Part 20: Undeserving of love maybe but I can always have some self love 💕

My friends tell me

How my eyes beam

When I talk about

how much I love you

Maybe that's why

They've never asked me

To move on from you

They ask me if it's real

In utter disbelief that

You can love someone so deeply

From the bottom of your heart

I wonder if someday

Someone would love me

As much as I love you

With their eyes beaming

With love that's just for me

I'd say now that

Only hope I have about love

Is because I know that

I hold this power to love

So unconditionally

And I don't seem

to want anything

In return for it

So I know for sure

That there is still hope

For love

Cause there'd be more like me

who'd love so deep

But sometimes

Hope isn't all that's enough

I can't help but think

Am I being hard on myself

Am I justifying the hurt

Just cause I love you so much

I fight this thought everyday

I feel like all I'll ever be

Is an option

And I think I don't deserve

To be loved

And no you're not to blame

It's all the past experiences

I've always had

But you were the one

Who'd made me feel

That I had something

special in me

When all I felt was like

Nothing but a loser

Well I know I'm nothing special

I'm just me

Boring as it might sound

But I guess that's all I can be

I know someday I won't feel

This way

I'll love me a little more

I'll give her all she needs

I have always been there for her

At her worst

We fought so many battles together

I can't number how many

As of till today

But the comfort I have

Knowing that everyone else

could leave me

But I'll have me and she won't

Give up on me is something

You know why she does that?

There is that little girl

With lot of dreams

Of making it big

And showing the world

That she is worthy and enough

And for her I'd fight

And it's just for her that I fight

I love you baby girl

And that's for you today