Chapter 32 (M)

Derek's POV

I've been back at the dorms for a couple days now, just basking in the silence of the empty building. I've continued to call Adrian every night, but he's coming back later today so we can see each other in person again.

I've missed him a lot, despite hearing his voice every night. I'd just much rather have him next to me in person instead of on the phone. I want to hug him and kiss him everywhere.

"Hey Adri," I say as I answer his call.

"Hey. I'm here. Should I go to your room? Is anyone there right now?" he asks.

"No one's here right now, you can come over here if you want. I missed you."

"I missed you too, Derek. I'll see you in a few seconds."

"Yeah. I'm excited to see you," I tell him.

I hear a knock at the door, and I open the door for him, immediately picking him up and pulling him into a hug. I kiss the top of his head over and over again while he holds onto me for dear life. I know I won't drop him, I'm strong enough to carry him in one arm.

"I missed you so much, Adri."

"I missed you too," he says before grabbing the collar of my shirt and slamming his lips onto mine. His lips still taste like heaven, making it seem more and more likely that he is actually from heaven and is an angel.

I wrap my arms around his waist and push into the kiss, wanting never to stop kissing this beautiful man that I'm lucky to call my boyfriend. I feel his lips part and his tongue lapping over my lips, and I realize that he wants to actually tongue kiss. I part my lips enthusiastically and we explore each other's mouths while groaning a lot. The sounds coming out of his mouth are seriously turning me on right now and I am not afraid of that.

The kiss is becoming very heated already, but now his hands are finding their way up my shirt, running over my abs and chest. His hands are cold, and they feel weird against my skin, but I don't want him to stop touching me. He starts gripping my pecs, making me groan even more.

I never thought we would actually get to this point, but I'm happy. Adrian's leading the way while I'm sitting back and letting him do what he wants. I want him to want something like this, and him taking the lead is the best pointer that he wants something like this to actually happen between us.

He pulls my shirt off and stares at me for a second before slamming his lips back onto mine again, tongue very soon being included in the kiss. I don't know how much further this is going to go, but I don't mind as long as he wants it.

"Can we, uh, can we do something?" he asks.

"Yes, of course. What were you thinking about doing?"

"I don't know. Should we just see where this takes us?"

"Sure. Let's keep doing this and just go with the flow, okay? I don't know if full on sex is the best decision right now, we should probably research what we should do before actually having sex," I point out and he nods.

"Yeah. I don't think I'm ready for that yet. But other things sound good."

I nod at him before swiftly pulling his shirt off and picking him up by the legs. He wraps his legs around my waist and wraps his hands around my neck before kissing me very hard again. I can feel his erection against my stomach and it is big. Not as big as me, but he still has a very considerably sized dick.

We keep kissing in this position, with me carrying him while he kisses me until I come up with something we can do without us going all the way yet.

"Can I give you head?" I ask.

"Huh?"

"I wanna suck your dick. Is that okay?" I ask again.

"Um, sure. Are you sure you want to? Because I really want this."

"I am so sure I want this, Adri, don't worry. I want this so bad."

"Okay," he agrees. "Let's do this."

"Can we take it slow? I've never given someone head, so I want this to be good for you."

"Of course."

"Okay."

I put Adrian back down on the ground and he pulls down his pants, leaving him in just his boxers. He avoids eye contact with me until I put a finger under his chin and make him face me.

I smile down at him and he weakly smiles back.

"Hey. You look gorgeous, okay? Don't feel insecure about yourself. You're the most beautiful person in the world, okay? You look so perfect right now. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable around me. You can trust me and I will not take that trust for granted," I tell him.

He kisses me on the cheek and hugs me again. "Thank you, Derek. It's not about you, I've just never been naked in front of someone. I don't want this to be weird for you."

"I can't imagine your body looks weird, Adri. I can see your dick print. You're packing."

He blushes and I kiss his forehead. I truly can see his dick print through his boxers. It is very big and I am lowkey down to bottom if he doesn't want to. When that time comes, obviously. We aren't gonna do anything like that until he tells me explicitly that he wants it. I'll make him sign a form telling me that he 100% wants do to something, and only then will I start bringing up what positions we should be when we have sex.

Adrian pulls his boxers down and stands there awkwardly, his entire body on display for me. I kiss him on the lips again and tell him he looks amazing and his body is beautiful before I pick him up and lay him down softly on my bed.

"You're sure you want this?" I ask.

"I've wanted this for years. Are you sure you want this?"

"Fuck yes."

"Okay," he smiles.

"Can I-uh-can I touch it?" I ask timidly.

"If you want."

"Okay."

That's all I need to hear before I wrap my hand around his dick and slowly stroke it, watching as his head lays back and he moans in pleasure. I'm jerking my boyfriend off right now. And it seems like he's enjoying it.

"Is this okay?" I ask again, despite us already being this far.

"Yeah. This is more than okay. This is fucking amazing," he moans out as I accidentally brush the tip of his dick with my thumb.

"Do you want me to suck it?" I ask timidly.

"If you want."

"I will."

I stare at it for a few minutes, continuing to very slowly jerk him off. He's very big, I think I mentioned that before. Seeing Adrian completely naked is really a sight. He is really such a beauty and my eyes are being so blessed right now.

"Okay. I'm gonna do it," I state.

I lick up his shaft, making him grip the sheets and moan. I get to the tip of his cock and swirl my tongue over the top, tasting his sweet precum. I can't believe I'm doing this right now. Ask me 2 months ago, I would've told you that sucking dick is probably really gross, but here I am, about to eat my man's dick.

"Was that good?" I ask.

"Fuck yes, Derek. Holy shit."

I let go of his dick and it falls down to his stomach. I stare at him while I play with his balls a little bit before licking them. He groans again, gripping the sheets again.

"Can I hold your hand when I actually suck you?" I ask.

"Yeah. I would love that."

He puts a hand out and I take his hand in mine, gripping it hard. He smiles down at me and I place a kiss on his abdomen before taking his cock back in my hand and staring at it again.

I take a deep breath and then I slowly put him into my mouth. With this being my first time giving head, I'm only able to get half of him in my mouth before I begin to feel displeasure, but he is clearly on cloud 9. That's all that matters to me. If he feels good, then I feel good.

"Fuck, Derek," he groans, his hold on my hand tightening.

I slowly bob my head up and down, getting a little more of him in my mouth after every dive back down. I can taste his precum in my mouth. I don't think I will be swallowing anything today unless he doesn't warn me that he's about to come. It just seems a little gross, even if his precum tastes totally fine.

After about 5 minutes, I'm actually able to get his entire cock into my mouth while he continues to make noises that I would pay to hear any other way. His voice is genuinely so beautiful and hearing him moan is such a turn on. My pants are tight, that's all I'll say. I won't request head from him unless he pushes for it. I don't want him to feel obligated, because this was my idea and I wanted to give him head and make him feel good.

"Derek, your mouth feels so good," he states.

I just hum a little and keep going. This is actually kind of fun. I can't lie, I'm enjoying this very much.

"Derek, I'm so close," Adrian whispers.

I nod at him and keep going. I'll go as far as I can until I actually feel him about to nut down my throat.

3 minutes later, I feel him pulsate and I pull him out of my mouth and watch as he lets out at least half a dozen ropes of nut all over his abdomen, chest, and some onto my face. I couldn't get my face away quick enough.

Adrian's whole body relaxes again and releases my hand as he catches his breath. Despite what I said, I had to sneak a taste of him so I swiped a thumb over my cheek and tasted it. His load tastes really good but I don't really want to eat all of it right now.

"You can take a nap, okay angel?" I tell him.

"Okay."

I go to the bathroom and grab a towel, get it wet, and return to Adrian with it. I wipe his body down, clean his cock off, and throw it in a hamper before grabbing Adrian's clothes and putting them back on him. I put my shirt back on and get in my bed with him. It's a little bit cramped, but I don't mind. I like being close to Adrian.

I kiss the back of his neck and hug him from behind.

"That felt so fucking good. I was seriously missing out," he whispers.

"I'm glad I made you feel good. That's my job as your boyfriend."

"I should return the favor, huh?"

"No, it's okay. You're tired. Sleep, okay?" I tell him.

"Okay. But I will request to see what you have in your pants when I wake up. If you're okay with that, obviously."

"Sure. I'd be okay with that. Just rest, okay?"

"Yeah," he says before clearly falling asleep.

I stay awake, staring at all the perfections on his face. His full lips, his beautiful jawline that has something around a 110 degree angle, but a very sharp looking one. His nose that's kind of long, but not in a bad way. Just a very easy nose to tap when I feel like I want to be corny. His eyes, that I've memorized in my mind and can see despite his eyelids being closed. His hair, so beautiful and fluffy, and so fun to play with. My boyfriend is such a gorgeous human being and I hope he knows that. I will dedicate my life to making him realizing that he's such a beautiful person. On the inside and the outside.

I hear Adrian's breathing coming from his nose, because he trained himself not to mouth breathe, which is another way that makes him really hot. I feel myself start to fall asleep, but I just have one more thing to tell him, and I pray he can hear me because I'm not totally ready to tell him when he's awake yet.

"I love you so much," I whisper.

I very quickly fall asleep after telling him that with my arms around Adrian, holding him to my body. I'm so lucky that Adrian has the same feelings for me, and he's had those feelings for years. He's wanted me since sophomore year of high school, that's fucking crazy. And I didn't realize at all because I was busy crushing over Cameron. But I don't have a crush on him anymore. I lost all my feelings for him actually quickly after we got to UCLA, and then I gained insane feelings for Adrian and now I'm with him. I just gave him head. I've seen him completely naked and coming. That definitely means a lot.

A couple hours later, I wake up to Adrian playing with my hair, his beautiful eyes trained intently on my blonde curls.

"Hi, angel," I smile.

"Hi."

"How'd you sleep?"

"I slept well. I had one thing on my mind though," he states.

"And what's that?"

Out of nowhere, he pushes me down so my back is on my bed and he climbs on top of me. I'm fully clothed and he's fully clothed as well, but I think I know where he wants this to go.

"I think I should return the favor," he says.

"I don't want you to feel pressured to return the favor, if you don't want to, you don't have to."

"I want to. I've wanted to for so fucking long," he tells me, softly kissing my lips.

"Fine. Please give me head, gorgeous."

"Thank you."

He rapidly takes my shirt off and then his lips meet my nipple, sucking it and softly biting the flesh around it. I moan and he grins. His other hand finds it's way to my other nipple and he pinches and twists it.

"Adri," I moan. "Fuck."

He moves the nipple twisting hand down into my pants, feeling my erection through my boxers but not full skin to skin contact yet. He has a look of surprise on his face as he feels my manhood and he smirks at me.

"You're big," he says.

"I know."

Adrian rolls his eyes at me as he crawls to the edge of the bed, closer to where my dick is. He takes my pants off, leaving me in just boxers as he continues to stare at my print, which is not even fully hard yet. He stares as it keeps growing until a lot of it is poking out of my boxers.

"Wow. Is sex even possible with this?" he asks.

"Sex isn't an essential part of a relationship, Adri, and besides, full on penetration isn't the first thing that happens. There's prep and all that."

"True. I'm gonna touch it," he informs me.

"Okay. Don't do anything you don't want to do."

"I want to do this, don't worry," he chuckles. "I've wanted to do this for a long time."

He finally pulls my boxers down, revealing my erection, which he stares at for a few seconds with his eyes extremely wide. I feel very flattered right now, I can't even lie. This beautiful man is staring in admiration at my manhood.

"It's even bigger out of your boxers," he says.

"Thanks."

"Wow. Do you do testosterone injections or something?"

"No," I reply.

"Damn. So this fucking footlong is natural?"

"I guess. I mean, I'm pretty tall, that probably has something to do with it, right?" I suggest.

"Yeah. Yeah, probably. This is just something else."

He finally wraps his hand around it, and slowly strokes my cock the same way I did to him a couple hours ago. Actually, he's able to get both of his hands around it and jerk me off that way.

"Is this good?" he asks.

"Yeah," I breathe. "That feels so good."

"I'm still processing how huge it is."

"Thanks. You have a pretty big dick too."

"I feel kinda small next to you," he laughs.

"It's okay. You're beautiful the way you are, and still, you are well above average."

"Thanks. I think I'm gonna suck it," he states.

"Okay. I won't do anything, just do what you feel comfortable doing, don't try to take it all at once, just go slow if you need, okay?"

"Yeah. Thanks. This is gonna be fun."

He releases one of his hands from my throbbing cock and he starts licking up my shaft, making sure to kiss the tip, making me release some more precum. It feels so unreal to have a guy that I'm in love with licking my penis, but it kinda still feels right. I can't explain it, but the way we're doing this, it just feels like we needed to do this. We needed to test the boundaries of our relationship at some point, with plenty of consent still, but we needed to see each other naked. This is an essential moment in our relationship. Maybe in a month or so, we'll actually have real sex.

While all these thoughts are running through my mind, Adrian wraps his lips around the tip of my cock, bobbing his head up and down about a third of me. It doesn't matter that he can't fully take me, because it still feels so fucking amazing.

"Fuck," I moan. "You're fucking amazing at this."

He continues to give me the best feeling I've ever felt, as he is able to get more and more of my cock into his mouth, until he eventually only has a couple inches until he bottoms out. His hand came up to my chest halfway through, and I took it as him wanting to hold my hand while he does this and I quickly obliged. I held his hand tight, and continued to praise him and let him know that he's doing a great job.

He gags a little bit and I pull his head off my dick to make sure he's doing okay. He coughs a bit, a string of saliva connecting his mouth to my cock. He takes a minute to breathe and I pull him back up to me and kiss him on the lips.

"Hey, that was amazing. I want to see you come again though, so I have an idea," I tell him.

"What is it?"

"I won't tell you, but you have to trust me, okay? Can you tell me that you trust me?"

"I trust you with my life, Derek," he states.

"Okay."

I flip us over so he's under me. I smile down at him, and stare him down, telekinetically telling him to take his shirt off. He somehow understands that and gets completely naked while I still have his body caged under my body.

"You ready for this?" I ask.

"Yeah. Fuck yeah, Derek."

I take both of our cocks in my hand and jerk us both off at the same time. I'm barely able to hold both of our dicks in my hand, but I make it work.

"Adri, does that feel good?" I question.

He moans in response and I kiss his cheek.

"Use your words, angel. Does it feel good?"

"Yes. It feels so good, Derek," he moans.

"Tell me when you're close, okay?"

"Yes."

I continue to jerk both of us off, watching Adrian's unbelievably hot facial expressions as I keep running my thumb over both of our tips. He begins squirming under me and I keep going but make sure to check that he's still doing alright.

"Everything okay?" I ask.

"Yeah. I'm just-fuck-I'm just close, babe."

"So am I."

"Fuck," he groans.

"Come with me, angel. Please," I beg.

"I'm about to, Derek, don't worry."

Me and Adrian both cry out as we both reach orgasm, covering my beautiful boyfriend in warm liquid. I collapse next to him before beginning my aftercare duties and grabbing a damp towel and wiping him, his dick, and my dick down. I grab his clothes and put them on him, kissing his forehead after doing that. I put my clothes on and lie down next to my angel.

"That was so amazing," he states. "Thank you for that."

"No, thank you. I'm glad we're at this stage in our relationship where we can do that."

"Yeah. This was an important thing to do. You are, uh, very stunning when you're naked. You are really able to hide that throughout the day," he jokes.

"It's very difficult to hide it when I'm around you."

"Thanks. Am I actually big?"

"Yeah. You're very big. I'm just kind of a freak in that department. I am abnormal," I claim.

"Well, I'm glad you are," he says, kissing my cheek.

"We should start looking into what we should do to prepare for full on sex if that's something you'd be comfortable with doing."

He kisses me on the cheek again, which is seriously becoming such an endearing thing for him to do. He is so sweet, and getting all of these cheek kisses is something from a dream.

"I would love for us to start looking into things like that. And like you said, I think going very slow at first would be good. I would prefer to bottom, I mean, the dynamic of our relationship kind of makes it make sense for me to bottom because you're my protector and whatever," he says.

"Adri, if you don't want to bottom, I'd be fine with doing that instead. Whatever you think you'd rather have, I will adapt to that and make sure you feel good."

"Trust me, Derek, I really do want to bottom."

"Well, if we do end up doing something like that, I promise you, I will go only the speed you want me to go. I don't want to hurt you, I just want to make you feel good," I tell him again.

"And I'm sure you will make me feel amazing."

I wrap my arms around him and pull him close to me, kissing the top of his head. I want Adrian in my arms all the time, just relaxing with him. We probably won't get a lot of time like this again where we can just do what we just did, but I'm sure when we go to Hawaii, we will do something fun together.

Adrian is really making me see life so differently. I find joy in the smallest things when I'm thinking of Adrian. I try my best at everything I do because I do eventually want to spend the rest of my life with him and I will want to be able to provide for the two of us. I just feel so much lighter with him. Being so open and real with him just takes such a hefty weight off of my chest and I just feel so much better.

Adrian makes me forget about my mom and that whole situation. And that's what I want. I just want to forget her and I think Adrian is making that a realistic thing to do.

A/N: So, how was the smut? I'm kind of rusty in terms of smut, because it's been a while. Don't worry, if you were expecting full on sex, it will still happen at some point. I just think that Adrian and Derek's attitudes regarding sex are not the same as Cam and Aaron's. Cam and Aaron are sex animals and will do it whenever they can. Adrian and Derek are going to take things slow, just like they did in their actual relationship. I think that having full on sex in this chapter would be uncharacteristic of these two. Thanks for reading!!!