chapter 36

Night was windy, it was the days of spring and I was waiting for Aditya infront of his working place. After 5minutes he came out when he saw me said "why are you here? Why didn't you attend party?". I smiled and said "why should attend that stupid party when my everything is here". He smiled and said "you are crazy". Then we had dinner at a place and then we start walking on a road by holding hands. I said "today's weather feels good". He said "ya it's good". He said "what do you want to ask! Ask me directly. Are feeling unwell?". I smiled and said "we are passing College this year, what next?". He stopped for a minute and said " I don't know, now I will got even busier to earn money, proposals are coming for my sister next year I will tried to get her married. After that I will do something constant job". I became sad listening his words, I said " Am I not involved in your plan?". Listening my words he stopped and said "I don't mean like that, I love you so much but I can't take any responsibilities for you now, please understand me and give me atleast 2years". Two years! How can I wait, I had no time for that. Then I said "what if I'm pregnant?". He got shocked for a mint and then he smiled and said "hey don't joke around, it's a  bad joke". I understood that he didn't wanted any more responsibility for that time. I smiled and said "yes, it is a joke, look at your face ...you really got shocked". I was smiling on that moment but my heart was crying inside. He smiled and hold my face with his two hands and said " listen to me carefully, I'm not in a condition to take any responsibility for now, but I will fix everything in two years. If I can't provide a good life to you then I don't deserve you. you are very precious for me and I will take you when I'm that capable to protect you". His words were heart warming and I understood his feelings and hardships. After that night I decided to had abortion. So I went to my sister and I said "help me, I want to have a abortion". My sister listened everything and said "I think you must tell him first that will be the right decision". I said "no, I can't do that. If I said this to him he will be stressed and he will be guilty for this all-over his life. I can't left any weaknesses for the person I love". My sister understood me and next day we went to the hospital for abortion. I was scared and I felt something heavy on my heart. We filled every formalities and does the checkup. After that doctor said "congrats you have twins  in your stomach, you are really lucky that they both are  in good condition but slightly weak, just take proper care of yourself". Then my sister said "No, doctor we are here for abortion". Listening this doctor got mad and said "do you even know what are you talking! It's a gift from heaven that you got. Do you even know how many women are dying to have a baby". Then she stared at me and said "don't tell me you are unmarried and pregnant". My sister and I got shocked and then my sister said "n...o..no, it's not like that". Then doctor said "if it's not like that then got baby's father here". After this my sister didn't able to manage for abortion, so she tried other ways,  that time I thought about it and finally I said "Di, let's go". She said "why....what happened?". She looked at me in a surprised eyes. I said" I don't want to have abortion". After saying that I left the hospital. In my mind I had decided to gave birth to my child. My life journey was started from that hospital.