Chapter 34

This update was quicker and very difficult to write. Introducing Ethan everyone. I give you my permission to kill him..

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-MissR12

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Ethan

I was ashamed of myself. I already knew that whatever I was doing was wrong on so many levels. I was making my love Erica suffer. She was hurting and it was because of me. I had broken her so much that she wouldn't even look at me straight in the eyes. Even I couldn't face myself in the mirror.

After Erica handed me her resignation today, I was devastated. I had intended to break things with her and watch her from afar. She wouldn't be in my life but she would forever be in my sight. I could see her beautiful face and her heart melting smile. But now she was leaving. She was leaving me alone. I felt lost without her. But I deserved to be feel this pain since I was the one who hurt her. I opened my bedroom drawer and took out a small jewelry box that lay there for weeks now. It had the most beautiful diamond ring that I could find. I had bought it the next day we had confessed our love for each other. I wanted to marry her. I wanted to make her my wife. I had planned in asking her but waited because I didn't want to scare her. We were getting slow and I always waited for the right moment. But it never came. All that came was trouble and pain. Now all I could do was stare at this ring and imagine how it would look on Erica's fingers.

I placed the ring back safely into its original place. I wanted to forget that today ever happened. I wanted to forget that she said that. I felt a heavy weight on my heart. My chest was burning. I had to do something to lessen the pain. My gaze landed on my car keys. I grabbed them and headed to the nearest bar. I had already discarded my suit jacket. I rolled up my sleeves and headed inside. The bar was not so crowded so I found myself an empty spot and asked the bartender to serve the strongest drink. I quickly took a large gulp and then one more. Two, three and... I felt better. My head felt light and I was feeling at ease now. But no matter how much I drank away my pain the words she had uttered, I would never forget them. She had moved on. She was seeing a guy. She looked happy and it wasn't me who was making her happy. Quite the opposite actually. She wanted to forget me and move on with him.

Here I was feeling like I was dying and she was already with someone else. I couldn't just hear her saying that.

"He is so lucky to have you." I heard a female voice say. I was going to meet Erica to see her for the last time. I went near her office and heard her and Alexandra's conversation.

"I am lucky to have him. He has made me realize that I don't need anyone else to be happy. We can start our new lives far away from here. He is already making me so happy. Day by day I feel myself getting more attached to him. I never imagined this day will come in my life. But I'm happy that it did. I'm so excited."

After hearing that I walked straight past her office door and exited the building. This was too nuch for me to handle in a day. My chest felt like it was burning. I couldn't breathe.

Erica had another man in her life. She wanted to start a new life with him. Now I realized how she must have felt when I went out with Christine behind her back.

Rage built up inside me. I was fueled by anger and alcohol. I wasn't in my right senses so I did something that only my drunk self could do.

Erica

Ethan? Why was he calling me at this hour. It was past ten in the night. I answered nevertheless.

"Hello, Ethan?"

"Baeebyyy... " He said dragging. Why was he calling me that?

"Ethan? Wh.."

"I love you.. " He said almost slurring. My eyes widened in realization. He was drunk. Oh my God! He had drunk dialed me.

"Ethan are you drunk? Where are you?" I asked losing patience. He chuckled as if finding the whole situation amusing. I was furious at his behavior.

"Yesss..I.... I forgot." I could hear him laughing to himself. It was getting out of control now. Ethan was always so responsible, it was first time that he was acting like this.

"Alright, go home straight away from wherever you are. Wait.. Did you drive there? Gosh! Where are you? Tell me, I'll come get you." I said slapping my forehead.

"I am nowhere. But yes, I want you to come and get me. I need you. I'm so lost without you." He said his voice breaking and even though I knew he was drunk I was at a loss of words. I wanted to reply to him and say that I loved him always and I needed him too. For our baby, for me and for our love.

He muttered sometimes dragging each syllable. I could somehow make out the address if the bar that he was at. I quickly drove there before he could do something reckless. I reached there within fifteen minutes. The smell of the alcohol flared my nostrils. I felt a sense of nausea hitting me but I managed not to get sick.

I spotted Ethan seat in the corner. He had a glass in his hand. His eyes were sleepy and he looked like he would pass out any minute now. His top two button were undone and his shirt wrinkled. His hair a little messy in a sexy kind of way. Making my way through the tables I stood besides him.

"You came baby? " He spoke still slurring. His eyes scanned my body as if to check if I was actually there or not.

"Lets go Ethan." I took the glass from his hand and placed it on the table. I settled his bill and forcefully pulled him with me. Thankfully he didn't protest much and somehow we recahed my car. Shoving his heavy body inside I drove both of us to his penthouse.

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"Baby come in my arms." Ethan said for the fifth time in thirty minutes now. He began pulling me towards him

"Behave yourself Ethan. You are drunk, you are not in your senses." I said trying to break free from the grasp. His hold was very painful.

"Oh come on! All I am asking you is to be in my arms. Its not like I get to touch you or kiss you. Though that's the only thing I want to do now. You know how much I want you? I miss you." He said closing his eyes. That hurt so much.

"Its not right for you to think like that when you are getting married to another woman. " I said looking away.

"I don't want to mary her. I want youuuu. I know I hurt you but.. But..." He didn't complete his sentence. I tried not to let his words affect me. He was drunk and was saying nonsense. All drunk people do that. He doesn't want me. I kept telling myself that.

"Ethan, you should sleep now. I'll get you some medicines and then you can rest. I'll leave after that. I don't think it is right for me to stay here ... " I didn't get to complete my sentence because a drunk Ethan pulled me on his lap and captured my lips with his applying a force. I stayed frozen for a second and the next second I tried to push him away. He was drunk but I was sober enough not to let this happen. But the more I tried to break free from him the more harder he kissed me. His kisses were hungry and ferocious now completely different from the ones that we shared while we were together. He pushed me on the mattress and hovered above me. I struggled hard and with all the energy I could muster I shoved him away. He laid flatly on the bed staring at the ceiling.

"What do you think you are doing? You f*cked up our relationship, don't do the same with Christine. You were desperate for us to end so that you could be with her then why are you doing this with me." I spat at him. Ethan sharply turned towards me, where I was standing at the edge of the bed.

Without waiting for him to say anything I began walking through the door. Unfortunately for me he caught my wrist again and spun me around causing me to crash in his chest. My hands instinctively went to my stomach protecting my baby from the impact.

"I was desperate? Wow! That's a great way to blame me for your affairs." He said his eyes blazing with anger. I gasped in shock. What was he talking about?

"Affair.. Wh..?"

"Ah! Look at you. So innocent. You can't stand my touch but you are willing to let some another guy touch you. You are willing to move with him? What did you say... You are lucky to have him and what else? Oh right! You wanted to spend your life with him somewhere else?" He yelled at me. At first I couldn't understand what he was talking about but later on I understood that he was talking about my conversation with Alex today. He had heard our conversation. But the question was how much? Did he know about the baby?

"You forgot me so easily Erica? I can't get you out of my head and I don't even want to and you already replaced me?" He appeared broken and if I wasn't wrong I saw tears forming in his eyes. But before I could notice anything further he wiped his face with the back of his hand.

"I want you so much baby. I need you in my life. I can't live without you. All I can think about is you." He said gently taking my hand in his palm. This time I didn't protest. Instead I replied, "I am not what you want Ethan. You have made it clear what you want.

"No, I want only you. No other man can make you as happy as I can. I know I hurt you but.... But... I'll make it up to you." He walked away from me towards the vanity drawer but as an effect of alcohol stumbled on the way and fell on the bed.

"F*ck!" He cursed. I immediately went to his side an helped him to sit. He somehow sat as straight as a drunk person could sit. I realized that he hadn't heard our conversation fully. He had misinterpreted my words and thought that I was leaving for some other man.

"Ethan, you are under the effect of alcohol. Tomorrow morning you won't even remember what you said. You need rest. Please sleep." I said trying to convince him. If he continued what he was doing now I would most probably blurt out that I was pregnant.

This time he listened to me and laid on the bed. I pulled the blanket up and combed my fingers through his hair. Within minutes he was out. But my hand was firmly clasped in his hand. I tried to break free without waking him up but he was strong even in his drunk and sleeping form. Exhausted I slept besides him making a mental note to myself to sneak out before he wakes up tomorrow.

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