Chapter 11 - Drowning

As soon as we walked inside the house he made his way upstairs i heared the bedroom door being opened and then slam shut..i sighed and wore a fake smile on my face as i stepped in the kitchen.

"Hi"

I said putting the bags on the counter

"Hello justin"

I opened the freezer and placed the ice cream tubs inside, along with the chocolate as well, and placed the candy and marshmallows into the cabin.

"Strawberry and vanilla! My favourite!"

Madison said, clapping her hands together in excitement.

"Yeah,Connor told me to get them for you"

She smiled and nodded, she turned off the stove and gave me a sad smile that was caught on to really quick.

"What's wrong?"

I asked in concern, sitting down on one of the chairs, looking up at her.

"He love's ice cream too"

I furrowed my brows and tilted my head in confusion.

"Who?"

"Connor"

Didn't he say that it's for children?

"When we used to come here, we would always have movie nights and he would always ask his father for ice cream, they would drive 20 minutes till they reach the nearest grocery store..he loved ice cream, chocolate flavor was his favorite"

She said whipping the single tear that managed to escape her hazel eye and run down her right cheek.

"So, he lied to me?"

She nodded

"He just..seem to say that he hate's anything related to his childhood memories with his father"

I nodded slowly, trying to let everything sink in,she took a deep breath and smiled once again,I took a bowl and placed some ice cream in it and started to leave the kitchen

"Well, dinner will be ready soon, get some rest untill then ok?"

I nodded and walked up the stairs , i opened the bedroom's door to find him laying on the bed , having a staring contest with the ceiling, i closed the door and walked to him.

"Get up, child"

"Leave"

I chuckled and tugged on his sleeve, making him squint his eyes at me in a warning way.

"Come on get up..i got you ice cream"

He rolled his eyes and looked away from me.

"Chocolate flavor, i know it's your favourite, connor"

"I hate ice cream"

He mumbled, I shook my head and sat down next to him on the bed.

"I know that you used to love it, and always tell your father to buy it for you"

I sat criss cross on the bed  and faced him.

"Connor, hating everything you used to do with your father won't bring him back, remember what i said ? That he won't like to see you this way..so you shouldn't be mad at the memories, if anything you should remember them , and do them again, i'm sure your father dosen't want to be forgotten,just not this way ok?"

He turned away, I leaned closer slowly and kissed his cheek then held my hand out for him.

"Come on now, please?"

He sighed and looked at me.

"I won't tell anyone..it'll be our little secret, i promise"

I said whispering so it can look like a top secret kind of thing, and winked at him he rolled his eyes but finally streched his arm out and

grabbed my hand , he sat up and i gave him the ice cream bowl, he ate the whole thing slowly devouring the taste and enjoying it,thank god..i just kept staring at him while he did so, smiling fondly at him.

"No one had ever tried to talk to me like this, but my mom..everyone was just..afraid of me"

He said after a while of silence.

"They weren't afraid of you..you pushed them away and built these walls that no one could go through..and..yeah some people were afraid yes"

He placed the spoon in the bowl and placed the bowl on the night stand beside him he opened his mouth to say something but his mom intrupted yelling to us that dinner was ready.

"Let's go?"

He nodded and we went downstairs, Connor's eating got better the slightest , yesterday he at less than half what was on the plate and today he ate half of it, that made me feel like a proud mom.

"Today you're going to do the dishes ,Connor"

His mother announced after she was done with her plate and saw him getting up, He groaned and started to pick up the empty and half empty dirty plates to the kitchen.

"Mean while i'm going to prepare the ice cream and justin is going to pick a movie for another movie night!"

This woman must be on some kind of an energy drink or something I swear to God, she's always so cheerful and energetic even at the end of the day.

"You mean half a movie night? You slept before it even got to the half last night"

Connor snickered from inside the kitchen .

"Shut up"

She said glaring at him, Though she can't really see him due to the wall thats standing between them.

"It's okay Madison, i'll make the ice cream, you can pick the movie"

"I don't want to-"

I interrupted her and shook my head, getting up from my seat.

"No no ,it's okay, I got it"

She nodded and got up as well, heading to the living room.

"When you guys finish, you'll find me waiting in the living room"

She said and got up..i walked in the kitchen closing the door behinde me

"I guess you're full and don't want to eat ice cream"

I asked Connor who nodded and placed a clean dish away.

"Yeah"

I nodded and placed two bowls and started to scoop the ice cream

"Thank you"

I dropped the scoop dramatically making him chuckle then turned around.

"What did you just say?"

"I'm not saying it twice"

"You thanked me?"

"You're deaf or something?"

"No no"

I shook my head frantically and walked over to him.

"Just surprised, i didn't think that mouth of yours can blurt anything but sarcasm and orders"

I smirked, he looked down at me and raised one eyebrow.

"It can do hell alot of other things as well, gay boy"

I blushed, knowing exactly what he meant the 'gay boy' gave it away.

"I missed the taste of ice cream, it's been years"

He said after I went back to scooping the ice cream into the bowls.

"Me too, i haven't eaten it since i walked in your life..a month maybe?"

"A month yeah"

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With alot of rest ,and taking my medicine in time i got alot better in no time but we still stayed for two weeks there..me and Connor are friends now but i dont expect him to be any easy on me now that we're friends ..

One night i woke up and went to the bathroom, after i got out i head downstairs to make myself a snack.

I took the chocolate milk box out of the fridge and started looking for a cup.

"Always hungry aren't you"

I jumped and almost dropped the milk box.

"Oh my god, what..What are you doing here?! When did you walk in?!! Jesus my heart was going to jump out of my chest!"

He laughed making me calm down almost instantly..how can i still be mad after this laugh? I placed the milk box on the counter to make sure it won't fall if there were any more surprises.

"Don't sneak up on me like that again"

I said, pointing a warning finger at him.

"Well, after i saw this face? I think i'm going to do it all the time"

He said laughing more, i laughed a little and shook my head then went for the cereal.

"You're a jerk"

I poured milk and cereal in the bowl and grabbed a spoon sitting down afterwards, i ate a little then i looked up at him to see him standing there, looking at me.

"What? Are you going to stare at me the whole time i eat?"

He shook his head and grabbed a bowl and did the same, i smiled at him and licked the chocolate milk off of my lips.

"You're eating is kinda getting better"

He nodded and shoved a spoonful inside his mouth.

"What about..you know?"

He didnt answer and kept on eating.

"Connor, when are you going?"

"I'm too busy"

He said staring at the cereal like it's the most interesting thing in the world to avoid making eye contact.

"I told you we will find a space in your busy schedule"

He nodded and didn't say anything i stopped eating ,got off of the seat and walked to him, i placed my hand on his cheek and brushed my thumb over it slightly while locking my eyes with his.

"Connor, you need this. Do it for yourself, so you can live better,for your mother that's worried sick about you and want's you to be the happiest person on earth so she can be too, your father will be happy too, if he saw you getting better"

I said my voice calm and gentle he nodded again slowly making me smile.

"Promise?"

I asked in a soft tone, still brushing my thumb over his cheek.

"Promise"

He said slowly, i kept staring , no drowning in his eyes, and couldn't look away, i hate to admite it but during those past two months i developed a crush on him, i like him.. even though he's not showing me his best sides but..he's a good person, i knew that by talking to him about almost everything, he's funny and actually great..but only when he's calm..so i talked to him about going to a therapist so he can get over those anger issues he has..and he'll be fine.

I leaned in but stopped when i heared the front door being opened and then closed i backed away and just then..Janice walked in.

"Oh!"

She jumped and placed her hand on her heart.

"You scared me, good morning Mr black, good morning justin"

"Morning Janice"

I replied but Connor didn't..he stood up and walked upstairs to wherever he was earlier.

"So! What are you making for breakfast?"

I asked Janice while I finished my cereal and placed both mine and connor's bowl into the sink.

"I'm thinking of pan cakes, bacon, eggs..you know..just a regular breakfast"

She said starting to get the ingredients out of the fridge

"Can we make..a chocolate cake?"

She stopped and looked up at me smiling with a hint of curiosity in her eyes.

"Chocolate cake? For breakfast?,i don't think Mr black will be down with this idea justin"

She said walking around the kitchen, cleaning the counters.

"No no..not for breakfast.. i just wanted it..you know? craving it?"

She nodded and gave me a smile.

"I also want to make it myself"

She raised a brow at me and took out her apron from the shelf and started wearing if.

"You know how?"

I shook my head and gave her a childish grin.

"That's why you're here though, right?"

She shook her head, her smile never leaving her lip as she threw another apron to me.

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