Too Strong: Chapter 24
Too Strong: Hayes Brothers Book 4
THIS SHOULDNâT BE SO NERVE-RACKING. Iâm an adult. Telling my father Iâm falling in love with an amazing man shouldnât be scary.
Iâve never dated anyone as long as Iâve been dating Conor, and the guys I did spend time with werenât worth mentioning to my dad. They were never serious. Stupid flings. Mostly physical.
Things are different with Conor.
Scarily different, considering weâve only known each other two months, and Iâm already so attached. The thought of losing him has every cell in my body on high-alert mode.
âCan we talk?â I ask, settling onto the couch.
Dad looks away from the TV, his eyes briefly scanning my face before he grabs the remote. I guess he senses this will be serious, or he wouldnât switch off the game.
He sets his beer aside and straightens in the armchair, giving me his full attention.
âI think itâs time you met my boyfriend.â
A small nod is all the encouragement I get, but before I say more, Rebecca enters with Rose trailing close behind.
âShould we go for a walk?â Dad asks, subtly glancing at his wife like heâs asking if I mind her listening.
âNo, we can stay.â
âWhatâs going on?â Rebecca comes closer, draping her jacket over the back of the couch. âIs everything okay? You look pale, Vivienne.â
âEverythingâs fine. Can you sit?â
Her eyebrows bunch in the middle, but she plops down on the armrest, and Rose settles in beside me.
âSo? Do we get to finally find out who this guy is?â
âYes. Iâd like you to meet him, butâ¦â I force out a loud breath. âIâm afraid youâll make him feel unwelcome, and I canât have that. His familyâs been nothing but kind to me since the start, and itâs not fair that he wonât get the same treatment from you.â
Dad sits higher in his chair. âWhy would we make him feel unwelcome, Vivienne?â
I bite my cheek, squirming like a child outside the principalâs office. âBecause you donât like his father.â
A deafening silence falls around us, and the tensionâs building so high my insides start knotting, and I think I understand why Mia pukes when sheâs nervous. If is how intense her nerves feel, Iâm surprised she doesnât puke more often because Iâm not far off bolting to the toilet right now.
âIâm dating Conor Hayes,â I add quietly, making sure weâre on the same page.
A small, horrified sound escapes Rebeccaâs lips. Her face whitening, marble eyes expressionless for a second before something I wouldâve never expected takes over and my dadâs complexion blanches.
Okay, not the reaction I imagined. They lookâ¦
.
âHayes?â Dad echoes, the word like something rotten stuck to his tongue. âYouâre dating a ?!â
âDad, I donât know why you hate their father so much, but Conorâs his dad. Heâs great. Heâs caring and kind, and⦠Iâm in love with him.â
Dad jumps to his feet, pacing, almost tearing his hair out of his scalp. This isnât how I thought this conversation would go.
I knew heâd be mad, sure, but not like this. I thought heâd yell or tell me the lies heâs fed himself for years, but this⦠He almost looks in pain. Like I stabbed him in the stomach and twisted the knife.
âYou canât date him,â he spits out, grinding his teeth. âYou have to break up.â
âWhat? Dad, youâre overreacting. You know nothingââ
âNow!â he booms, balling his hands into fists. âTake your phone and tell him youâre done.â He shoves the phone in my hand. âBreak it off.â
âIâm not doing that.â I jump to my feet, my head reeling.
I knew he wouldnât be pleased, but this goes beyond any reaction I imagined. My heart rams against my ribs. The mere idea of losing Conor grips my throat. Not in the pleasant, arousing way he does. This feels like cold, wet, dead hands forcing the air from my lungs.
âIâm an adult, Dad. You wonât choose who I date! Why do you hate them so much? What did Robert do to you?â
He opens his mouth, but Rebecca shoots out of her seat, shaking her head, eyes brimming with tears, lips pinched together. Sheâs fighting her tears, but a distressed wail like a wounded animal breaks free, chilling me to the bone.
âDonât,â she pleads, grabbing Dadâs hand. âRemember what you said. Remember what you promised. Please⦠we canât.â
Now Iâm even more confused.
âFuck!â Dad snaps, grappling his hair with both hands, eyes fixed on the ceiling. âThis isnât fucking happeningâ¦â
I trade a loaded, confused look with Rose. I canât think of a single reason Dad hates the Hayes so much. Whatever his problem with Robert, it shouldnât bleed onto the rest of them. He never even met Conor. I doubt he met any of the brothers.
âIâ¦â I start, taking a hasty step back. âIâll let you calm down.â
âYouâre going back to him,â Dad snaps, stomping closer. The pained anger in his eyes takes me aback. âYou have to break up. You date him, Vivienne.â
I canât remember the last time he used my full name. Iâve been or his for years.
sliding off his tongue sounds like an insult.
âWhile you live under my roofââ
I tune him out, my stomach lurching with the oncoming tears. Thatâs the last straw. A slap to the cheek.
Big fat for everything Iâve done and how good Iâve been all these years.
Dad never had any problems with me. No partying, getting drunk, or experimenting with drugs. No sneaking out in the middle of the night. No arguments or teenage rebellion.
Iâve been good. I helped, kept my head down, handed over most of my hard-earned money, and took care of Rose for years. I cooked, cleaned, and helped as much as possible since I was .
I donât blame Dad for never having much time for us, Iâm not sad about my childhood, and I donât consider it traumatic, but fuckâ¦
This is what I get for being so fucking good? For putting Rose first? For bailing on my education?
No questions, no explanation, just ?
No.
Dad took it too far this time. Telling me not to stay out late or bring boys over is one thing, but saying I canât date the man I love is entirely different.
He doesnât have that kind of power over me.
No one does.
âOkay,â I whisper, my voice cracking, tears escaping my eyes as I back away. âOkay, Iâll move out.â
âNo you wonât! Youâll stay right here.â Dad leaps forward to grab me, but I jump away, signaling with my hand I donât want him any closer. âVeeâ¦â he sighs, his shoulders sag, eyes pleading. âYou canât be with Conor, Angel. Iâm sorry, I really am. Youâve been so happy the past few weeks, but⦠itâs wrong, baby girl. So wrong.â
âWhy? Why is it wrong? I donât care what your problem with Robert is. I donât care what he did to you. Conor isnât him. You canât punish us for whatever happened years ago!â
âIâm not the one punishing you two,â Dad says, glancing at Rebecca.
I donât know if heâs looking for support or checking something, but whatever he needs, he doesnât get. She silently shakes her head, the gesture almost desperate.
âShe has to know, Becca,â Dad says. âShe has the right to know! Itâs gone too fucking far, donât you think?! Theyâve been together for weeks!â
âWhose fault is that?!â she snaps, storming into him and poking his chest with her finger. âWhat kind of father doesnât know who his daughter is dating?! You know about her or Rose. Youâre always working or watching TV!â
âEnough!â Rose yells, her voice sounding alien, high pitched, desperate, close to tears. She never could handle their arguments. âWhy canât she date him? You canât break them up because you donât like his father. Conorâs great! They all are.â
Rebecca turns ghostly white, her chin quivering, pure horror veiling her face as she turns to look at Rose. âYou know them? You spent time with them?!â
âAh, looks like Iâm not the only one who doesnât know what our daughters are getting up to,â Dad mocks, folding his arms. âNone of this wouldâve happened if they knew the truth, Becca.â
âNo! Youâll regret it, Derek. Donât tell them!â
âWhat else do you want me to do?! Cuff Vivienne to the fucking trailer? Sheâll pack her bags, and sheâll go to Conor! Itâs time, Becca. You knew it would come out one day. That day is today, whether you like it or not!â
âNo⦠please, donât tell them,â she begs. âIf you love meââ
âDonât tell us ?â Rose cuts in, a little ball of rage. âWhat the hell are you hiding? Tell us whatâs happening! Whatever your problem with the Hayes is, itâs problem, Dad.â
âThis is so much bigger than you can imagine,â Rebecca says, her voice hitching as she looks at me, eyes beseeching. âConorâs not the boy for you, Vivienne. Iâm sorry. I really am, but you need to break up with him.â
I shake my head, my mind made. âI love you both, but this is my life.
choices. I wonât break up with him.â I spin on my heel, marching toward my room to pack a bag and stay with Abby until I figure out my next move, but Dad stops me.
âYou canât be with him,â he says, his voice defeated. He sounds like heâs about to cry, too, and I freeze in my tracks, never before having heard that desperate note in his voice.
âWhy not, Dad? Give me good reason.â
My heart cleaves in two when I see the defeat clouding his face, and then it turns to ash when he opens his mouth.
âHeâs your family,â he whispers.
Heâs not lying. I can tell it costs him everything to speak as he inhales a deep breath, his shoulders collapsing.
âHeâs your brother, Angel.â
âMy brother? Howâs thatâNo.â I shake my head, my eyes popping, legs like goo. âNo. No way. Thatâs not possible. Heâs not my brother. Youâre lying!â
âYou think Iâd lie about something like this?â
Shaking all over, my mind disconnects. The intersection gets choked. So many thoughts careering from all sides, slamming into each other, creating miles upon miles of wreckage. And in the heart of it all, booms like a church bell.
I canât focus on a single thought.
I canât find a link or any rational explanation. Every time I grasp something that makes sense, it eludes me. Erupts in a puff of smoke, leaving more question marks behind.
IâIâ¦
I canât think.
I canât speak.
I canât fucking hear anything other than the cacophony of horns inside my head, but I am moving.
My legs carry me, my surroundings nothing but a blur while my mindâs in riot mode, too many neurons firing at onceâ¦