Chapter Seven

Andrew's POV

I saw her, and I just wanted to wrap my hands around her body and tell her how sorry I am and take my words back.

I was blinded by my rage when I said those words to her. I needed to get away from her but when she wasn't getting out of the way so I had to say anything to get her to leave me be. Now thinking about it, that was just another stupid thing to add to the list of stupid things I've said to her.

As our eyes met in the airport I once again felt my heart breaking into a thousand pieces and what made it worse was the fact that she looked like she was going to break down in tears any second.

I love you. I read her lips and damn me I wanted to shout those words right back at her, disregarding the fact that we were in a public place.

If I had gotten to the airport, ten minutes earlier than I did hours ago, I would have gotten on the plane to Chicago and she wouldn't have seen me. I wouldn't have been reminded of the pain I had caused her, at least not at that moment.

I love you. I said to myself as if praying for her to hear my inner thoughts.

As she looked away to do something I walked away blending in with the crowd. My flight was scheduled for another hour so I went as far away from her as possible and waited for my flight to be announced.

As I stood in a corner, all I could think of was her, her face, her lips, her hair and her heart that I crushed with my own two hands, not once, not twice.

I don't deserve her I told myself.

It's best I let her go. She deserves better than me. All I'll keep giving her is heartbreak.

My phone beeped of a new message from Adrian. I looked at my wallpaper, my favorite picture of her on the night I proposed to her.

I felt the tears welling up in my eyes as I unlocked my phone and read Adrian's message.

Don't tell me you plan on leaving her for good. It read.

I wanted to respond but I didn't know what to say because I myself was unsure of my response.

I'm the most confused person on the planet at the moment.

Do I want a family with her?

Yes.

Do I love her?

Yes.

Regardless?

Yes.

What's holding me back?

The pain and hurt that she caused.

I can't wrap my head around the fact that she was with another man. It still feels unreal to me. But I promised her forever, I promised her that I wouldn't leave her and that's exactly what I'm doing.

I broke my promise to her. Because I can't handle the fact that she cheated and she just might be pregnant for him.

What if she's pregnant for you?

The real question is will she still want me in her life after now?

If she's still down for me then I'll hold her and never let her go but I'm pretty sure she wants nothing to do with me now. After I literally ran away from her, away from what might be my responsibility.  I'm a big failure.

I made the decision to leave and now that I'm rethinking that decision, I'm scared to face the consequences. I looked at the time, my flight would be announced any time soon.

I picked up my bag, ready to get my ass out of the airport and to call Victoria as soon as I'm sure she's landed in Canada and beg for her forgiveness.

No, I'll process my Visa and go to see her directly, this isn't a case we can handle over the phone.

My phone started ringing and one look at the caller ID got me turning off the phone. My mother was calling. I'm very sure that she has heard the news and if I go back, I won't hear the end of it, not only from my mum but also Riya's parents, everybody.

I'm not ready to face all of them. Call me a coward because that's who I am now, running away from my problems.

My flight was announced and I had made up my mind, I'm going to Chicago. I need to get out of here first and work on getting Victoria back, if she'd want me.

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As my feet landed on Chicago soil, I immediately felt at home, as if I was one with the land. This is my home and it'll always be my home.

I spotted Jeffery instantly and made my way to him. "Hey," I called his attention.

"Hey man," he crushed me in a hug, patting my back repeatedly.

I chuckled, "miss me that much?"

"You don't know," he helped carry my duffel bag and I dragged my suitcase.

Let me refresh your memory. Remember just after we were done with college and Riya and I went on a date and she saw my chats with Jae that caused us to break up again, well this is Jae, aka Jeffery Newton, one of my closest friends and business partner.

I had called him before I got to the airport that I was flying in to Chicago today so he should pick me at the airport.

I still haven't told him what was going on but I hope to tell him, God knows I need the advice and even though he's made the worst decisions concerning his love life, he sure gives the best advice, makes me wonder why he still makes a lot of mistakes when it comes to love.

"This is definitely sudden, no heads up at all? What's up man?" He unlocked his trunk and threw my bags in.

"A lot is up, but first I'm hungry." I closed the trunk and got into the car.

"Okay," he smirked and got into the car.

An hour after we were at Chick-fil-A and as I ate he just typed away on his phone and picked at his food.

"So tell me, what's going on? How's Riya, I've been hearing a lot and I don't even know what to believe." He put away his phone and leaned in.

I wiped my hands on the saviette before finishing my drink and looking up at him. I sat back and cleared my throat before speaking.

I told him everything from the beginning, from the moment I proposed to her. I watched his face change, a lot and when I was done I waited for him to say something.

He cleared his throat and took a sip of his water. "I must say that you fucked up, big time."

"Oh I know." I ran my hand over my face with a sigh.

"What are you going to do now?"

"Not really sure how it's all going to go down but I'm going to work on getting a Canadian Visa and I'll go meet her and talk to her in person. I'm really hoping she doesn't push me away completely." I told him

"If she agrees to be with you again, and you lose her again, I'll personally kill you." He paid for the meal and he drove me home, or rather my parents home.

As Victoria was planning her escape to Canada, I was planning for our life together in Chicago. I had already bought a house which is in her name and it's supposed to be our home together when the storm is over and we can finally have a home and family of our own.

But now that things have changed, I can't go there without her. It's supposed to be our home, our life together and going there without her just feels wrong.

I pray things get back to the way they were. I miss her.

"Hey Drew, me and the guys are hanging out tonight, wanna come?" Jae asked as I took out my duffel bag from his trunk and closed it.

"No, I'll skip on this one. But have fun." I declined his offer and took out the house key.

"Okay, I'll call you tomorrow." He got into his car and drove off.

And now, I was truly alone.

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