STD and Hot Chocolate

Carter's POV

I was awake and I wanted to open my eyes but there was this huge throbbing pain in my head. I groaned and made a mental note to never drink neat again. Always dilute it. I opened my eyes but quickly shut them down when the light felt like a knife slicing through my brain. I shuffled and panicked when I felt someone wrapped in my arms. I pushed whoever it was and it fell with a loud thud. I heard her say 'ow' in a very familiar voice and my eyes widened in surprise. She quickly got up and looked at me in annoyance.

"What the hell Gray!?" She said. I did a mental happy dance when she called me Gray. I have no idea what I did last night but I think it turned out to be good. But the happiness quickly went away when her shrill voice gave me another headache. I groaned and I heard her chuckle. She walked towards her night stand and cleared her throat. I looked at her and she was offering me a tablet and a glass of water.

"Birth control pills?" I said to make her laugh and she did.

"They are taken before sex dumbass." She said and put the medicine in my hand. I liked it when her fingers made contact with my hand. I gulped the tablet with some water and flinched at the taste.

After I felt better, I sat in her bed.

"So we slept together?" I asked and she nodded and smirked. That can't be a good sign.

"But we didn't have sex?"

"Gross! No!" I sighed happily. As much as I wanted to be physical with her, I don't want our first time to be while either of us is drunk.

"Hey! Sex with me isn't gross. It's mind blowing."

"Yeah and STD transmitting." She said and I frowned.

"I am gonna ignore that comment considering you helped me with my headache. What happened last night?"

"You barged in and admitted the undying love you have for me." She said seriously and my eyes widened in panic. Oh I did not do that!

"WHAT? THAT'S ABSURD. I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU." I said loudly. She kept her fingers in her ears to block my loud exclamation.

"Geez! Relax drama queen. I will explain everything over breakfast. Get changed for the time being. That's my bathroom. I will bring you something comfortable to wear." She said pointing towards a door and walked out of the room. She didn't deny her initial claim and I was shit scared. A part of me was afraid that I would lose her forever as a friend and these past few weeks have been proof that that would be hell for me and the other part of me was afraid because if she did feel the same way, will she leave me like Beck did?

Olivia's POV

I went downstairs to the guest room to search for comfy clothes for Carter. I found some black shorts and huge t-shirt which, I am hoping, would be Carter's size. I went back to my room and knocked on the door but got no response. I slowly went inside my room and heard the shower running. I placed his clothes on the bed and turned around to leave but stopped when the bathroom door opened. I stared at the glory that is Carter Grayson.  He came out wearing nothing but my towel. I swore never to wash that towel, as creepy as that sounded. His hair were dripping wet and water flowed down from neck to torso which, mind you, was six packs. It got soaked in his towel and I looked up in hopes of following another droplet. I saw him smirking at me and he took few steps forward.

"Like what you see?" He asked.

"I...uh....I.....um.....Huh?" I mumbled still looking at his styled hair. Few strands covered his eyes and before I could reach to shrug it off, he pulled his hair back himself. Another droplet fell down his neck but if I followed it, I would be looking at a place I shouldn't. He came even closer and his lips were inches away from me. If I lean even a little closer, our lips would meet and the way my heart was beating, I knew that was what I wanted. My mind kept telling me to stop because it will weird out things between me and Carter but it was hard to hear over my heart beats. I looked up to see his eyes and immediately realized my mistake. He was looking down at my lips, his breaths fanned over my face and I felt my body heat up. He came closer and I kept looking at his face. He closed his eyes and just as I thought he was going to kiss me, he backed off with a t-shirt in his hand, the spare t-shirt I bought for him. He wasn't trying to kiss me, he was trying to get the t-shirt that I kept in the bed behind me. He smirked at me obviously knowing what was going on in my head.

"I will be downstairs. Breakfast." I said and left the room. Fuck! That was intense. I couldn't believe how much I wanted him to kiss me. I was so desperately waiting for his lips to meet mine, I didn't even think once how that would affect my relationship with him. If he would have kissed me, I might just have let him and kissed him back and I am not sure if I was comfortable with that thought.

I quickly made omelette sandwich for both of us and almost burned my hand thrice. I kept thinking about how vulnerable I felt when he came close to me and it was a weirdly good emotion. Every time that incident came in my head, my heart skipped a beat and I felt a good kind of pain in my chest. This never happened when I kissed Taylor. It felt simple and sweet but with Carter, I felt like my body is on fire. It felt thrilling. His closeness shut off every logic that could possibly keep me away from him. His eyes consumed me.

I turned around to put the sandwiches on his plate but had a mini heart attack when I saw him sitting on the chair staring at me.

"When did you come downstairs?" I asked.

"A little before you were putting cheese on my sandwich." He said casually and took a fork out of the stand. He cut a huge part off it and moaned when he put it in his mouth. Before that sound got me to somewhere else in my head, I quickly took my seat in front of him and started shoving the food down my throat without sparing a look at him. I heard him chuckle once or twice but I ignored him altogether. I was too embarrassed to even look at him and I was afraid what I might do if I got that close to him again.

"So, you are gonna tell me what did I do or say last night?" He asked me curiously. I shrugged my evil thoughts and returned to my carefree posture.

"As I said, you admitted that you are in love with me and begged me to not leave you." I said and smirked.

"That can't be true because I don't have feelings for you." He said calmly.

"Fine but before I tell you what you said, can you tell me what you feel about the fight we had that day?" I asked and looked at him intently. Before I forgive him, I wanted to make sure it wasn't some dumb drunken mistake and he actually feels that he did wrong. He sighed and took his time to form his answer.

"I messed up Liv. I should never have said those things. None of them are true. You are an amazing person and I am sure that whatever happened between you and your dad was not your fault. Also, I should never have bought up your dad in the first place. I was wrong and I am sorry." He said with genuine eyes.

"That." I said and went back to eating.

"What?" He asked me with confusion.

"That's exactly what you said last nice. You came through my window and apologized for being a jerk." I said and his eyes softened in realization. I smiled at him.

"I am sorry too. I know you made mistakes but you are trying to be a better man and I respect that. I should never have insulted you."

"It's fine. Most of what you said was true anyway." He said and I smiled sadly at him. I would have denied it but it was the truth. After we were done eating, he moved towards my door to go back to his house.

"But how will go back? You were drunk when you came here last night."

"Don't worry. Noah will pick me up."

"If you want I can drop you home." I offered but he waved his hand at me in dismissal.

"Liv, you have done enough. I will manage. Thanks for the awesome breakfast." He said and left.

After he left, my mind wandered around what happened in my room today. I really need my best friend for this, I thought. I texted Emma SOS and I heard her car pull over in ten minutes.

"What happened?" She asked walking in frantically.

"I think I might have feelings for Carter." I said and looked down.

"You think?" She said in a bored tone and I gaped at her.

"Excuse me! This is a big deal."

"Uh.. not really. We know you like him. That's all we talk about when you are not around." She said plopped in the living room sofa. I went to kitchen to make hot chocolate for us. When I was done, I carefully brought the cups to the living without spilling anything.

"How did you figure it out?" She asked and I told her about what happened last night.

"Girl, what are you waiting for!? He clearly likes you and you like him as well. Make a move!" She said excitedly.

"Look, I don't think I am ready yet. And even if I am, he is not ready either. He told me not to leave him like forty five times. He is afraid that I will leave him like his ex did. He needs to get over that fear." I said and she hummed in affirmation. There's a different kind of satisfaction I get after her approval.

"That's fair man but you have to make sure you know what you are doing and when is the right time. You can't blow this up." She said finishing her cup.

"I know but honestly I am not sure what I want. I broke up with Taylor because I didn't want a permanent relationship yet and Carter is afraid that I will leave him someday. This puts me in a weird position."

"Liv you are overthinking this. It's okay. Just go with the flow and see what happens." She said shrugging and I smiled at her.

"Yeah you are right. Thanks Em." I said and we talked about other stuff for a while. After she was gone, I collected my stuff and went to my shop. I sent a quick text to my mom letting her know that I will in my shop all day and I have something to talk to her this evening. I will let her know about Carter. It felt wrong not doing so because I never hide anything from her.