Chapter 132 Sadness or Ysla?

When Fu Chen and Xue Le were being dragged away from the explosion, both of them had blank expressions on their face. They didn’t even know how to speak for a moment.

Xue Le never imagined her brother actually loving her. The more she thought about this, the more her expression finally started changing.

“Waaaaaaaaaaaa”

For the entire way, she just cried and cried. There were guilt, regret, and even some hatred in her eyes. The more she cried, the better she felt.

But there was someone who couldn’t cry nor could he feel any better. Unlike her, he had the same blank expression for the entire journey. Even though his cultivation technique was already perfected, he still couldn’t move.

Chu Yan who saw this knew what exactly was going on. He wanted to say something to him but seeing his expression, he realized the less he says, the better it will be.

After nearly eight hours of flight, they finally reached the coastline. Chu Yan and Wu Kong landed on the ground. When Chu Yan dropped Fu Chen to the ground, he expected Fu Chen to move but even then, he didn’t move a little.

At this moment, even Xue Le noticed his expression. She walked toward him and put her hand on his shoulder, saying “It’s alright.”

She didn’t blame him. She didn’t have the right to blame anyone. Her brother died and he died for her. Her sister-in-law died and she sacrificed for them.

But when she said that to Fu Chen, all of the frustration and anger and hatred that was quelling inside him came out in a single road.

“IT IS NOT ALRIGHT!”

He screamed at her face with anger and hatred and frustration in his eyes. But it wasn’t targeted at her. This anger, hatred, and frustration were for himself.

Xue Le couldn’t even react for a moment. Before she could, Chu Yan and Wu Kong took her away from him. Fu Chen suddenly noticed what he just did and for a moment, he felt remorse and this feeling grew even more inside him.

“Sob! Sob! It wasn’t alright.”

At this moment, he finally broke into tears. He once swore that he will never cry but at this moment, he finally did. The tears kept flooding down his cheeks.

Mistakes after mistakes! Recklessness after recklessness!

At this moment, Fu Chen hated himself more than any enemies ever hated him.

On the other side,

“Why?” Xue Le burst into tears as well. She didn’t understand why he flared up at her. What did she do? Why was he angry? What happened to him?

Several questions came to her mind though she couldn’t find answers.

“I will tell you the reason. But first, wipe the tears from your cheeks! It would be hard for me to explain the situation while you are crying.” Chu Yan sat on the ground and deep sighed.

His tail and ears were down. He was also feeling the same sadness. He wasn’t feeling anger or hate but he was feeling sad.

Xue Le wiped away her tears and looked at him with her red eyes.

“It all started after he rescued his parents. I can’t say he was reckless. He was just bad at making decisions. Everyone is reckless whenever their parents or the people they love are at the stake.”

“If it was you or me, we would make the same move if someone we love is in danger. He did the same. In fact, he did it efficiently. After he escaped with his parents and Shen, he met your mother.”

“At that time, she forcefully took him away. He said that before handing him over to your ancestor, she changed her mind and dual cultivated with him. But because of something inside him, her powers locked.”

“Because her Nascent Soul Cultivation powers were locked, he killed her and she escaped with her soul.”

When Xue Le heard this, her eyes widened. But before she could think of anything, Chu Yan continued.

“Before that, we actually went on a journey where he got severely injured because of an extremely powerful enemy. Then, we almost die finding something for him that would save him.”

“So, these were two incidents where either he or someone close to him almost died. But, until this, no one truly died. So, it was still okay. We still had to get things that we needed and so we made some reckless choices. He made some reckless, we just supported him because there was no other way.”

“So, after we escape from the Divine Star Kingdom and the Chaos Star Kingdom, we met your mother once more. This time, Fu Chen decided to fight her by ourselves.”

“We wanted to test our limits. So, we fought. When we started to lose, he called Shen. She was extremely powerful but something bad happened. Although Fu Chen’s move wasn’t that reckless because we still had Shen, there was one thing that he never took into consideration.”

“Nascent Soul Cultivator level fight would definitely draw attention. And, we were at the territory of the devils. So, at the last moment, a devil tried to assassinate him but Su Ling who loved him sacrificed herself.”

“She took the strike and died in his arms. At that moment, he was sad and felt terrible and hated himself for making such decisions. But, she was an extremely unique person.”

“Even while dying, she managed to force him to smile and bid her goodbye. She asked him to keep his human emotions and never become ruthless. You could say that she saved him from drowning in darkness.”

“But now, he made one wrong decision. The wrong decision wasn’t to come and save you. The wrong decision wasn’t to fight against those Nascent Soul Cultivators. The wrong decision was somehow improving his cultivation technique in the middle of a battle.”

“He was stuck, unable to move and for his wrong decision, he had to see someone else pay the price. He lost another person due to his reckless movement. At least, that’s what he believes and that’s why he hates himself right now.”

“He wasn’t screaming at you. He was screaming at himself. He is feeling angry, hatred toward himself, and frustrated. He is feeling desperate.”

When he said that, Xue Le wanted to go. She wanted to embrace him and console him. But Chu Yan stopped her. She looked at him with a questionable gaze.

“You, I, or him aren’t the ones who had been together with him for the longest.”

“There is someone else for him.”

Xue Le who didn’t understand just watched Fu Chen from a far.

Fu Chen was crying and hating himself. His emotions were fully erupting and after a few minutes, a voice rang in his head.

“Host, do you remember the finals in the tournament when you asked me to turn off all the system’s functions?”

Fu Chen didn’t reply. He wasn’t crying but he was drowning in sadness.

“At that time, I thought you were an idiot. You had such a powerful opportunity to show your strength. You had such a powerful thing to rely on but you chose not to.”

“Instead you believed in yourself. You believe that you could become better. You believed that you just needed a choice. Of course, you also feared that once I leave, you will become nothing, so you wanted to become something.”

“And, now look at you. What have you become?”

It felt like she was ridiculing him. Of course, she wasn’t. But he was feeling it because he was hating himself.

But, at this moment, Ysla loudly screamed in his mind.

“You have become one of the strongest genii on the entire continent. You killed the highest realm cultivator while being in the middle. You proved that with proper hardcore and courage, a person can do anything as long as they were given a chance.”

“Host, you were the one who found these eyes. The Infinite Eyes, the power that controls space-time. You were the one who went for the Hongmeng Purple Qi. You were the one who made life and death brothership with Chu Yan and Wu Kong who helped you get the Hongmeng Purple Qi.”

“You were the one who decided to take the risk and get the almost infinite source of Spiritual Energy. And, you did it. You got what you wanted and you never directly relied on the help of the system.”

“Yes, you did cultivate the techniques and arts from the system. Yes, you did add your strength by using stat points but this was something that you had from the beginning.”

“It wasn’t going to leave and you knew that. Even so, you still crossed the Five Regions, Endless Desert, and dived into the Death Pond. You had the power to improve your cultivation and strength by relying on the system but you didn’t let that confine you.”

“If you ask me whether your moves were reckless, I would say yes. But if you ask me whether your moves were bad, my answer would be no.”

“Those who do not take risks do not deserve the reward. So Host, let me tell you something. Host, in my eyes, from the moment of that finals in the tournament to this day, you never made a wrong decision.”

“Not being smart over your decision it not your fault but it is a shortcoming. So, if you let yourself drown here, you will never be able to overcome that shortcoming.”

“You will never be able to prove that your decisions weren’t wrong.”