Chapter Fifty-One

"Are you gay," Ba Wei asked.

I looked over at him not sure what to say. I wouldn't say that I am gay but I like him. So what does that make me?

"I'm not sure."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that I'm not sure. This is the first time I've been attracted to..."

"A man?"

I glanced up at him, "yeah. In truth it's the first time I've been this strongly attracted to anyone."

My face was beet red as I said that and even thought my eyes were on the ground I could feel Ba Wei's eyes on me. I looked over at him to see him staring directly back at me. His eyes were glued on me and his face was like stone. It looked as if he was thinking of something, and I couldn't help but wonder exactly what it was. I shifted my eyes and looked at my hands and after a minute of silence Ba Wei's voice rang through the air.

"Me too."

"Huh?"

"It's my first time," He cleared his throat," being attracted to someone."

I looked over at him and my eyes widened when I saw his slightly red face. He's blushing! I stared at him for a few minutes before a smile spread across my face. I wanted to honestly laugh and in the end it escaped me.

"What are you laughing for?"

Hearing his question only made me laugh harder and this caused him to smack his lips. I wiped the tears that had gathered in my eyes and tried to calm my laughing.

"I'm sorry," I laughed out. "I'm not laughing at you."

"Then what are you laughing at?"

I didn't answer him because I couldn't necessarily tell him that I found him blushing to be amusing. I looked over at him and my laughter finally subsided. In truth the reason I found his embarrassed face amusing was simply because I had never seen it before. He had always showed me his smile, and that stone cold face that I had grown accustomed to. Yet I had never once seen his face reddened because of embarrassment. It was cute.

"Hey," I nudged him at bit, "I wasn't laughing at you."

"Yeah sure."

His voice was cold and he didn't look towards me. I raised an eyebrow at this and I couldn't help but smile.

"Are you upset with me," I asked with amusement in my voice?

I waiting for him to say something but almost in the blink of an eye I was pushed down. I was rather surprised and I had to blink a few times before I realized that Ba Wei now lay on top of me. His body weight was quite heavy, but I didn't mind that much. I looked up at him and our eyes met. Even though I didn't look down when our bodies pressed together I knew what parts of us were touching.

"Um, what are you doing?"

"What were you laughing at?" His tone was serious and this amused me slightly.

"Not you."

"Ah really?" He leaned in closer to my face, "then why did you laugh after looking at my face?"

When he asked that question I could feel his breathe on my lips. It sent shivers through my body. Why is he so close? He has to be doing this on purpose. I let out a sigh and moved my body slightly. As I did this static went through my entire body.

"Hmm."

"Sorry," I said breathlessly.

Ba Wei let out a sigh and slowly got up off me. He ran a hand through his hair and I couldn't help but cock an eyebrow. I sat up and squinted my eyes.

"You're not easy to crack."

I was taken aback by this  comment because I didn't understand what he was referring to. I cracked a smile and responded with a light hearted answer.

"Is that what you were trying to do?"

"Don't laugh."

"How can I not," I said laughing. Ba Wei looked over at me and soon he joined in on the laugh.

"God you're so annoying."

As I stared at the smile on his face it felt like my heart skipped a beat. How is he so handsome, yet so cute at the same time?

"I'm sure only you think so."

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When lunch ended the rest of the day went how it usually does. Besides the casual thought of Ba Wei I focused great. I felt relieved and when the last class came I was ready to go home before the bell even rung.

I started to pack up my things and just as I was about to finish my phone started to ring. I fished it out of my pocket to see my fathers name. I answered the call almost immediately.

"Hello."

"Ji Nan."

When I heard my fathers voice a feeling of relief washed over my body. Even though he had text me he was coming home today the call reassured me that he would actually come.

"Have you made it here safely?"

"En. I should arrive soon. Come straight home."

"I can't. I have to do the tutoring session."

"Cancel it for today. I need to discuss something with you."

Discuss something with me? What could he possibly want to talk about. We barley see each other so we barley have things to talk about. Strange.

I let out a sigh, "okay."

I hung up the phone and finished packing up my things. I swung the bag over my shoulder and exited the classroom. I started making my way to the tutoring room. I know I could just text or call Ba Wei to tell him that we won't have a tutoring session today but I'd rather do it in person. After all that's happened today I feel like it's the right thing to do.

When I entered the tutoring room Ba Wei was sitting at the table on his phone. I slowly walked up to him and lay my hand on his head. He tilted his head back and looked up at me. A smile spread across his face and I cracked a small smile in response.

"I won't be able to tutor you today," I said suddenly.

As those words left my mouth the smile on his face instantly fell. Why did he react like that? He stared up at me for a few minutes before answering with a simple alright. I raised an eyebrow as he turned his attention back to his phone.

"Hey."

"Hmm?"

"What's with that reaction."

"What reaction," he asked as he stood up?

I raised an eyebrow and watched him closely. He seemed irritated and I wasn't sure if it was because of me or someone else. Either way this reaction coming from him was cute. Very cute.

He turned around to face me and our eyes met once again and I reached up and pinched one of his cheeks. This seemed to surprise him because he took in a sharp breath.

"Don't pout so much."

"I'm not pouting, I just..."

"You just?"

His eyes shifted to the floor and with the clearing of the throat he walked pass me to the door.

"Never mind."

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Sorry for the late update. Plz forgive me 🥺. I've been really busy these days. I just want to say thank you for continuing to read and support this book. I'm grateful that you all enjoy it enough to look forward to the next chapter. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️