Little Things and Red Flags

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I have changed the cover and title of this story cause I felt it's not that cliché anymore. Hope you like it! XOXO

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We were all getting ready for the party in my room. The girls decided it's the best place to hangout since my mom is so chill so they all came to my place to get ready and wait for the boys to pick us up. We were almost done when I hurt the doorbell ring.

"I will get it." Mom shouted from downstairs and I got back to my phone. My make up and everything was done, I was just waiting for Ashley and Sofia to finish.

"Guys are here!" My mom announced and I gave Ashley a pointed look when Sofia was done.

"Yeah yeah calm your tits." She said and we laughed. As soon as she put her brush down we basically dragged her down and met the guys. Carter looked adorable in his black t-shirt, blue jacket and grey baggy pants. He somehow even got a red and white cap just like Ash wears. Everyone else did a pretty good job with their costumes; Joe looked like Oreo biscuit, Mark was wearing a very eighteenth century attire from the book, Noah was dressed in an Egyptian god costume, maybe Cleopatra's husband and Chris was a very handsome version of Vision. He got the face makeup right and he had a stone stuck to his forehead. It must have taken enormous time but judging by the way he was looking at Sofia, I am guessing it was totally worth it. We all booked the cab because we knew we are going to get drunk to a whole new level. When we entered the party venue, I saw many costumes and amazing dresses from absolutely drunk Jack Sparrow to shock head Albert Einstein and I could see all versions of Swift from her video 'Look what you made me do'. It was very impressive. We all scattered away and I went straight to bar with Carter. I gulped two shots consecutively and Carter stopped me with my third one. I looked at him in confusion and he chuckled.

"You would want to remember this tomorrow morning." He said.

"Remember what?"

"You will know." He said and guided me to the dance floor. They were playing Britney Spears, Till the world ends and I guess that was the perfect song for today. I really just wanted to let lose and enjoy as if the world is really gonna end. When we were done, I dragged Mark away from it and decided to drink water to not get a hangover next morning. I opened fridge and looked around while drinking it when I saw Mark getting up on an elevated surface and motioning someone to pass him something. Chris threw a mic at him and he caught it with ease.

"ATTENTION EVERYONE!" He said and everyone looked at him. I searched and met with my girls who were looking at him with surprise written all over their face.

"What is he doing?" I asked Emma but she had the same expression as ours.

"I have no idea!" She said.

"I am sorry honey but I couldn't remember BTS. You will have to make do with this." He said looking at Emma and sat down on a chair that Noah just put on the stage. Carter went up and handed him a guitar and winked at me.

Your hands fits in mine like it's made just for me

But bare this in mind, it was meant to be

And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks

And it all makes sense to me.

He started singing and playing guitar with the perfect notes. I had no idea Mark knew how to play guitar or he could sing this good in the first place. I saw Emma and she was covering her mouth with her hands obviously trying to accept that what was happening.

I know you've never loved

The crinkles by your eyes when you smile

You've never loved your stomach or your thighs

The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine

But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth

But if I do, it's you

Oh, it's you, they add up to

I'm in love with you

And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea

And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep

And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep

Though it makes no sense to me

I know you never loved the sound of your voice on tape

You never want to know how much you weight

You still have to squeeze into your jeans

But you're perfect to me

By now, everyone was perfectly silent and listening intently to him sing. Most of them were making videos and I was sure Emma and Mark are going to be The Couple for a few months at least. Mark started coming down from the stage, still playing the guitar. As he reached Emma, he bent on his knees and Carter, Noah, Joe and Chris started singing the remaining song in perfect harmony.

"Emma Miller, will you go on a date with me?" He asked and Emma looked at him with adoration and love.

"Mark Reed, I will go on a date with you." She said and he got up and hugged her. All four guys started singing in a loud volume and everyone else cheered. They went to dance floor and Carter went up to DJ and asked him to play some song. It started playing I like me better by Lauv. They made their way to the dance floor and started dancing to the tunes of the song. Carter jogged up beside me and I smirked at him.

"Nicely done." I said and he blushed.

"Yeah, we were planning this for a month now. Mark said it would take him time to manage school, learn guitar and be discreet about it so we had to do some really elaborate planning." He said and I chuckled.

"Worth it I guess." I said and motioned him to look at Emma and Mark. They were looking so beautiful together. Mark really did work on this because I taught him how to cook and ride a bike and he is a hardcore quitter. He hates trying out new stuff that needs practice. If he is not good at something in the first try, he just dumps it and start a new one. God knows how much I had to persuade him so he would learn riding a bike. He fell off multiple times and each time he had this big tantrum like a baby. I am pretty sure he wasn't good with guitar either so the motivation must have been quite compelling. I love how much Mark loves Emma and I could see that she is happy with him too. She likes him for who he is and she makes him more perspective to the world. I guess they really are a dream couple.

"Would you like to join them?" Carter asked me pointing towards them and I smiled and put my hand in his. He escorted me towards Mark and Emma and we started dancing slowly. I motioned my girls to join and they all came pretty quickly. Carter held my left hand in his right and placed his left on my waist. I held him by his shoulder and we danced slowly to the song. I don't even what it was but it was a slow one so it felt perfect. I let him guide me and I was impressed at how good he was. I didn't step on his feet once. Just as the song ended, the atmosphere went back to party on but Carter didn't let go of my wrist.

"Come with me." He said and dragged me away. I have no clue what got into him but I followed him anyway. He took us out of the house and upstairs. There was no one there which was surprising considering it was beautiful. They had a proper garden in there; hanging plants, wall plants and many flowers that I have never seen before. I smiled and looked around to see Carter down on his knees. Red flags started doing off in my head and I started panicking. If I think what he is doing, we are done. I already told him I don't want to date right now but I will be rejecting him twice if I said now and I can't keep relying that he will understand whatever I say. He looked at me with so many emotions, it was impossible for me to figure it out. He cleared his throat and I almost felt like I am going to die.

"Claire, I know you said that you didn't want to date but I can't help the way I feel about you. I feel happy and alive when I am with you. And I curse myself for not being able to confess how I feel about you. I don't want to waste time Liv. I want to stay with you for as long as I can. I am absolutely afraid of what you are going to say but I like you. I like you, a lot. And I have gathered up enough courage to ask you if you would like to go on a date with me?"

Shit! Shit! Shit! I should have stopped him as soon as he started but I am so stupid. I should have been with him. I should be his girlfriend but I am not sure if I want to. I am not sure if I am ready and I will curse myself for hurting him later. I can't do this.

"I can't do this." I said and ran downstairs. I was a huge coward but I couldn't see the look on his face. I hate seeing him sad and I hate myself for doing this to him. I booked a cab and luckily it was just a minute away. I gave the driver my address and sent a quick text to Emma congratulating her and letting her know that I left.

I went in my room and just stood there looking at no where in general. I didn't know what to do now. I fucked up my chances with Carter and I have no idea what I am going to do next. I know that Carter will never forgive me for what I did. I wouldn't have forgiven myself. I was so scared to look in his eyes, I just ran. I didn't even give him any explanation. What he must have been thinking about me is a path I don't want to take. My overthinking mind will go the ends of the worst case scenario and that will break me down. The feeling I had was different from when I broke up with Taylor. I felt light and relieved but right now it just feels like I made the worst possible choice of my life and I have to live with it now.

I just jumped on the bed and hugged a pillow to sleep.

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