Chapter Sixty-Three

I sat with my back to that door for I don't know how long texting Ba Wei.  We talked about nothing but even that made me feel something other than empty.

I wanted so bad to get up and check if my father had left but my legs wouldn't move. The pain that once lingered on my body had become dull. It was only a numb ache. If I hadn't been texting Ba Wei I would've probably cried myself to sleep. How pathetic.

Thinking about what happened earlier didn't make me feel any kind of way. It was in the past so I couldn't change it. Not that I wanted to anyway. I didn't say anything wrong, nor would I ever take it back. I know I apologized but what was I supposed to do. I couldn't hit him back. He's my father...not that he wants to be.

I was pulled out of my thoughts by my phone ringing. I looked down to see Ba Weis name. I raised an eyebrow. I answered the call. Before I could even say hello Ba Weis voice hit my ears.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing. Just sitting around. Why?"

"Open the door."

"Huh? why?"

"Why else would someone ask you to open the door."

I didn't say anything and just hung up. I looked down at my bare abdomen and sighed. I grabbed the shirt I had tossed onto the floor and pulled it over my head. I got to my feet and very reluctantly opened the door.

I was happy to hear silence. I let out a deep sigh and made my way to the front door. I unlocked it and as I opened it I was met by a smiling Ba Wei.

I smirked, "Why do you have that stupid look on your face?"

"Oh snappy are you," he said laughing. "Just let me in."

He pushed me aside and I walked in. I wish I would've been upset but I wasn't because I wasn't mad that he was here. In fact, I was somewhat happy.

"What are you doing here," I asked shutting them door?

"Just came to visit."

I watched as he flopped down on my couch. His bangs hung over his eyes making a shadow lay across his face. It made his already angular features stand out even more. How handsome.

"Visit? Why?"

"You sounded lonely, so I came to keep you company."

I couldn't help but laugh at his rather childish reply. I walked over to the couch and sat down beside him.

"What are you a kid?"

"No," he turned and looked at me, "quite the opposite actually."

I shift my eyes, "I can't tell. You act like one."

"Only in front of you."

"I doubt it."

Ba Wei was silent for a moment. Even though I wasn't looking at him I could tell his eyes were on me.

"You truly think I act like this with other people?"

"I don't know. I don't really see you around many other people."

Ba Wei chuckled, "in quite a serious person."

"That's hard to believe."

Even though I said that I could see it. Knowing everything he's told me about his father and what kind of business he keeps let's me know enough. My father may be a piece of shit, but I know for a fact that what ever childhood he had was probably worse than mine.

"Why? Do I not look like a upright student?"

I nudged him with my shoulder, "I'm your tutor. That should answer that question."

Ba Wei didn't say anything and just laughed. It was refreshing to feel such a different vibe in the room. What was once melancholy and blue was now joyous and gold. I let my eyes drift to the foot as a small smile splattered itself across my face.

"Hey," Ba Wei called.

"Hmm?"

"Are you okay?" My eyes snapped in his direction and our eyes immediately met.

"Yeah. Why do you ask?"

"Not a particular reason. Just wanted to make sure." He was silent for a few minutes. "I know how draining those conversations can be."

"More like argument."

"Damn," he shifted his eyes, "it got that bad."

"Yeah. You don't know my father. He even..."

I sighed and looked up at the ceiling. I didn't even want to finish that sentence. It was annoying, and knowing how Ba Wei is he would only make it more annoying. It's not a big deal. I don't have to tell him anyway.

"He even what?"

"Nothing. Just the usual shit."

Ba Wei didn't say anything in return and let out a sigh. I couldn't help but wonder what exactly he was sighing about. I was waiting for him to say something but he never did. He was completely silent. I looked over at him to see him staring straight ahead. I raised an eyebrow ad I recalled something funny.

"Ba Wei," I called.

He didn't move nor did he blink. Is he asleep with his eyes open or something? I reached out and waved my hand in front of his face. Almost immediately his eyes snapped towards mine.

"You were scaring me there."

"Uh sorry. I was thinking about something."

"What was that?"

"Surprisingly it was school related."

"Oh that's a shocker."

"Yeah it was about midterms." I didn't say anything and he took this as an ok to keep talking. "They're definitely going to challenging."

"Well it wouldn't be a midterm if it wasn't. That why we study."

"That why you study. I just wig it."

I couldn't help but laugh, "stupid. You can't do that this year."

"And why not?"

"It's your senior year. Plus you know, you'll make me look bad."

Ba Wei laughed, "we wouldn't want that would we."

"We wouldn't," I chuckled out.

Ba Wei just laughed and I soon joined in. It was nice to laugh, even if the topic was serious. It took a few minutes for the laughter to die down, and when it did it only left silence. After a few minutes passed of us just sitting in silence Ba Wei suddenly asked a question.

"Have you thought about what you want to do after to school? Like college or anything?"

I ran a hand through my hair, "not really. Honestly I don't even know what I'm good at."

Even though saying those words felt foreign it was the truth. Though out my years of life I always followed orders, and when I didn't I caused problems. As much as I hate to admit it, taking orders fit me more than giving them.

"I feel the same on that. I've never had a chance to see what I'm good at. It's just always been expected of me to succeeded my father as the gang head."

When I heard that sentence leave his mouth I couldn't help but relate. Since I was young it's always been expected of me to want to get the company after my father passes or even gets sick. Come to think of it that time is getting closer.

"Really? Not even when you were very young?"

"No," he said chuckling, "I wanted to be just like my dad when I was young."

I looked down at the floor, "Don't we all. It's funny how things change doesn't it."

Ba Wei didn't say anything, but out of the corner of my eye I could see his hand coming towards me. I flinched slightly when I felt his hand on my back of my neck, but when he squeezed it gently I relaxed.

"Sometimes change is good."

I looked up at him and somehow staring into those eyes made me question if that sentence was even on topic of what I said; but even so I didn't care.

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