Chapter One Hundred Ninety One

Is it possible to be high off love? Because that's how I felt. I lay in bed in Ba Wei's arms as he slept. I had dozed off a couple hours ago and was surprised to see that I woke up before him, I turned my head slightly and looked at his sleeping face. So handsome. How did I get so lucky?

I turned in his arms causing him to stir in his sleep. I knew I probably woke him up, and when I looked up my thought were confirmed. His dark eyes look back into mine and a smile spread sweetly across my face.

"Did I wake you?"

"En," he said before he yawned.

I chuckled, "sorry."

I leaned up and kissed him quickly, and Ba Wei chuckled a bit.

"I like that a form of apology."

He sat up in the bed and stretched. I let my eyes roam his body, and I couldn't help but to get a bit aroused. I shifted my eyes. and I tried to calm myself. Although I wouldn't mind going a second round, the pain in my lower back let me know my body wouldn't be able to take another. He was a bit rougher this time, not that I minded that much. I knew I would have hickeys all over my body, and a blush rose to my face as I thought about it.

"Why are you blushing like that?" I glanced up at him, and just shook my head. He smiled but didn't pry afterwards. I moved over a bit and wrapped my arms around his waist. He immediately started to run his hands through my hair. "How about we take a shower, and then we come back to bed?"

"Hmm, but I'm comfy."

"I know you are, but you'll be even more comfortable if we were cleanly laying in these sheets." He removed my arms from his waist and slid out the bed. "Your stomach will be upset if we don't get it out."

I was confused on what he meant but when I sat up my face immediately went red. This caused Ba Wei to let out a laugh.

"That still makes you blush huh?"

"Fuck off."

He laughed and walked out the room. I couldn't help but look at his ass as he left.  I flopped back down on the bed and let out a sigh. I raised my hand to look at the ring one last time. I can't believe that he got me a promise ring. Just looking at it made my heart flutter. I'd never been truly happy before, but I can honestly say that I am right now. I sighed and slowly slid out of bed.

When I put weight on my legs they shook a bit but didn't give out. I was a bit surprised since he was so rough earlier. I made my out of the room and to the bathroom. When I walked in I saw Ba Wei leaning against the sink on his phone. Upon hearing me enter he immediately looked din my direction.

"I was going to come back and get you when the bath was done." He looked down my body, "I'm surprised you can walk." There was slight amusement in his voice, but I couldn't really be angry at him.

"Trust me I'm surprised to."

He just smiled and moved to turn off the water. He looked back at me before holding out his hand to for me. I took it and he helped me climb into the tub. As I sat down in the water I couldn't help but let out a sigh. Ba Wei climbed in right after me, setting behind me. After he got settled In I leaned back into his chest.

"Feel nice?"

"En. Feels amazing."

He kissed the top of my head and we just sat in the warm water in silence. The atmosphere was sweet, and It made me think about the future. Our future. I still hadn't decided on what I wanted to do with my life after graduation, and I don't think I asked Ba Wei recently either.

"Ba Wei."

"hmm?"

"I was thinking, have you thought about what you want to do after high school."

He was silent for a few minutes, "I want to go into carpentry. My father has agreed to let me study for it before I take over one the shops he owns."

"I didn't know you liked that sort of thing," I said looking back at him.

"I rarely get to use my handy work, but you should know first hand that I'm good with my hands."

I couldnt help the small laugh that pushed past my lips, "do you always have to be perverted?"

"No, but I know you like when I am,"

"I do not."

He leaned down and kissed my neck, "You know I can tell when you lie."

"You're such a dick," I said chuckling .

He chuckled, "you love me so what does that make you?"

I leaned up from him trying to hide my red face, "let's hurry and get clean. I'm still tired because of someone."

"Okay okay," he said laughing.

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After our bath Ba Wei helped me dry off, and even through I told him I could walk he still carried me back to the bed. He sat me down on it and to my surprise went to find clothes. I watched him closely and tried to think about the future. He had already decided one what he wanted to do, but what did I want to do.

Sure I could take over the company, but that's not what I want to do. I like to cook, but did I want to do that as a career. It was tiring to think about so I just stop thinking about it. Just as I did Ba Wei walked into the room and threw a shirt at me. I caught it about threw it on. I smiled at the fact that he didn't give me pants but he put some on.

"What are you smiling for," he asked as he got back in bed.

"Nothing. Just laughing to myself."

He didn't say anything in return and I just got under the covers and snuggled up to him. His arms immediately went around me and I relaxed into them. We laid in silence for a few minutes before Ba Wei started to speak.

"Hey."

"Yeah?"

"You ever think about how things would have been if we never met?"

I looked up at him to see him staring at the wall, "Why are you thinking about such a thing?"

"It just crossed my mind," he looked down at me, "I can't imagine how my life would have been if I hadn't met you. I'd probably be even worse off than I was before."

"Me too honestly. I was so focused on just completing school, and getting my father off my back that I didn't stop and think about what made me happy."

"Did you ever get to think about what makes you happy?"

"Yeah I did actually. As much as I hate to say, cooking makes me happy. I realized that after I cooked for you."

He rubbed my lower waist slowly, "then why don't you do that in the future? If it makes you happy, I'm sure doing that as a job would bring you joy."

I didn't say anything and just buried my head in his chest. How did I end up with a happy life? Did I deserve it? I killed someone and I get to lay in the bed with the man I love. How is it fair? That's what was going through my mind as I took in Ba Weis scent. I atoned as much as I could for that sin, and I would see to it that I would continue to. I looked up at Ba Wei for a second before I leaned up and kissed him.

"What was that for," He asked as our lips parted?

"It's for changing how I saw the world." I kissed him again, "It's for loving me as I am."

He smiled and laid his forehead against mine, "Thank you for loving someone so broken. Thank you for allowing me to give you all the love I have left."

I reached up and caressed the side of his face, "Til death do us part?"

"Not even death will stop me from loving you."

"Forever?"

He leaned down and kissed me," Forever."

It has a been a long journey with this novel, and I can't thank you all enough for sticking with me this long. This is my first BL novel, and I hope you enjoyed Ba Weis and Ji Nans love story. This is the end, and the beginning of new chapter for me. I will be working on a new novel soon. I hope you will like it as much as this one.

Much love- JJ SINN