Chapter 1383

‘What do you want to tell me?’

Ryan wanted to know as he looked fixedly at the gentle and elegant woman in front of him. The sunlight outside the window was scattered all over her body and she was standing against the light like a person in a painting. She looked so earthly and yet so beautiful.

However, he could not have her in this way.

“Actually, does it matter what I want to tell you? I just wanted to give you hope at the time. It’s as simple as that.”

Madeline’s explanation caused the light in Ryan’s eyes to fade.

“No, you’re lying to me. You must have something to tell me.” His eyes were full of expectations. His appearance had returned to the former gentle and elegant air but it was now full of anxiety.

Madeline walked to the bed and looked at his pale and frustrated face. She also found it a bit ironic and ridiculous, but pity arose in Madeline’s heart from noticing his complicated emotions.

She looked at Ryan’s expectant face and parted her lips gently. “The day you said that you have no other requests… You said you’ll be happy as long as I obey you and do this last thing with you. You wanted me to watch the fireworks with you so that you could comfort yourself with the fact that I once belonged to you in the short period before the fireworks ended, right?”

Ryan did not say a word after Madeline accurately guessed what he had been thinking. However, he just stared at Madeline quietly.

“Before you were shot, you told me that you never thought of driving me crazy. You just wished I could stay by your side, but Ryan, feelings cannot be forced. Even if you control me and tamper with my memory, those are also fake and not real.”

Madeline’s words pierced through Ryan’s heart.

He finally understood this now and no longer had the ridiculous idea of wanting to force her anymore.

“Ryan, I really hated you initially and I also wanted you to die, but the moment you fell to the ground in front of me after being shot, I figured it out.”

“Eveline…”

“You said you’re sorry, so I’ll answer you now. Everything is over, so it’s fine.”

“…”

After she said that, Ryan’s Adam’s apple bobbed lightly. The corners of his eyes were also warming up as they turned red.

His thoughts were almost occupied with endless shame and regret.

Madeline was very calm at the moment, and she could see everything clearly now.

“Ryan, I’d be lying if I say that I don’t hate you or blame you, but I don’t want to be entangled in these things that have already happened and cannot be changed. Soon, you’ll bear the responsibility for all the things you did. If you really feel guilty toward me, then you’ll also be tortured by your conscience.

These are the best punishments for you.”

After listening to Madeline’s words, Ryan felt even more pathetic, hateful, and ridiculous.

How could he have been so cruel to treat her like that back then?

He was not worthy of such a tough, tenacious, and wise woman.

Ryan laughed in self-mockery before sighing long and hard.

How did he forget that he once said to Yorick there was no other woman in Glendale who was a match for Jeremy? However, this still applied the other way round. Perhaps Jeremy was the only one in Glendale or even the whole world who could make Madeline fall head over heels with him.

They were the best match regardless of appearance, heart, or even wisdom.

“I’ve lost. I’ve lost completely.”

Ryan sighed weakly and smiled bitterly.

“For so many years, I’ve been trapped in a hatred that does not exist at all. Not only have I hurt the innocent and my parents, but I also lost myself in it.”

He closed his eyes, and everything in the past played back in his mind like a movie.

If he could do it again…

No.

There were no ifs in this world.

“Eveline, you’re right. People like me are not worthy of true love.” He laughed at himself. “Thank you for coming to see me and telling me this answer. I hope that you can forget the unhappiness I’ve caused you.”