chapter 20

He was so close so I tried to push him away, but he grabbed me so hardly that I was unable to move. I said "what are you doing ! Leave me... Are you crazy?". He said "I was crazy but now I came back to my senses". What was he saying, I didn't understand at all. I said "let me go first, you are hurting me". He grabbed my shoulder with so much pressure that it was really painful. Suddenly he realises something and released me. Then I said "what's wrong with you?". He just stands quietly for a while because he was thinking about something. Then he said "nothing is wrong, now anything will never be wrong". I was confused and not able to understood a single word so I decided to leave that place, when I turned to open my car door, he said "I was guilty when I listened that your husband was dead, even your kids didn't have a chance to meet him". I didn't know what to say, I was stunned he continued "I was here to talk to you, as a friend I wanted to know what hardships you were gone through these 6years when you had  no one in your side". I never looked back , he was standing at my back but I didn't wanted to show my tears. I didn't know why I had tears in my eyes! Is it because someone wants to know about my hardships or he wants to know about my hardships! I was just listening to him then he continued"but now I am not guilty" . This time his voice changes its like he again started mocking me. He said " I think you are enjoying your life, you are having a good life  even you are dating someone". I got tired from his insults and wipe my tears and turned back and looked into his eyes straight. I said "Thanks for worrying about me but as you can see now I'm doing great you don't have to mind me". He got angry by listening my words and said "Are you not going to explain this?". I knew that he suffered a lot those years for his feelings for me but now I felt that he changed. He only believes his brain not his heart and his words were like arrows that were piercing my body. I understood that his anger for me covering his eyes. So I made up my mind to stay strong. I said sarcastically"Explanation! What explanation?" Then I stopped for a second and said "oooo that... About my dating!". By saying this I looked into his eyes and I understood. Then I said "why should I explain this to you? ". This time I made up my mind to stay strong and let him get away from me. By listening these words he got furious. Again I said "I know we were in some kinds of relationship before, but now I don't think I need  to explain  you. My life has nothing to do with you, please mind your own business". He got furious at first then he became very sad and said "that's right why should you need to explain me!". He looked down and said "I'm sorry for interruption, I thought we can't go to the past but atleast we can be friends, but I didn't knew that everything is over between us". His words and eyes were full of sadness that makes me felt the same but I want him to let go of the past and live a peaceful life, but I was wrong... again he got furious and said  "but I can't cut the tie to you because something also not settled between us till now". I said "what!". He said" the pain that I suffered for whole 6years I'm going to return it all to you with interest". I didn't say anything to him because hatred for me in his heart would make him leave me. He said "I'm going to settled everything to you soon". Then I said "I'm also waiting for your settlement".