Chapter 29

I heard my phone ringing; I reluctantly opened my eyes to pick it up. I looked at the time it was only 8 in the morning who is calling me? I looked at the caller id, off course it was Noah. I disconnected the call and put my phone on the silent mode, he can call as many times as he wants to but I am not going to answer. I fell back on the bed for the last six days I had hardly left the house. I walked around the house in my sweats all day like a freaking zombie.

Noah has been making it difficult for me by calling all the time, texting and last night he even sent me an email three pages long. With every please my heart broke a little and I wanted to run back to him but I had to be strong. These days didn’t feel different at all, each day felt like an another day without Noah, I was not getting any better instead my will was crumbling every time his name flashed on my phone and I had the urge to give up.

I sighed and got of the bed, heading towards the kitchen. I opened the fridge to see it mostly empty. I have no food around what so ever. I am living off biscuits, crisps and lots of chocolates; I really need to go grocery shopping maybe tomorrow. I poured myself orange juice which filled only half of the glass. Great, I hate this, I hate everything and I don’t know what to do. I gulped the juice and went back to my bedroom.

I should call mom maybe it will take my mind of Noah even if it is for a little while. I strolled down until I found the number and dialed it. “Hello.” My mom said.

“Hey, what you guys doing?” I asked casually. Mom didn’t reply right away she was talking to someone dad I think.

“How are you?” My dad asked. I guess she put it on the speaker. How am I? Screwed, pathetic, depressed and sleep deprived.

“Good. It’s really nice out here.” I lied plainly. They can’t know if I am lying through the phone so keeping them in dark is working if nothing else.

My parents were quiet for a few seconds. “We have to talk to you about something. It is important; if you have time it might take a while.” My mom asked.

“Ok I have lots of time. Say.” I replied. I was playing with the bracelet on my wrist turning it around in my fingers.

“It is Noah.” They said together. My heart sunk and my eyes started filling with tears. “He has been coming here every day since you left that to twice. I don’t know what happened but he is clearly not taking it well. I won’t ask you what happened but you should talk to the poor guy.” My dad said calmly.

He has been going visiting my parents every day since I left, twice? Does that mean? Don’t be stupid he misses you as a friend that’s all. “Why is he coming?” I asked curiously. “Did he say anything to both of you?” I asked trying to sound calm.

“He keeps asking about you, where are you? Why you left? These things mostly. He told us you don’t answer his calls or messages, you are not in touch with him. Rebecca don’t do this, just talk to him he is desperate. Do you want to tell us anything?” my mom asked.

“Not really. It’s nothing. He will be fine.” I said controlling my sobs which were threatening to break anytime now.

“Nothing? You left everything in a hurry and went away for nothing?” My asked her tone slightly angry. How can I tell them how I fell, it’s not something you discuss with your parents.

“I don’t want to tell. Don’t keep pushing me please because it’s going to be of no use. Anyways I will talk to you guys later. Bye mom, bye dad.” I replied and hung up.

I hate my life more than anything right now, it’s so screwed up. Before I met Noah my life was so simple no emotions, no complications, people are right love is messed up and it messes with your head, heart and everything literally. I always thought being in love will be amazing and magical but I never took into account that something like this could happen too. In the books and movies these things don’t happen even if they, it always has a happy ending. I am just going to stop reading and watching this romantic and gooey stuff, I am going to boycott them.

I am here alone, sad and Noah less. I put my head in the pillow and screamed in it as loudly as I could until my throat went dry. I am behaving like a stupid, rebellious teenager, I even had an argument with my parents but they really shouldn’t keep asking. If I wanted to tell wouldn’t I tell them right away? But no I don’t have the right the privacy.

I am miserable without Noah and I miss him like crazy that are the only two things I am sure about right now. I love him, I wish things could be better but I can only hope and I will never rule out the possibly of being with him completely, never. I have had a taste of how good would it be to be with him over the summer and now I can’t just let go of that dream. He is the only one for me; I don’t want anyone else and never will in my life. I have no idea how I have these super strong feelings for him, it’s like my whole world revolves around him and him only, I don’t see anyone or anything else other than him. God, I am so screwed, I need him, I am not sure if it will change.

Noah’s POV

I got up so early in the morning that even the sun wasn’t up yet. I have not been able to eat, drink, sleep do anything properly for the last few days. I don’t understand what to do or say to get Rebecca to at least talk to me. I am so miserable without her, like a part of me missing and I am not complete without her. Brian and Amanda won’t even talk to me if I go today again but honestly they are my best hope. I hope they are not thinking of me as trouble.

I got like three hours sleep last night. I spend more time turning and tossing into the bed than sleeping. The bed feels so empty and cold without Rebecca, I sleep so peacefully when she is curled up against me wrapped in my arms tightly and safely. I don’t know where she is now, what she must be doing? Is she missing me? God, I hope so because I am going crazy here. I really need to see her right now or maximum by tomorrow otherwise I am going to go crazy that to a certified one. I took a shower, eat something and got into my car driving to Rebecca’s place.

I knocked on the door and Brian opened it and smiled at me warmly. He motioned for me to come in and I followed him to the kitchen where Amanda was sitting on the table, she smiled at me. “Hi Noah, want some breakfast?” she asked politely.

It all looked delicious but I have more important things to do, eating can surely wait. “No, thanks.” I replied politely and took a seat next to Brian.

“Are you ok? You don't look well.” Brian asked munching on his toast. I wish he knew what I was going through.

“Just lack of sleep.” I said shrugging and they both nodded. It was quiet for a while and was starting to get slightly uncomfortable. “Any word from Rebecca?” I asked trying to be casual.

“She calls. She is fine.” Amanda said reassuringly clearly seeing me tensed. Thank God, she is fine but where is she?

“That’s good. Where is she?” I asked desperately. I have been asking this question for the past six days and they still haven’t given an answer to me.

Brian cleared his throat. “She asked us not to tell anyone. We promised her. Look, we don’t mind you coming here whenever you like but you need to calm down. I am sure if you give her some time to miss you she might talk to you. You know, she can’t stay mad at anyone for long.” He said somewhat synthetically.

“I don’t know what she is mad about. We spent some time together in the morning and she was going to come in the evening but she never came. I don’t know what happened; I just want her to talk to me. It’s been almost a week.” I said looking at the floor. “Do you know what happened?” I asked hopefully.

It is possible that they can shed some light on her leaving like this all of sudden and going God knows where. “Rebecca refused to tell us anything. We asked more than once.” Amanda replied.

I sighed and ran a hand through my hair roughly. “Please will you guys tell her to talk to me just once? I am gonna go crazy figuring it out.” I said.

“I will talk to her. You take care, you look awful.” Brian said apologetically. I felt little relieved about him talking to Rebecca she always listens to her dad.

“Thank you.” I said honestly and left. I left the house and stood near the car. An idea popped into my head and I ran to side to climb up into Rebecca’s room. I pushed her window open and stepped inside making minimum noise.

The room looked relatively empty. Her books, her clothes nothing was around anymore. I sat on the bed and picked up the frame on her nightstand. It was one of our photos when we went shopping few weeks back and there was some contest going on. I looked at her smiling face; I had my arms wrapped around her small frame from behind.

I got up and looked around the room; she must have left something behind that can give me an idea of the place she went to. There was nothing which could give me any clue. I opened the last drawer and a searched in it when I saw some kind of a book. I picked it up and opened it. It was her birthday gift from Will. Will, exactly, I can bet my life on it, that he knows where she is, I will have to go talk to him but what if he doesn’t know? It’s worth a shot; they shared a good bond if anyone other than her parents knows it’s got to be him.

I kept the book back and went near the window to get out. I didn’t feel like leaving, this place had Rebecca written all over it, it even smelled like her soothing and comforting. I reluctantly climbed out of the window, started my car and went straight over to Will’s. I will even beg if that what it takes, I am ready to do anything for this information. Even if I have to get on my knees and beg for it, I won’t let her slip away like this.

After what felt like hours I finally reached Will’s place. I got out of the car and quickly got to the door knocking once. Will opened the door within few seconds, he looked shocked and confused seeing me standing in front of him “Hi, I need to talk to you.” I said breaking the silence.

“Ok come on in.” He said waving me inside. We walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. “You want anything to eat or drink.” He asked.

I shook my head and he sat down. Just ask nothing is going to happen. “I will come straight to the point.” I said and he nodded. “Look I need to know where Rebecca is and I know she must have told you. I want to know where she is, I am going crazy.” I admitted.

“Ok, but I can’t help you, I am sorry.” He said sternly. Crap, now what? By his tone I can tell that he knows everything about what’s going on but doesn’t want me to know.

“Please, I am desperate. It’s been six days and I am missing her a lot, it’s been horrible. I am not able to do anything else or even think about anything else. You’ve got to tell me man.” I said literally begging him to tell me.

He was quiet for some time. “I can’t, I promised her I won’t tell anyone especially you. So, let it go, its better off this way.” He said softly.

I shook my head furiously. “This is clearly not better, it’s for the worse. I don’t even know why she left all of sudden? What am I supposed to do?” I asked defeated.

“You don’t know why?” he asked shocked. I shook my head. “You kissed another girl that’s what happened and she saw you. That day in the evening when she came to your place, you had your hands on a girl. How do you think she felt? After the summer you guys had, she felt like just another number to you. You are such a jerk Noah seriously.” He said angrily.

Another number? She saw me with Zoë but I didn’t see her, was she even there? Zoë is just a friend it meant nothing. “It was not some girl it was Zoë, she is my childhood friend. That was a friendly kiss in fact it was just a peck, it didn’t mean anything. She is just a friend.” I explained.

“But she is another girl. I don’t think that’s very appropriate, what if you guys had something in the past which can happen again…” he said.

I cut him off before he could finish his sentence. “She is gay. She has fiancé and they are getting married in November.” I said. I promised Zoë I won’t tell anyone, she is not ashamed but her parents haven’t talk to her since they found out, it’s been difficult for her.

“Oh, but still I am not going to tell you. You keep hurting her, making her cry. I think it’s best if you stay away from her. She won’t be able to take anymore heartbreak.” He said.

“What are you talking about? When did I hurt her?” I asked crossing my arms on my chest looking at him curiously. Even Rebecca has said that before about me hurting her, I don’t know what I did.

“Come on, you got to be kidding me. Are you seriously that blind? Can’t you see anything?” he asked. I looked at him with wide eyes but he continued. “She is in love with you Noah; she has been for a long time now. Everyone can tell just by the way she looks at you and behaves around you. She is crazy about you, completely head over heels for you.” He said.

I couldn’t believe what I had just heard. She loves me; she is crazy about me really? I was so happy I could burst. She loves me; I have never felt so happy before. I took this all in and happiness was bubbling inside me. “Since when? I never knew.” I said to Will who was looking at me like I had lost my mind.

Will then told me everything from the beginning. How she realized, how she was going to tell me the same time I introduced her to Cassie everything. I realized what a jerk I had been to her, how come I never saw what others did? I must thank Will for being there with her when I wasn’t. I broke her heart even if unknowingly but I did. I have to fix this. “If someone like her would have felt even the half of what Rebecca does for you, for me I would have never let her go.” Will concluded.

“You are right. I can’t let her go, she is perfect. I love her.” I blurted out. Will look at me confused. “I realized over the summer how I have always felt for her. I am in love with her, I love her a lot, and she is everything to me.” I said.

His hard and angry expressions softened and a sly smile spread across his face. He looked both happy and relieved by my answer. “Will you help me? Please just tell me where she is?” I begged.

Will nodded eagerly. “Off course now I will help. Give me two minutes.” He said and ran up the stairs; he must be going to his room.

I was excited, nervous; scared almost all emotions were flowing through me. I will get to see her soon, hold her, and kiss her. This time when I take her into my arms I am never letting go of her again. I don’t deserve her but she loves me, she finds me that worthy and this is good enough for me. I wonder how far away she is. Will came down interrupting my thoughts.

“Here, this is her address. I told her I have a surprise for you so I need your address to send it you. Luckily, she bought it.” Will said smiling handing me a small piece of paper.

I took it gratefully and opened it. New York? Obviously, why didn’t I think of it? I am such a dumbass at times. “Thank you. Thanks, I owe you one.” I said honestly.

“Go get her.” He said smiling. I got up and gave him a man hug. What would have I done without his help? He walked me out to the door.

I turned around “Thanks.” I said again and left. I was driving so fast, I will just pick up a few things from home and try to get the next flight out.

I reached home and ran right up to my room. I grabbed a duffel bag and stuffed it with the first clothes I saw, a toothbrush and my passport. I called for a cab which arrived within ten minutes. I couldn’t sit still in the seat. I reached the airport and thankfully, managed to get a ticket to the flight which left in 40 minutes. The flight felt like I had been flying for days. I was bouncing in my seat like a five year old kid on a Christmas morning. What should I say to her?

The whole to her apartment I couldn’t contain my excitement of seeing her. I don’t know what I am going to say or do? I don’t know what to say in such situations because I have never been in one before. I hope she is not too mad about the whole Zoë thing, when I explain I am sure she will be fine. I don’t think she will be upset to see me, if I know her at all she is as miserable without me as I am without her. I am the luckiest guy in the world to have Rebecca love him. I am going to make her happy as long as she lets me probably forever.

The cab came to a halt and I got down. I reached her apartment and knocked on the door again and again but no one answered. I leaned against the wall and dropped my bag on the floor. She must be out or she doesn’t want to see me. I pushed those thoughts aside, she won’t do that to me, she definitely is not home. I don’t have more patience, I am dying to see her but I don’t have a choice better than waiting here for her. I heard a familiar laughter on the stairways, the sound was nearing me.  God, I am so nervous, my palms are sweating. The voices came closer, I straightened and everything around me came to a halt. Her brown eyes met mine and my heart skipped a beat.

Rebecca’s POV

God, I am so bugged. Grocery shopping is a good time pass but not when you have to decide and buy. I shouldn’t have come today. It could definitely wait for one more day but no I had to do it today. I would be home right now in my sweats lying around the apartment; I should’ve ordered a pizza or something. After a long queue I finally reached the counter and paid for all the stuff I bought. I picked up lots of crisps, biscuits, cookies and all, I don’t want to cook for myself every single day, and it’s so boring.

I took a cab to go back to my place because I had a lot of stuff. I got out of the cab and was removing my shopping bags when a guy two or three years older than me helped me with them. “Thanks.” I said politely and smiled.

“I am Seth. You new here? I have never seen you before.” He said walking along side me casually carrying two of my bags.

“Yeah, just moved here. I am Rebecca by the way.” I said. He walked with me telling me about him. He was in college, lived in the apartment above me and had two roommates. He seemed nice and funny too.

I laughed at the story he was telling me. I turned around the corner and my breath caught in my throat, my heart was crashing in my chest trying to break out. Noah was standing in front of me next to my apartment door; his eyes met mine and got lost into them. He was looking at me with an unreadable expression; he was happy but looked nervous.

Seth cleared his throat making me look away from those beautiful blue eyes. “I will see you later ok?” I said not taking my eyes of Noah and he nodded and walked away placing the bags next to me.

“Hi.” I said nervously. I bent down and picked up all the bags taking my time to calm myself. Is he really here? I can’t believe this; he came all the way for me?

“Hi. Here let me help you.” He said taking all the bags out of my hands. His fingers brushed mine and tingles spread through my body. Yup, definitely not dreaming.

I opened the door; he dumped it all in the kitchen and stood in front of me. “How did you find me?” I asked softly.

“That’s not important. Did you leave because you saw me with a girl?” He asked sternly. I nodded slightly unsure. “It meant nothing.” He said and pulled me to the couch along with him.

He told me everything that happened that evening. Why Zoë was there, who was she, everything. How was I supposed to know this? “I missed you like crazy.” He said and pulled me to him tightly.

I wrapped my arms around him tightly probably choking him but he didn’t complain. I have no idea how long we sat there but when I pulled away I could see the sincerity of his words by his expressions. He looked so amazing, I loved staring into his eyes which always held an amount of intensity; I could look into at him forever and never get tired of it. He looked like he was struggling to find the right words to say something. I waited patiently for him to break the silence first.

“Rebecca, I love you. I have no idea when it happened but I am crazy about you. I am so in love with you it’s unreal.” He said smiling at me.

I was staring at him in shock. My eyes went wide, my mouth slightly open. He loves me? Oh my God, really? My eyes started to fill with tears. Is this true? Can someone so perfect actually love me? When I didn’t say anything, he cupped my face in his hands gently as if I was going to break. “I love you.” He said again.

That did it. Tears rolled down my cheeks, I am so happy that I feel like doing a happy dance in the middle of the room. “I love you too Noah. Have for a long time now.” I said honestly and he smiled at me happily grinning from ear to ear.

“I am so sorry for hurting you, it won’t ever happen again. I promise.” He said softly. He kissed my tears away and kissed my forehead.

I didn’t know what to say. I have dreamt of him saying this to me 100 times in my dreams but when he actually said it that seemed nothing. I am on the seventh cloud right now, I am so happy; I think I am going to burst. I stared at him in awe, speechless, I love him so much; he means everything to me and always will. Now I trust him enough to not to break my heart ever again.

“I have never felt like this about anyone before. I will always love you, only you.” He said and kissed my lips ever so softly that it made me dizzy.

“I love you. You mean everything to me.” I said. He smiled at me happily making my heart melt. Every time I said it, it became more and easier to do so.

He kissed me softly yet passionately. He licked my bottom lip asking for entrance and I gladly opened it for him. He deepened the kiss and laid me down on my back on the couch and he rolled on top of me. I tangled my hands in his hair and pulled him closer to me, he moaned at the back of his throat. Every touch, every kiss seemed so different now that I knew how he felt.

He pulled away, we both were panting. “Will you be my girlfriend? Be mine.” He asked breathlessly, his voice husky with love and lust.

I smiled. I wanted this since the day I realized I loved him. I can’t believe I will be his girlfriend; I don’t want anything else now. “Yes.” I said and he smiled at me. He crashed his lips to mine. All my dreams came true; I finally found my prince charming. He loves me and I have never felt so happy in my entire life. I will never forget this day no matter what.

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