Chapter 7 - A small smile

Justin's pov

His mother stomped down the stairs, I looked up at connor, to see him pulling away from me, standing more straight.

"Why did you throw justin on the couch like that!?, for god sake, he is sick! How could you do that to him?"

She sat next to me and wrapped her arms around me, rubbing my arm gently.

"Justin, are you ok?"

She asked softly, I gave her a small smile and nodded my head.

"Yeah yeah, i'm fine we were just..having a conversation"

"It dosen't look like that"

She looked at him, her soft expression turning hard.

"Why did you do that? Whatever was the thing you were arguing about ..you shouldn't put your hands on him like that, connor"

"You don't know what we were talking about"

He said locking eyes with his mother

"I don't but you can't put your hands on him like that"

"i can and i will"

She stood up and stepped closer to him putting a finger on his chest.

"He's your boyfriend Connor! You can not do that!"

"I can do whatever i want"

He said shoving his hands into his pockets and looking boredly at his mother.

"You have to understand..you're twenty four, connor..before justin..you were lonely ..and it's because of your behavior , you treat people like crap, like you bought them or something..and if you kept acting like that..even justin won't be there for you"

Connor seemed to tense up, he clenched his Jaw and now now and his mother were glaring at ecah other but of course like everytime ..Connor broke the eye contact before the Sparks that were being created between them turn into fire and burn the house down,his gaze dropped to the floor

Then to me, he walked passed the couch and out of the house, his mother sighed and bowed her head watching him as he left then looked back at me.

"I don't know why..he's acting this way toward's you..justin, i'm so sorry..he seemed happy and he convinced me that he changed , i don't know what happend"

She burried her face in the palms of her hands, obviously planning to cry i got up and hugged her side then sat her down on the couch.

"It's- it's ok, madison..i'm kind of used to his mood swings , he'll get better..he did change but work had been hectic the last couple of weeks, excuse him"

"Really justin?..wait..did be ever put his hands on you like that?"

I wanted to nod and say yes and tell her how badly he was treating me but instead i shook my head and smiled.

"No, this is the first time but..i know that he love's me and i do too , so i forgive him"

She smiled and i wiped the tears that managed to fall down her cheeks.

"I'm going to make some food,ok?"

She nodded and wiped the remaining tears before she got up and went straight to the kitchen, i sighed and fell back on the couch.

After madison made food , we waited for connor to show up but he didn't, when the sun started to set madison started to worry.

"I'll go look for him"

I said standing up from the dinner table when I saw how nervous and worried she got.

"But you don't know the place around here..but there is one place i'm sure he's hiding at"

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As i walked through the forest , following the directions madison told me and as i was avoiding rocks and tree trunks,i found him sitting by the lake at the end of the east side of the forest ,i walked slowly trying not to make anh noise but I ended up braking a small twig under my foot, he turned back and looked at me then averted his gaze toward's the lake once again,i sat next to him and my eyes turned towerds his handsome face, he had his eyes closed..he was sitting here for ..i think 7 hours doing nothing? Can't relate to that.

"Leave."

He said then opened his eyes to look at me.

I shook my head and hugged my knees closer to my chest

"No"

He rolled his eyes, seeming to get more annoyed.

"If you don't, i will"

"I never understood why you hate me this much"

I said staring at his brown hazle eyes, he cocked his thick eye brow at me and i lifted my hands in defence.

"Aside from the teasings"

He rolled his eyes and looked back at the water.

"I hate everyone"

He mumbled,

"We're really nice people if you really got to know us"

I said jokingly, smiling at him.

"You wouldn't get it"

I sighed and stared ahead..after a few more seconds i spoke.

"When i was twelve..my grandpa aka my bestfriend died..we used to hang out all the time together,he cooked for me, he taught me how to ride a bicycle, he even taught me how to walk when i was a baby, he even picked my name..i loved my grandpa more than my parents.. he did everything my mom and dad didn't do for me,but then all of a sudden he was..not there anymore, it killed me to hear the news,i shut everyone out for what? Two years or something like that,i was just..afraid, i was terrified of getting attached to someone else and having to watch them leave-"

I chuckled bitterly when I remembered a specific memory that happened during that time

"i remember my dad yelling at me one day to 'get over it' ..god i hated him so much, i even tried to summon his spirit but that didn't work as well..this might sound stupid but..after those three years, one night my grandpa visited me, in my dreams,he wasn't really happy with the person i became ..so he told me not to shut out the people that love me because that way i'm both hurting them and myself..he practically gave me a lecture, i woke up and cried my eyes out ..god i miss him so much"

I whispered the last part, smiling at the memory, my grandfather was very late though, how can you come and give a lecture after three whole years?, regardless I felt great full that he showed up at the end, if it wasn't for that Dream I don't know what i would have done.

I looked at him and placed a hand on his shoulder after so much hesitation.

"I'm sure your father would be so proud of the man you became today..but he will also be sad that you're sad, and lonely..he wouldn't like it, would he?"

He didnt say anything for a while, I took that as a good sign and scooted closer and slowly hugged him.

"please dont throw me in the lake"

I said, squinting my eyes tightly, I was honestly very scared that I would be thrown in the lake for getting too close.

When I heared him chuckle I pulled away and looked at his face, obviously shook.

"So you do know how to smile, i'm impressed"

He rolled his eyes keeping that smile on his face.

"Your mother is woried sick about you, lets go?"

I said after I stood up and reached my hand out for him, he held it and stood up, dusting off his jeans.

"Let's go"

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