8- Star (pt.1)

Trainee Day

Lisa is a tall girl, skinny, fair skined, boyish and shy. She's a quiet shy girl back then as she move to Korea from Thailand. Its hard for her to make friend as she doesn't know Korean, she only know Thai and English.

"Hello, Im Lalisa Manoban..Im from Thailand and Im 14, nice to meet you.. Please take care of me!" She enthusiasticly introduce herself to the other fellow trainee.

She try so hard to adapt with the new environment but she's just a kid back then.. There is so much for her to learn in an instant, she try to socialize but its hard since the other doesn't understand english, and there she is.. Alone, she feels lonely, sometime she shade tears at night, remembering her parents and friends in her homeland.

'What is she capable of?'

'Don't tell me she only capable in dancing'

'What a waste, dancing is the only speciality she possesed..she doesn't really deserve to be here, she is awful in singing'

Lisa can hear them whispering as if she isn't sitting infront of them, as if she couldn't understand what they are saying, little did they know..one of the reason she's better in Korean is because of their nasty whispering words about her, she've been living with their odd stares and she is now become more resistable about it.

Jennie Kim.. Well everyone know about her including the senior in YG ent. She is such a talented goddess, she can sing, she can rap, she can dance and she is cute,beautiful and a social butterfly.

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One day, Lisa was passing through the dance room, she hears a loud music come from inside 'woah, someone is having a late night dance practice' The door is slightly opened, she peeked inside and saw a latter dancing her heart out, trying to perfect the move repetitously. It's almost 30 minutes and she've been stucked on the same move.

She could barge in if she's that brave but she want to see more of this girl.

1 hour passed she've been on the second move for 30 minutes. Lisa is the one who are frustrated now.. She barged in.

"It's was like this.. " She starts to swirls, thump, and jump according to the choreography that shown on the laptop the other girl reffers on, Lisa repeat the move in a slow-mo so she could catch it, "And 1,2,3 move your hip up a bit and clap 2 times, 1 and 2" She finishes the move and glance over at the other girl but she doesn't utter a word and just glare the Thai girl.

"Urm.. Excuse me? I'm in the middle of my 'solo dance practice'.. It's rude to barge in like that, and who are you? My teacher?! " Woah.. She's mad.. Lisa bow down her head "bi-biane" she says in a low voice, almost whispering.

"It's pronounced mianhe.. Not biane you freak foreigner" She said in Korean. "Just speak in English you dance freak, I can speak English because I used to live in New Zealand " Then she change to English. "Leave now.. I don't like being watched especially from someone like you" Lisa almost cried, she've been shoved by words before but this is more painful. She bow down again and quickly stepped out from the room.

'It hurts, why do people judge me..why don't they just treat me like I'm one of them, I'm human too'

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It's vocal class, Lisa could barely sing so she always stayed at the back row..observing the other trainee singing, she envy their singing skill,  they weren't picked for any slight talent but indeed they are marvelously talented.

LISA

I was busy with my mind talk when I hear a bold attractive voice, it's powerful and stunning.. Her tone is on point.. I squint my eyes,  taking a clearer image to see the singer.

'It's the dance room girl! Woah.. She is amazing,  she can rap too, she is way better than the other.. I was mesmerized by her singing and rap skill. "Nice one Jennie Kim!" our teacher compliments her and everyone is clapping.

Okay.. Now I know her name, Jennie Kim, I heard about her somewhere but didn't actually give much attention. So she is the one..

Her eyes suddenly captured on mine and her smiles fade right away, I divert my gaze..she is quiet scary.

After seconds, I turn my head back to her, she is laughing with the other trainees and seems so humorous, I didn't know she could smile and was actually friendly, was she mad at me because I barged in to correct her dance move?

I should go and apologize to her after this.

I've waited for a good timing to approach her but she always surrounded by people, everyone likes her..well who wouldn't admire a talented girl? I gave up after several time of trying, I'm such a coward.. I'm afraid of all the nasty words and I have a low confidence level.

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'She didn't sing today..'

'She is nothing but a zero skill'

'She always avoid and put many excuses if she was asked to sing'

'She couldn't even rap an easy part'

'I doubt how did she manage to be in here, her family must own a fortune'

I stands up immediately, put everything on the food tray and leave the cafeteria, I can't do this anymore.. My body burns in anger, my heart filled with cracks, my mind dazzles in frustration. The sound I made is loud enough to divert all the attention to me.

I don't care anymore.

As the night fades the sunlight, I sneak out to release my tension.. I went to our practice room and start dancing, this is the only way to wipe my stress..  I put on an easy beated song first to warm up, then I dance on a fast beated song.. This feel so nice, I couldn't feel my soul, I can't think of anything or anyone.. My mind wander rythming with the music.

Next song, I put on a slow music..more sensual and seductive, well.. Its more like a sad music for me... I've never actually put much show in front of other, they'll mock me.

Im currently one with the music, I close my eyes and sways along with the music's beat, I'm sunk, my face heated as I flow out my sadness through the dance, my heart aches and swollen, it's too much for me, I feel giving up..after a minutes, I collapse on the floor with tears, my body isn't enough to carry this depressed mind.

Im spending the night crying alone again, who would notice? No one.. I was alone from the beginning.

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JENNIE

I'm on my way to the dance room when I hear a loud music and the sound of the floor escaping from the dance room, is there someone in here.. I've waited for 15 minutes,  who the heck is in there? It's 1 in the morning, I thought I was the only one

who want a solo dance practice this late. I decided to peek inside.

I opened the door slightly, a tall thin girl in black clothes is dancing.. Wait.. Is that? The Thai girl?

I've been peeking in for awhile now, I decided to watch her inside, is she ignoring me or she is too into the music to notice my presence? Well.. Whatever..

I sit in the corner and observe her dance, I'm surprised with her dancing skill, woah.. She is absolutely in another level..the music change to a slow song, I was stunned with her move, she synced effortlessly with the music, she didn't even reffers with any choreography, what a talented girl, but something in her move reflect a sorrow.. Her expression looks like she is hurting in some way..

After a minute, she collapse in tears.. What the.. I was shocked because of the sudden act, I can hear her small voice cracks in tears, she clutch her chest with both hands.. I.. Was completely speechless.

I remember the other day when I scolded her, I was off my limit because I thought it was rude for someone to intrude without permission, I thought she was showing off to me because she found out that I've never actually excelled in dancing.

I feel heavy in my chest looking at her vulnerable states, I've been hearing about her, well.. Many of them are bad rumors but I don't really give a damn, she is not my business, it must be too much for her... She could understand Korean now, I heard she was raging earlier when the other trainees talk bad about her.

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After a few minutes of crying, Lisa tremble to stands,  her eyes were puffy, her nose and face are red.. She stares herself in the mirror and just right then she notice a latter, someone is watching her from the corner, she was startled but quickly recovered.

She immediately turns her head to the girl and the girl seems surprised too. She quickly grab her stuffs and hide her face with a hoodie after wearing it messily. Jennie didn't get to says a word since Lisa rush to go out from the room, Jennie left dumbfounded after the Thai girl left, and she left an aura.. It's deep.. And sad.. She didn't know she was hurting so bad.