Chapter 3

Picture of Troy

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Alex POV

I woke up on the cold sidewalk my body throbbing in pain. I looked down to see a small spot if blood in front of me. I felt queasy and my stomach churned uncomfortably. I threw up beside me

I sat up looking around to see darkness. I got up with shaky legs and a throbbing stomach and cautiously walked home

when I opened the door I fell to my knees seeing my house trashed I cried on the floor

"dear god, why did it have to be this way why am i gay " I screamed crying myself to sleep

I woke up to the alarm not bothering to clean the house

I took a shower putting on a grey long sleeve and somewhat loose bluejeans then walked to school

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On the way to school I wasn't hassled by Axel probably because he was finding his mate today. Oh I forgot to mention I'm a werewolf just like most of the kids at my school. Our pack lives among the humans whom we try to stay out of contact with.

I walked into the school sniffing the air a mouth watering smell filled my sinuses

It smelled of fresh wood and lavender

¨MATE!¨ my wolf Ashton yelled so i followed the smell until i saw him. The only man I've ever hated the person that makes my life a living hell...Axel

¨ no it cant be¨ I thought to myself. He turned around to face me many emotions twisting on his face.

I shook my head in disbelief and ran away I ran as fast as I could going outside in the rain falling weak to my knees

He walked up behind me pulling me to his face by my hair

¨I will never be your mate ¨ he spat at me in a disgusted tone my heart broke into a million pieces

¨I Alex Jefferies reject Axel smith as my mate ¨ I said he let go of my hair causing me to fall. His eyes filled with hurt.

He opened his mouth to say something but closed it again looking down at his feet.

¨Will you just say it ¨ I screamed he flinched at my tone

He just stared at me his eyes where changing colors his wolf was fighting him then his eyes turned all black

¨No please Alex I love you¨ he said grabbing my hand which i quickly yanked back

¨ No you don't neither of you do remember i'm the fag you fucking hate don't play with me" I said then i felt a pair of soft lips on mine

I was pushed up against a tree i tried to get away but both of his hands where on either sides of my head locking me in place

then I felt something poke my thigh I pushed him away with all of my strength

His eyes changed to normal he stared at me

¨Alex I-¨ he started but I cut him off

¨No don't say anything unless your accepting my rejection " I said he stared silently looking regretful

¨Why do you do this to me don't toy with my fucking heart Axel " i screamed then he pinned me against the tree smashing his lips onto mine

He held my face to his moving his lips I could barely stand his kisses felt like fireworks

it took all of my strength to push away then he slapped me and my body fell to the ground

come to my house after school we need to figure this out he said then left I got up going inside

at lunch i found Ashley

¨Alex oh my god what happened ¨ she said then i told her the story she hugged me tightly as i cried onto her shoulder

then Axel walked past with guilt written all over his face

He kept walking looking sad but I ignored him tears still running down my face

the final bell rang so I started walking to Axel's

I arrived at his house it was beautiful it was was a big white house with a nice yard and driveway with lots of plants

I went up and knocked on the door and waited a few seconds before someone answered

I saw Axel he didn't have a shirt on and his hair was in his face I'm guessing he just got out of the shower

¨Come in ¨ he mumbled  I walked in he closed the door walking up the stairs

so I followed and we came to what I am guessing was his room

it had black walls and white curtains with a wood floor and some band posters and a game system

he shut the door behind him and smacked me to the ground i looked at him

¨A-Axel ¨ i stuttered he looked at me with hate filled eyes kicking me in the stomach

my body hit the floor as i held my stomach

¨ Axel just accept the rejection ¨ I said weakly he looked at me he groaned loudly

¨ Don't you understand i cant ¨ he screamed then he picked me up pinning me against the wall kissing me

He pulled away ¨God dammit ¨ he yelled punching a hole in the wall beside me

then he set me down ¨I cant make up my mind if I hate you or if I love you ¨ he said then he sat on his bed

I stayed against the wall ¨ Axel c-can i go ¨ I stuttered slightly afraid

¨ No we need to talk about his ¨ he said I didn't move I looked at my feet

¨Alex do... do you love me ¨ he asked seriously

¨i don't know ¨ i said he stood up

¨ do you feel anything when we kiss ¨ he said looking awkward

¨ well yes i feel sparks and my stomach flips upside down ¨ i say he smiled a little before stopping and looking at me

¨i don't know how i feel my wolf wants you and me well i just don't know anymore when you said the rejection i instantly felt pain its just the feeling i have in my heart when we touch is just ugh i don't know ¨

he said rubbing the back of his neck i felt sad then rage just came over me

¨ Well you cant expect me to forgive you you beat me everyday of my life i have bruises covering my body like clothes i have a bruised rib for God sakes. I wake up every morning with a bottle of pills and say to myself i could end all of this then i say no i can try to put up with it for another day then you make me feel worthless again ¨ i screamed at him then he hit me again i cried

¨goodbye axel ¨ i said opening the door and running out i ran into the rain all the way home crying myself to sleep in my bed .