Chapter 106
Theatrical Regression Life
Episode 106:
What should I say to someone who has adapted to being in so much pain?
It was the first time Kwon Yeon-hee saw someone who attached the word ânaturalâ to all the pain she was experiencing. It would probably be his first and last time in his life.
I grew up in a decent, if not spectacular, family. Rather than becoming a saint of the century, her parents wanted Kwon Yeon-hee to grow up to be someone who could raise a fallen child in front of them, and to know that gray exists between black and white. Kwon Yeon-hee grew up to be just that kind of adult.
Thatâs why she couldnât react properly when she witnessed something outside of her proper world, what she knew. For Kwon Yeon-hee, Lee Jae-heon was not black, white, or gray.
I couldnât even tell if this could be called a human being.
ââ¦.â
In the end, she couldnât hold back the question and let it out.
ââ¦Why did it happen like that?â
You probably didnât have to do that.
I wouldnât have had to take the pain for granted or treat myself like an object. In fact, a very ordinary and common person other than Lee Jae-heon has better common sense and lives than him, so why do you, who is the manager of a large company, be such an idiot?
Even though it was because she had been to this world several times, Kwon Yeon-hee found it difficult to accept it.
âWho⦠who says the manager is bad? Is it okay if I die? âBecause the manager is stronger and hurts less, itâs okay to get hurt like that⦠Is that right?â
ââ¦.â
âWhy do you think that? we we we we. âEveryone else can live like that, using the manager as a shield, but only the manager⦠has to suffer and suffer like thatâ¦â
I couldnât understand.
ââ¦Who on earth said thatâ¦?â
Kwon Yeon-hee found out that Manager Lee Jae-heon lived in a pretty good family. There was a so-called royal family, a worthy family name, and a family business. The old-fashioned and parachute-like side he usually showed was quite persuasive given this background.
So, it may have been right for Lee Jae-heon to have been raised that way. I view other people as objects, despise them, and bow down to people who are stronger than me. It would have been better if he had been the âManager Lee Jae-heonâ we originally knew. An arrogant and incompetent person in power.
However, what he actually saw as an object was himself, and Jaeheon Lee was neither arrogant nor incompetent. I couldnât remember why this person was so twisted.
âThe manager is a human being.â
ââ¦I know.â
âAre you sure you really knowâ¦? âYou shouldnât use the word âbitterâ when referring to people.â
âArenât people also resources in a way?â
âThen why donât you do that to us? Why donât you look at it like a tool? âThe manager could have just thrown away a bunch of luggage like us and run away alone.â
âI have enough of you⦠but you are still weak. If only you were a little stronger or more mature. âHe could have abandoned it and run away.â
âreally?â
ââ¦.â
Lee Jae-heon did not answer.
ââ¦Itâs a lie.â
ââ¦.â
âI heard you wouldnât have run away alone.â
At her words, Lee Jae-heon wrinkled his face as if he was a little frustrated, but Kwon Yeon-hee was no longer fooled by that expression. He had already shed too much blood to be fooled by that kind of leather.
âWhat about the manager? âI do something called worry.â
ââ¦Do you think I donât know that?â
âI donât think you know. âIt really breaks my heart to see the manager get injured in our place, stay in that position, and then come back bleeding.â
âYou guys are so inefficient. âDonât you know how much of a benefit it would be if you just grind one thing and everyone else survives?â
âItâs one person, not one. Itâs not efficiency, itâs sacrifice. âI donât know what kind of people youâve been living in this world with, Manager, thatâs why youâre like this, but please come to your senses.â
âI am always sane.â
âThen youâre crazy.â
ââ¦.â
âThe people who were around you while this was going on were even crazier.â
Lee Jae-heonâs brow furrowed even more at that, but Kwon Yeon-hee had no intention of picking up the words.
âWhatâs really strange is why donât you curse at those peopleâ¦? Why does it have to be only the manager who is bad? Since you came here, youâve been getting hurt and sick as if it was a given, but what did the people next to you say when they saw that? âThey say thatâs natural too. Is it only the manager who gets hurt?â
ââ¦Iâm the only one whoâs never been hurt, and itâs only natural that the person who can do the best steps forwardâ¦â âIt
âs not natural at all. Itâs not natural, so please tell me if it hurts. If you get hurt, get some rest. âI saw with my own eyes the manager scratching his neck because he had a nightmare. Are you going to keep doing this?â
âIt wasnât a nightmare.â
âThen what if you had a dream?â Why did you scratch your neck? Why are you so strangled? âHe was struggling like he wanted to die right away and vomited blood. So what should we think when we see that?â
âI reallyâ¦â
âOh, this person is normalâ¦? It doesnât hurt at all? So, I have to stay here and hold on, clinging to me like a tick and sucking blood and scraps like a leech. I must survive by sacrificing the one person who can die the least painfully. âThatâ¦â
ââ¦â
âDo you think we would have thought that way?â
Kwon Yeon-hee continued speaking while clenching her hands.
âI donât know what the manager has heard or experienced to have such common sense, but I can assure you of this one thing.â
ââ¦.â
âThe people who were next to the manager are all bastards.â
Lee Jae-heonâs eyes twitched at that.
âIt wasnât that much⦠just. âThey were just ordinary people.â
âWhy are you defending me?â
ââ¦.â
âWhy do you say that only those people are good when you actually say that you are bad?â
ââ¦Thatâs not what youâre saying.â
âBut thatâs the situation, Manager.â
He couldnât respond to Kwon Yeon-heeâs words and just kept his lips moving, and only after some time had passed did he carefully open his mouth. It looked a little unfair.
ââ¦If you were just as strong as me, you wouldnât be like this.â
âThen?â
ââ¦.â
âIf we become just as strong as you, and it doesnât hurt, will you abandon us and run away?â
âAre you going to stick right next to me and eat everything you can?â
âThatâs nice.â
ââ¦.â
âI think thatâs really⦠good.â
Not lying, really.
âIâm not sure if thatâs sincere or not, but you canât forget it. âI will pass this on to other people as well.â
ââ¦Why are you doing that? Seriously.â
âBut Manager, if we become that strong. âIf only I knew how to do my part more than I do now.â
Kwon Yeon-hee muttered that and stayed still for a while.
She lived only in incidents within reasonable limits, not major incidents, and grew up in a reasonably upright family. Due to my simple nature, I have rubbed shoulders with everyone, but have never crossed their line. Even if they became friends, there was always a minimum line for Kwon Yeon-hee.
ââ¦then.â
The feeling of having to cross that line is,
âManager, why is it hurting so much right nowâ¦â
ââ¦â
âCan you tell me?â
It was really strange.
ââ¦Can I ask what happened that evening?â
* * *
ââ¦Can I ask what happened that evening?â
Jaeheon Lee blinked at Kwon Yeonheeâs question.
Lee Jae-heon, who was excited by a stranger criticizing his former colleague, calmed down for a moment by acknowledging that his physical and mental condition was not good. In fact, the target of Kwon Yeon-heeâs criticism was not a colleague from her previous life, but a virtual being.
âOn that day⦠that vine. After being captured by that thing, the manager often doesnât look like a person. No this. Actually, I had that feeling beforeâ¦â
ââ¦.â
âIt got worse. It wasnât to this extent, but he was much more dazed. You put your hand in the bonfire last time. No matter how sleepy you are, doesnât that make sense? Soâ¦â
ââ¦So.â
âWhatâs the problem, Manager?â
Anyway, thatâs what I thought.
âIt turns around and comes all the way here.â
Anyway, I took a bite of the bait laid by Lee Jae-heon.
My first intended strategy of âActually, he wasnât as bad as I thoughtâ failed and I became a âsurvivor of the other side of the worldâ. In the process, I vomited red water due to the influence of lucid dreaming, which made me feel like a âterminal patientâ. Aâ¦.
âI thought that was too improbable and too over-the-top, so I blamed it on the green algae monster.â
It was to give a reason for a man who was working fine at work suddenly hemorrhaging blood.
In fact, if it werenât for this, Lee Jae-heon wouldnât have tried to put the group on guard like this. Because of this unexpected setup, the police officer Kim Yeon-woo card was used too early, and as a result, other people, including Detective Hong Gyeong-jun, had to be dragged by the collar. The damage was great.
ââ¦.â
Of course, even if I hadnât met the detective halfway, there was a high probability that I wouldnât have had to deal with it. Perhaps because water was secured in the beginning, the survivorsâ character was much more generous than in the original novel.
âItâs a little unsettling that the murderer joined the detective team, unlike the original story, but still.â
It doesnât matter if itâs at a level where you canât use it. There was no reason to throw it away since Lee Jae-heon could raise it and use it later.
It may seem like the atmosphere has improved more than expected just because water was secured, but in any case, as long as the results are right, thatâs enough. Kwon Yeon-hee in front of him was also asking a very appropriate question about the problem that Lee Jae-heon had to solve immediately.
âI heard that if you grow them all, they will be useful.â
Lee Jae-heon took advantage of the moment of silence and listened.
ââ¦.â
The snoring sound noticeably decreased.
He saw the blurry shadows swaying behind Kwon Yeon-heeâs staff, and after being sure that they were not asleep, he slowly opened his mouth.
ââ¦I donât need to know, right?â
He was going to tell me anyway, but he still looked like he didnât want to talk about it. If I tell him right away that he is asking, an error will be made in Lee Jae-heonâs settings, who has been hiding this fact all this time.
âIâm really confident that it wonât cause any inconvenience. Even if you donât know, there wonât be much harm to Kwon Yeon-hee or others.â
âI hate that even more⦠Have you even listened to me so far?â
ââ¦.â
âThe moment you say that, I have to listen to it unless the manager or I die. âIâm really sorry for running away because I was scared of the manager, but I think I should know this much.â
ââ¦Haaâ¦.â
You asked me to tell you.
Anyway, you know thereâs nothing wrong with me, right guys?
* * *
A low sigh and a brushing of hair.
ââ¦.â
ââ¦Sirâ¦.â
âShh.â
Jeong In-ho listened as he placed his hand on the shoulder of the intern squatting next to him.
Garam Yoon said that this place, where there was originally a pavilion, was quite spacious, and those who joined here late volunteered to sleep near the entrance. Thanks to this, In-ho Jeong was able to quietly wake up President Yoon and Yeon-seok Noh.
Of course, there was only one person who was not what Jung In-ho wanted.
ââ¦Iâm keeping quiet.â
ââ¦I know.â
It was Detective Hong Gyeong-jun.
As soon as employee Kwon Yeon-hee got up and went outside, Jeong In-ho followed her, so the work could not proceed without Detective Hong Gyeong-junâs knowledge, who returned immediately afterwards. He was a person who didnât sleep much, so even if he was sleeping soundly, he wouldnât have been able to wake up the others without them knowing.
âItâs not like it wonât help.â
To be honest, Iâm not a person I like very much, but I recognized Hong Kyung-junâs abilities. I donât know why, but my guard against Director Lee Jae-heon seemed to be low, so I thought that if I could coax him, it might help me catch him.
Yes, that was the reason why I woke up the entire group right now. This is to hold on to the ankles of Manager Lee Jae-heon, who doesnât know when he might die.
âIf he rushes this much, it will be difficult for him to act as he pleases.â
Surprisingly, Noh Yeon-seok and Hong Gyeong-jun seemed to know Director Lee Jae-heonâs past at least vaguely, so Jeong In-ho was able to act even more without hesitation. Anyway, if you have already told me that much, arenât you ready to hear the next story?
Jeong In-ho, who was quietly waiting for Director Lee Jae-heonâs voice, heard his distinctive low, mechanical voice. It was a voice that seemed to have made an effort to erase emotions.
ââ¦To be honest, I donât know exactly.â
ââ¦So?â
âI donât remember that day in detail.â
It was a fairly calm reaction for someone who had lost part of his memory, but Jeong In-ho noticed that the end of his voice was shaking. Since he was a person who was dragged like that and even had nightmares, he probably couldnât have completely ignored the fear at the time.
Lee Jae-heon, who hesitated several more times, gave a dry response that felt even more foreign. It was as if he had cut off his emotions.
So doesnât that mean there was a need to erase the emotions?
âThat happens sometimes.â
Jeong In-ho bit his lip.
âI have an impulse.â
ââ¦.â
ââ¦I want to kill someone.â
Why did it have to be that person?
It seemed like everything in the world wanted Lee Jae-heon to die.