Chapter 111

Episode 111

Jaeheon Lee adapted well even after recalling his past life. I did some stupid things.

He looked in the mirror, recalled his memories of his current life, and realized that he had become an old villain from a 19-year-old impoverished survivalist. It was because it suddenly occurred to me that the author had said that he would enclose everything he knew in this novel.

Moreover, Lee Jae-heon in his previous life was definitely dead. I knew it because the ending was different from the sensations I had felt from time to time, and there was no option in his mind that this was a hallucination. Lee Jae-heon did not have a good imagination, and there was no reason to be trapped in such fantasy, and his pride did not allow it.

Nevertheless, I called my family to be cautious. On the other end of the phone was a sophisticated human being who could not easily be created by anyone’s imagination, and he admitted that he was an old man.

Even if it were true that this was a hallucination, Jaeheon Lee would have denied it.

‘I’m tired.’

I didn’t want to live in that world anymore.

There were no things that Jaeheon Lee loved the most, but there were things that he hated the most. He, who had always been a villain, did not want to regurgitate the death he had barely suffered.

Because Lee Jae-heon was like that, there was a concept that was the most incomprehensible.

‘…What does it mean to die once?’

It was said that there is no fixed lifespan in this world. Unless he read it right and the author wasn’t lying to him. Lee Jae-heon secretly admired her imagination.

How can you think like that? Is it possible to live only once? Then, in the world you created, anyone can easily commit suicide. Even if you feel the slightest burden, you can run away. There is such a kind death that we who have lived because we have to live can never understand.

So, if possible, I wanted to die.

“If your past life was so shit, shouldn’t your current life be a little better?”

How can life be so shitty one after another?

“Fuck my life….”

I really couldn’t believe it.

Actually, Jaeheon Lee was a little excited. In this world, there is only one death, and unlike the memories of the past life, the memories of this life are soft and sweet, making my brain tingle. It was a background that allowed Lee Jae-heon, who remembered his past life, to think about death and wealth and fame on a fairly equal footing.

If I live as I remember from this life, wouldn’t I be able to live better? I’m tired. The biggest hardship for me so far has been my sister’s bullying. I’m tired. Moreover, I am so strong and wise after remembering my past life. I’m tired. If so, wouldn’t it be possible to solve the problem very easily and ultimately enjoy the wealth and fame that I wanted?

I’m tired.

“….”

I’m fucking tired.

Lee Jae-heon, who had barely escaped the panic and was bleeding on one of his arms, burst into laughter. I feel as if the terribly familiar smell of blood is seeping into my entire skin.

‘It’s completely ruined.’

It’s ridiculous, but he was reincarnated.

“…No, if you are going to be reincarnated, you better do it properly…”

In any case, this place was in the midst of a devastated survivor who was classified as 19+ based on his previous life. He had done all kinds of bad things, but he thought he deserved to be happy. But at the same time, I was so tired that my eyesight became blurry.

I wanted to live and I also wanted to die. I thought I just wanted to lie down like this and rot until I became a corpse.

That’s why I didn’t immediately commit suicide or prepare much.

“….”

When it’s time to die, you die, or you die.

In the end, unless Lee Jae-heon forgot his past life again, he was going to get one of the two.

Eternal rest or wealth.

If he didn’t do that, the pride he had in his past life that had brought him to the top would not survive.

So, to be honest, Jaeheon Lee was already exhausted from then on.

“…Let’s get ready.”

This is from when the memories of my past life and my current life, which had no resemblance other than my dirty personality, were combined.

In this way, Lee Jae-heon was consumed by the underworld and gradually lost his ability to judge. The common sense of his previous life, which was advantageous for survival, automatically consumed his whole body. If there were no people around or if he hadn’t created something like this, there was a high probability that Lee Jae-heon would have moved as he did in his past life.

Wow, I can’t die! So what about the death of the third-rate villain in the novel? No, I don’t want to die like that. These were not memories built up for the sake of a moment of pleasure and a stepping stone for the main character. But what if even he can’t die anymore? What if I have to keep living for you as the main character?

That’s not bad either.

“Are you and me the same?”

It’s not bad if it’s the only way for me to be happy.

The underworld was no longer an exciting or unfamiliar place for Lee Jae-heon.

Lee Jae-heon couldn’t die, and this was only the second battle of his previous life. So, it is only natural that he, who even in his previous life was at the forefront and bled, would lead a chick that looked like it was about to die at any moment.

Because you are too weak. These are the companions originally chosen by the protagonist. These are the people I chose. All of this was natural because it was a life form that was completely different from me qualitatively.

“…What do you mean?”

“Well, even if I die…”

I come back to life.

For him, death was just one part of the process of living.

It was just like that. I was unimpressed. What made Lee Jae-heon excited, even if only for a moment, was the one and only death in life, not this insignificant repetition. If it is not unique, it has no value. The spirit that was considered most valuable was becoming increasingly worn out.

But even if I die, I will continue this life, and in this way, I will hold in both hands the happiness I wanted most. Jaeheon Lee, no one else, was able to do that.

Of course you can criticize it, but

“….”

What does that have to do with me?

“….”

“….”

“…Ah….”

Actually ,

I’m sorry.

I didn’t mean to be this stupid.

‘…This wasn’t the plan.’

It’s so useless that I can’t even control my emotions at this age. I could see how much the value of his shabby body had dropped.

I found that I was very tired.

“I made a mistake.”

After all, I am one-eyed.

Whether in the past life or in the present life, this is something that cannot be welcomed.

* * *

That’s the way it is with all villains.

* * *

“I’ve wanted to tell you for a long time…”

Jeong In-ho put down his usual sincere smile and looked at Lee Jae-heon with an awkward gaze.

“I think there is a bit of a problem with the manager’s way of thinking.”

“…How dare you criticize the manager?”

“…don’t keep talking like that.”

In fact, Jeong In-ho was still angry.

It was already known for a long time that Lee Jae-heon did not trust them. It was during the conversation they had while running away from the dog-shaped monster that I became completely sure. Lee Jae-heon had drawn a clear line between them long before then. There was no way Jeong In-ho didn’t know that.

At first, I had a hard time thinking about his intentions, but in the end, that person had only one ultimate goal.

‘A worthy death.’

There were no other people there.

“…I am not promoting the ideal that all life should be respected.”

Jeong In-ho tried hard to raise the corners of his mouth, but he couldn’t prevent his brows from furrowing.

“It means that the manager cannot die.”

There is a longing for goodness.

He knew that he could not be a good person. If he had been an upright and good person, Jeong In-ho’s parents would have also affirmed his existence and would not have lived with such shallow hypocrisy. Jeong In-ho wanted to be a good person, but he knew the reality.

To him, Manager Lee Jae-heon was the type of person he had never seen before.

It is neither completely good nor completely evil, much less gray. It was a kind of invasive species that crossed territories as if walking a tightrope. I don’t know the exact circumstances of Lee Jae-heon, but he was already made that way.

“Continue… I don’t want to put someone’s death in my mouth, but no, no.”

“….”

“You are helping us a lot.”

That’s why Jeong In-ho was angry.

“You helped me even when I was hurt like that.”

Help me out as you wish. I think we have now reached a relationship where we can see each other face to face without feeling disgusted. Because you made me think that way, I have protected us by shedding my blood. None of us took your sacrifice for granted.

Nevertheless, if you passed everything on to me at any time and acted like you were going to die soon, anyone but Jung In-ho would be angry. Even as long as the other person is not stupid and is an adult.

“…You can save it, but you can’t kill it.”

“You could have just left it as is, because you could have run away alone.”

“I did what I do best.”

“Not everyone who can do well gets hurt like you did.”

But I thought about it while secretly listening to the story in the early morning.

Jaeheon Lee has been in and out of the underworld since he was young. He believes that he must step forward because he is ‘worthy’. I believe that is ‘efficient’. He makes remarks regarding himself as a tool.

Lee Jae-heon was a good actor, but he also had a strong sense of pride. There’s no way he could have thought that way alone.

Someone created that ‘common sense’ for you.

“So we….”

So Jaeheon Lee.

“…I’m more afraid of the manager getting hurt instead of us.”

“….”

“Really.”

Maybe I just don’t want to admit it.

‘Because that’s the whole of that person’s life.’

Once I admit that my life is wrong, there are too many people to blame, so I’m too tired to try to fix it. I was suspicious that he was just stubborn and trying to die like this.

Jeong In-ho spoke with a dissatisfied expression on his face.

“We don’t think like this because we are inexperienced. I’m not doing this because I’m stupid or lacking. Of course, the manager won’t admit it, but….” “

….”

“Honestly, you’re the one who’s wrong.”

“…Huh.”

Lee Jae-heon, who frowned deeply, soon spoke with a crooked smile.

“Why was I wrong? Just one person saved everyone here and I haven’t even died yet. “I think it’s a situation where we should actually be amazed.”n/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om

“….”

Yes, this was the problem.

“…It’s not wrong.”

In the end, Lee Jae-heon’s actions were good.

If you ask whether the concept of sacrifice itself is completely wrong, In-ho Jeong will deny it. That is noble. Being seriously injured while trying to catch a child who has fallen from a railing can be said to be a sacrifice as all the pain that occurs while firefighters or police catch a criminal is a sacrifice. You can’t criticize that.

However, Lee Jae-heon’s sacrifice was very natural. To him, his suffering was of low value, and he must have thought that if he could save a life with something of that low value, it would be good business. Because that’s efficiency.

Therefore, I could not praise Lee Jae-heon’s sacrifice.

“Now how about you guys slowly change? Honestly, I don’t know when I might kill someone, but it’s so funny how calm you are. “That’s because I don’t understand.”

“….”

“I think it would be better to be cautious from now on and not say anything unnecessary later.”

His sacrifice was made with coercive intentions, and Lee Jae-heon thought it was very natural for everyone in the world to hate him. With that proud personality.

“…Ha…”

In the end, the laughter trickled down and I mumbled a little.

There was no way I could take help from someone like that for granted.

“…I really don’t understand.”

There was no way I could heal that person.

You son of a bitch.