chapter 38

It was very difficult to act okay when you were not okay. It was also very difficult to hurt the person you love, knowingly. Hurting him was same as hurting myself, but there was no other way for me to make him hate me. I knew that he would hate me but I couldn't let him hate himself in the guilt of consequences. After listening that I want to had a breakup he teared up and his voice started to tremble. He said "hey, don't joke like this. Oh.... I understand you are playing prank with me! Where are cameras? Come out guys this is not funny". His behaviour was like a child whose mother left him. It was also hurting me  but I was bound to do this, so I said "it's not a prank, don't be a coward accept reality. It's true, I want a breakup". I didn't able to say anything more because my tears were about to fall, so I said "ok, I'm done. Now I'm leaving". Saying this I was just about to leave  his tone became deep and he grabbed my hand and said "what's my fault, why are you doing this to me?". I made myself hard for that time and I said "do you really need a reason for breakup?". I laughed sarcastically and said "really, don't you know the reason? The reason is you. Think it yourself... it's because I'm bored of you" . He said "didn't I tell you this from the beginning?" . I said "yes, but I didn't know that you are that incapable, it's my fault but I'm sorry I don't want it anymore". He said "No, please don't leave me.  I will try to meet your all expectations".  It was hurting deep into my heart but I can't get weak at this point, I said "no need, you have already done what you can. Now I got someone else and I'm going to marry him in two months, he is rich, handsome and loves me very much. Then just  tell me why should I need someone like you". This was the last card I have, after this I had nothing to say, so I tried to left he became angry and mad. I knew he would become like that so before our meeting I already called his bestfriend, and at that time he reached there. But Aditya shouted at me, stopped me and said "you can't do this me, please don't do this...i love you". I said "please don't act like a victim, we have a great time together,  now I'm bored of you". He got totally mad he about to hurt me physically but his friend stopped him and I ran away from that place. After this my tears didn't stopped for a second I felt like my life was over, I didn't eat and sleep for few days. At that time my sister supported me and said "don't be like this, you have done all this in your own wish but now you are not caring for them for whom you have done all this". In my family those days became like a hell. My parents didn't talked to me, whenever my mom talked to me only  insisted to have a abortion or taunted herself . But it's not her fault It's her fear of society, it's true that no one would support an unmarried mother. So to save my family reputation I decided to leave home. And on last day of my leaving I said sorry to my mom and dad, my mom forgot everything for a minute and hugged me and cried, I said "don't worry, I will be fine". But my dad didn't wanted to see me, I went to him and said sorry and thanks for everything and I begged for his forgiveness. But he didn't said anything, after that I left my hometown and went to the Sudha. At that time Sudha  supported me, she was my childhood school friend and all time bestfriend. My sister and mother requested her to take care of me, but due to my father they rarely called me. First of all I had to do something for my living so with Sudha I started a food van and  luckily I yearned money very good and I got a helper. After birth of my kids I got more people for help and Sudha also there to manage. Our business was very good so in two years we started to extend our business. When my kids became 2years old I decided to study and completed teacher course.In next two years, we made a restaurant and settled down. We  bought our own house and own cars, and when we got more people to work, Sudha stopped me to work and I only took care of my kids. When my kids started to going school I also joined the same school as a teacher. After that day of breakup Aditya called me many times but I didn't answered him. After leaving my home town I changed my numbers and now my contact list only contains 3 contact number of my own people they were Sudha, my mom and my sister. My sister got married but I was banned to attend that and I never gone back. I used to watch Aditya on Facebook, I felt relieved to know he was doing great. But I didn't knew that he would came to my city and we would meet again like this. But I was happy to see him again.  I didn't want to have anything with him. But for my kids should I tell him..."that I'm an unmarried mother"!