NINETEEN

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WHEN JIMIN CAME back home it was already late night, he isn't sure what time exactly but he knows that when he entered the place, everyone was already in their rooms.

Arriving upstairs, he spots his cat, waiting for him in front of his room. Even though his door is slightly open for her to enter and leave whenever she wants to, she still waited for him in front of his door.

With a soft pat on her head, he greets Cali, quietly entering his room.

He takes off the vest he's been wearing the whole day before throwing it onto his bed. Just when he's about to lie down himself, he notices his cat meowing in front of the door leading to the balcony.

„What is it Calico?" He asks slightly annoyed because he just wants to sleep. But it's his cat and he can't resist her wish to open the door so that she can go out to the balcony.

Not wanting to leave the door open the whole night, he follows her out to see what she wanted to do or maybe saw.

But it's completely dark outside only the lights from the moon and the lamps that are placed across the garden beneath Jimin's balcony, are shining and lightening up the place.

„Come here Cali, let's get-" Jimin interrupts himself as he watches Calico entering the room next to Jimin's through the open door.

„No Cali don't go there!" He says quietly, because the lights in Yoongi's room are already off and the elder is probably already sleeping.

Carefully he follows his cat inside to get her back to his own room, but she has already found a spot on Yoongi's bed to sleep, making Jimin roll his eyes out of frustration.

„You already replaced me that fast." Jimin whispers to himself, before his eyes find their way to the sleeping man on the bed. Jimin slowly approaches Yoongi, wanting to see if he's really asleep, just to make sure he won't get scolded for entering his room without permission.

Leaning towards Yoongi, he notices that his eyes are shut, but instead of a peaceful sleep, Yoongi seems to be having some sort of nightmare. His forehead is sweaty, his breath is unsteady and loud and a frown is on his face.

Jimin bites his lower lip, thinking that he maybe should wake him up, so that the nightmare would stop but then again he would be caught.

Something is stopping him from leaving for a short moment, something about Yoongi is holding him back. Jimin feels the urge to help him and be there for him and he doesn't even know why. Maybe because he pities him for having a nightmare, Jimin had them in the past almost every night.

Slowly his hand travels towards Yoongi's face, his fingers have the urge to touch the porcelain like skin, just for a second - but he stops. What am I doing here?

With that he frees himself from the short trance he has fallen into, now finally turning around to leave and go back to his room.

Suddenly something is holding him back, something different - more over someone.

It's a hand, holding his shirt as if his life depends on it.

Jimin's heart skips a beat, he stops breathing for a second and he doesn't dare to move or turn around to the male in the bed.

„P-please.." Yoongi's deep and shaking voice breaks the silence, „Don't leave..me.. stay."

It sounds as if he's still trapped in his nightmare, because Yoongi himself would never say that to Jimin and the younger knows that.

But he doesn't feel like he's in the position to argue, to reject him and leave him - not when Yoongi begged him like that.

And even though he knows, that Yoongi and he himself will regret this the next morning, he still finds himself sitting down on the bed, his back facing Yoongi while the elder is still holding onto his shirt.

Jimin stays like this for a short while, hoping that Yoongi may let go of him so that he can still leave after all. But instead of letting go, Yoongi places his arm around Jimin's waist, pulling him closer to himself and with that forcing him to lie down as well.

The younger freaks out on the inside, his heart is beating fast and his whole body feels like it's on fire, as Yoongi's strong arms hug him from behind, pressing him against his chest, while his face is placed on the back of Jimin's neck.

Now it's Jimin who's breathing fast and unsteady, his heart racing in his chest as if it's about to jump out any second.

Yoongi however seems to calm down, his breath is slow and quiet, the grip around Jimin now soft and gentle. It's still freaking the younger out, lying in Yoongi's arms in his bed. It's wrong, hell it's so fucking wrong. But he can't leave now. He doesn't dare to make the smallest move.

And somehow - he doesn't even want to.

It feels good, the closeness, the warmth. He hasn't felt that for a while.

No one has hugged him like this for a long time now. He hasn't felt that closeness and comfort from anyone ever since his parents left. And even when they were still alive, their lives were filled with fear, worry and anything but comfort, warmth, happiness.  His mother hadn't hugged him for a while, and there was no one else to do it for him.

It made him realize, how lonely he has been. His whole life.

It's sad actually. Being this lonely, having no one to hug you and comfort you. To tell you it will be alright, that you don't always have to be tough and strong, that it's okay to feel sad and weak sometimes.

Life is not easy, it has never been easy for Jimin. And because of that he tried his best to be strong and tough and never let something get to him.

But it's hard, it's challenging. And he's just a human even with his supernatural power. He's still a human with needs and worries, with weaknesses and fears, just a human who needs someone to comfort him, to be there for him, to hug him and give him the affection he needs. He's just human.

It's the tears in Jimin's eyes that make his vision get blurry and it's a relieved breath coming out of his mouth as he closes his eyes, a single tear rolling down his face while he places his arm on top of Yoongi's, hoping that a peaceful sleep will take over him soon.

⟭⟬

Jimin knew he would regret it the next day, he knew it was a mistake even though it felt good, being held in his arms, receiving the affection and comfort he was seeking for secretly. But now, waking up next to his partner felt more than just wrong. It felt strange and now looking into Yoongi's confused and shocked eyes, isn't making it any easier for him.

Jimin really hoped waking up before the elder did, so that he could walk out without being noticed, but sadly they woke up at the same time.

"What the-" Yoongi starts while sitting up in his bed, Jimin doing the same.

"Don't look at me like that." Jimin hisses, yawing and stretching himself, playing it off cooly. On the inside, he's freaking out as well, feeling more than just embarrassed and uncomfortable. But of course he can't let it show, he needs to play it off.

"How should I look at you when you're lying in my bed?" Yoongi asks rhetorically standing up from his bed, once again Jimin coping his action.

"Well you wanted me to stay last night, so don't blame it on me! I tried leaving-"

"Ah stop it, I don't wanna hear it. Just get out for God's sake." The elder interrupts him, making Jimin roll his eyes in result.

"Through the balcony." Yoongi demands, making the younger take a halt, turn around and head to the balcony. Spotting his cat lying on the end of the bed, Jimin grabs her with one arm to take her with him. Before leaving the room he faces Yoongi again, showing him his middle finger, "This time I'm taking my cat with me."

Yoongi snorts while shaking his head, the sudden urge to smile taking over him. The younger male being out of his sight, Yoongi's face breaks out into a smile for a second. Just shortly because hell, why was Jimin in his room?

He was too embarrassed to ask Jimin properly or to even talk about it at all. Because when he woke up, his face hidden in the back of Jimin's neck, he couldn't think of anything else but Jimin's special scent, that took over him the same second he smelled it. It's dangerous, really dangerous getting too close to him.

The smile on his lips fades, he shouldn't play with fire - he might burn himself.

⟭⟬

"Why am I here?" Jimin asks while crossing his arms and looking away. It's hard to keep up his tough facade when 6 pairs of eyes are watching you.

"Because we want to talk to you, Jimin." Namjoon responds with a calm voice, trying to look into Jimin's silver eyes but the younger keeps avoiding his stares.

"Why?" The black haired male says finally looking into the Commander's dark eyes while the others are remaining quiet.

Jimin went to the department to work out by himself, because he didn't want to train with Jungkook.

It's midday as they gathered into one of the meeting rooms after Namjoon called for them. Jimin doesn't get the point, because it's not like they gathered as a team, it's them and Jimin. And Jimin isn't sure but he thinks it will always be them against Jimin.

"It's about yesterday." The Commander says, making Jimin immediately go into a self defending mode.

"I was being hard to you, I know." Namjoon continues, "But it was so dangerous. It scared me - us, that something could have happened to you. We don't want to lose you this early now that we've finally gotten you."

"You finally got me? Am I a fucking trophy or what?" The black haired male interrupts, raising his voice while taking a step closer to Namjoon, "You've got nothing. You don't fucking own me. There are literally two people in this room that are truly getting along with me - we are not a team-"

"I know, Jimin- it's still early, we have a lot ahead of us. But we want you to be part of our team- we really want to make this work out." Commander Kim responds taking a step closer to the shorter male before placing his hand on Jimin's shoulder, "We don't own you, but you belong to us. You belong to Bulletproof. But both sides need some time."

Jimin's face is covered in an angry expression, he's clenching his jaw, thinking about Namjoon's words repeating in his head over and over again. Fuck, he wants to belong to something - to someone. He really wants to. It's all he wishes for. So it's even more frustrating when he feels rejected by his team members, being scolded for helping his partner - saving him. All he got for that was being scolded in front of the whole team.

"We can work this out, I'm sure Jimin. We have to meet in the middle. Work with each other, taking compromises and so on." The elder continues, slowly causing Jimin to calm down a little bit.

"So let's talk about it. Talk about what we can do or change, what you want from us, we will tell you how we work as a team, anything you want to know."

Jimin lets his body fall onto the chair right behind of him, the others also taking a seat to finally speak about how they should continue as a team.

"Okay, let's talk about it." Jimin says leaning back on his chair intertwining his fingers, "But to make one thing clear: I would do it again. Always."

Jimin's silver eyes meet black ones, his eyes, "I would take a bullet for my partner - it's all or nothing."

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