Chapter 1: The beginning

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Now I'm sitting alone

I'm finally looking around

Left here on my own

I'm gonna hurt myself

Maybe losing my mind

I'm still wondering why

Had to let the world let it bleed dry ♫ ♪♪...

I woke up at the sound of my alarm clock. I groaned and got up, rubbing my eyes. I took a quick shower, washing my hair slowly while I sang my favorite song named "We Are Golden" which was also the song on my alarm clock. Although, it may not be my favorite song for much longer if it kept waking me up.

The hot water relaxed my body from the stressful dream I had. It was more a nightmare than a dream, but I didn't want to think about it anymore. I stepped out of the shower to dress myself with a green slim and a pink T-shirt. I also took a few colorful bracelets, taking my time to look good. Finally, I brushed my long light brown hair making a slight mess in it, which I loved. Once I looked good enough to eat, I went downstairs. My mother was already making the breakfast in our small kitchen, and I could smell it from up the stairs.

"How are you today, sweetie?" I looked up to my mother, watching her tired eyes droop and her brown hair bounce as she walked up to me. She gave me a brilliant warm smile. Her eyes were shining, as they did every morning. Always happy to see me. She said I was the best thing that ever happened to her, and I believed it.

"I'm fine," I mumbled, looking at her quickly and giving her a half smile before going back on my phone and my boyfriend, Alex.

She sighed and gave me a plate of pancakes with syrup on it. I thanked her and began to eat, leaving the plate on the big marble table when I was done.

"Your dishes!" my mother said, anger in her voice, looking at me hands on her hips. Her blue dress made her look like a strumpet. I laughed a little at the image.

"I don't have time for that; Alex is waiting for me. He's already at school." I said leaving quickly, without waiting for her answer. I know she would be angry about that, but I was already late. I had to leave.

I walked as fast as I could. Alex was waiting for me on our bench, the one he asked me out. His dark blue jeans contrasted the white T-shirt showing off his delicious abs. When he saw me, he smiled and came to me. His smell was like cologne. He kissed me slowly, hugging me tightly. His lips entranced me, numbing mine with the seer intensity that was their very touch. I cuddled my head into his shoulder, the perfect height for our embrace. It was perfect. He was perfect. And I loved him dearly.

"I missed you, babe," Alex whispered sensually in my ear, making me shiver.

"I missed you too," I answered, kissing him again with passion. I smiled happily at him. A happiness everyone could have seen shining right out of me.

"Come on, we're going to be late for school," he said taking my hand and smiling lovingly at me.

On the way to our first class, all the students were glaring at me, giving me malevolent glares. It always made me uncomfortable. Luckily, Alex was here with me, and I was used to it. I didn't know why they hated me so much. Being gay had something to do with it, but they weren't that mean with Alex or others students.

I met Alex when I was ten, seven years ago. We met at school. I remembered that day as if it was yesterday... I closed my eyes, reminiscing the day I met Alex.

I was sitting on a bench, alone, crying. I hated school, everybody was mean. I didn't have friends. Other children would laugh at me, calling me names. Teachers weren't any better. They stared at me with hated eyes as if I killed someone in their family. I've always been a good boy. My marks weren't that bad, I had some problems but I was doing my best. It was hard to have perfect marks when nobody wanted to explain to you those things you didn't understand. I was always alone.

My mother knew nothing about it. I couldn't let her know. I didn't want to disappoint her. I didn't want to see the pity in her eyes. Luckily my mother never questioned why she never saw me with friends, why I never brought anyone home to play. She had been working so much since my dad left five years ago. She didn't need to worry about my problems; it was not that important. I was not that important.

A short blond-haired boy with eyes as dark as ink came near me, standing immobile before me. He was looking at me as if I was the most interesting thing in the world, and it was making me uncomfortable. Why was he here? Did he want to make fun of me too?

"Why are you crying?" He asked me in a soft tone, furrowing his brows.

I looked at him, wiping my eyes.

"What are you doing here?" I sniffled, a few tears on my cheeks.

"You're always alone, why? Don't you have friends?" He asked me before sitting next to me, a frown on his face.

I made a sign, sadly, as another tear ran down my cheek.

"Well, I will promise you something. You will never ever be alone from now on. You're my new best friend, ok?" He said with a bright smile, excitement in his eyes. He was almost bouncing up and down in excitement.

I smiled weakly at him before nodding. He took my hand and led me to the swings.

"Come on, I'm sure I can go higher than you!" He said laughing and climbing on a swing while I took the other next to him.

That was the day I met my first, and only, friend.

Seven years later, he was still with me; our relationship evolved. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I couldn't. He was everything to me. I loved him too much. It may sound stupid, but I've had no one but my mother for so long...anyone, except Alex.

At the end of the day we left school quickly, hand in hand. The weather was beautiful and it wasn't cold. Strange, as we were in November, but I wasn't complaining, I hated snow.

"Can you go home with me?" I asked, giving him a puppy look which made him groan.

"You know I can't resist when you're looking at me with your beautiful green eyes," he said with a pout.

I grinned and kissed him before taking his hand.

"Fag." I heard someone mumble leaving school.

I frowned. Why couldn't they let me be happy?

"Don't listen to them; they don't know what they're missing. You're perfect," Alex whispered in my ear. He kissed my cheek and took back my other hand.

I smiled weakly at him, nodding, and we began to walk.

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"Mom! I'm here!" I shouted as I entered into the house, taking off my white vest.

"I'm in the living room!"

"Hey Mom, Alex's here. We will be in my room, ok?" I said with a small smile.

"Who is this Alex boy?" She asked, raising an eyebrow, her fingers hovering over the keys as she paused typing. Probably yet another language transcription for work.

"My boyfriend." I answered rolling my eyes at her stupidity.

"Did I meet him?" She eyed me suspiciously.

"Mom, he's been my best friend for years, and we've been together for two years now. Of course you've already met him," I said, trying to stay calm. She got on my nerves when she played dumb that way. It was not like she never met him! It had been seven years for god's sake!

"Sweetie..." She whispered, something like pity in her eyes.

I ignored her and went into my room, Alex was already here.

"Hey, what took you so long?" He said, lying down on the black bed, his eyes closed.

"My mother asked me stupid questions about you," I said, rolling my eyes before lying down next to him.

"She can't understand our relationship. I'll always be with you," he whispered smiling and stroking my hair gently.

I smiled sweetly at him. He hugged me. We stayed this way, in this position, for hours, without speaking, stealing kisses from each other. The last thing I remember before falling asleep was: "I'll always be with you, even if I'm not here physically. Don't believe the others, they're just jealous... Stay strong."

♂+♂=♥

I groaned before rubbing my eyes. I was in my bed in white boxers. When did I fall asleep? How many hours did I sleep? I looked at my alarm clock, it was already 7 a.m. There was no point in falling back asleep, my alarm would ring in ten minutes. I sighed and I took a quick shower. Throwing on a red slim and a blue T-shirt, I finally realized that Alex wasn't in the bed. I frowned and ran downstairs, looking everywhere, but I couldn't find him.

"Where is he? Where is he???"  I cried out.

"Honey what are you doing? Stop screaming!" My mother asked, coming out of the kitchen, a worried look on her face.

"Where is Alex?? He wasn't here when I woke up!! Where is he? He promised me he would be here!!" Tears leaked from my eyes as I began to sob. I sat on the floor of the corridor; I couldn't believe he disappeared again.

"Calm down, please, calm down." She whispered the same concern from earlier in her eyes. I didn't care what she was thinking at the moment, I just wanted my boyfriend back.

"Where is he?" I asked sobbing louder.

"He left this morning, someone called him. I think it was his mother, he had to go home. Stop crying, he's ok. You should check your phone; he may have left you a message." She said, panic in her eyes.

I quickly rushed up the stairs and went into my bedroom. My IPhone was on my bed. I took it and there was a new message.

"Hey babe, sorry I had to leave. Will tell U everything later. X"

I went in the kitchen, wiping my eyes.

"So?" My mother asked raising an eyebrow.

"You were right; he sent me a message telling me he had to leave. Sorry, I shouldn't have panicked." I said in a small voice not meeting her eyes. It wasembarrassing.

I quickly ate something before taking my yellow bag and leaving for school, hugging my mother before going out. Alex was sitting on the bench, as usual. I ran toward him.

"Hey." I said sitting next to him.

"Hey, I'm sorry I had to leave. My mother needed me. Please don't hate me..." He said in a small voice before putting his head on my shoulder kissing my neck gently.

"You know I can't, I love you too much for that. But promise me you will never do that without leaving me a message before I panic. Ok?" I asked in a small voice, desperation in my voice.

He nodded before kissing me, as I ignored the others who were giving me scared and confused glances.

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