming him down. "Jungkook-ah, that tea-" he let out a satisfied sigh, putting his cup back on the table and leaning back against Jungkook. "is amazing, and I like sitting like this too. It's like you're my own.." Jimin kept rambling, closing his eyes and slowly falling asleep.

Jungkook laughed softly. "Did you really just fall asleep mid sentence?"