CH 5: SATISFIED?!

Love me, hate me, call me crazy. I. DO. NOT. CARE.

I'm about to do something kind of unacceptable. I wish you won't question my sanity.

- Wan

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Mew had accepted his fate.

He knew that he can't escape Gulf forever so he lessened ignoring him. But he still had drawn boundaries that Gulf was aware of. Mew was fine with being friends with Gulf but that would hurt the younger. Not to forget that Mew had his own reasons to be a solitary person. He knew if anybody knew about it, they would hate his existence. So, he just tried enjoying being alone instead.

Gulf was now a little better as Mew was not ignoring him all the time. Mew had forgiven him for what he did when Mew gave his resignation letter. Mew agreed to work for Gulf if that means that Mew gets his concerns, even just a little. Mew was trying to be friendly with Gulf but had also set limits. Gulf was happy with the progress they had made. He knew Mew wasn't going to fall in love with him but at least they could live their married life as friends now. Gulf was too easily satisfied.

Though, Gulf would still coo over every conversation they have at night when he was alone in his room. He just let Mew be in another, he understood that Mew needed his own private space. Just sharing a house with Mew was enough for him. They would have breakfast and dinner together. And Mew would go to his place on weekends, he said he missed his mom and that's the only place he could feel her presence. Creepy to hear but the memories of his other were vivid to Mew as if his childhood was only yesterday.

Right now, Gulf was sitting in their living room. He had just talked to Yibo and his boyfriend about how much he had advanced. Xiao Zhan could never believe that the Gulf Kanawut who was all giddy-up is the same man who never shows expression in meetings and parties. Gulf's friends callED it the 'MEW EFFECT'. Because only one man, Mew Suppasit, could make Gulf into that childish person. Now all Yibo wished was for Mew to eventually accept Gulf and never leave him. He remembered the day when Gulf confessed to Mew. Gulf was a mess, and the only time Yibo remembered Gulf being so vulnerable was when they were twelve, and when they were sixteen. He never saw Gulf cry after that day until Mew rejected him.

When Gulf told him what all Mew had yelled at him that day, Yibo was shocked that Mew could be that fierce. But he somewhere saw something in Mew. He saw some kind of hesitation in his eyes. He straightaway knew that Mew didn't act that harsh willingly. But Mew had to act like to keep himself safe? He guessed. Whatever it was Yibo wished for the two to end with it.

Mew wasn't home. It had become a 'home' now, thanks to their developing understanding. Mew had some personal matters to be taken care of so he went out, alone. Gulf was pretty fine with it. He was even obliged by the fact that Mew informed him before heading out in the morning. But now, it was evening already and Mew hadn't returned.

Gulf was starting to panic. He called Win and Wan to ask if Mew was with them but Mew wasn't. He tried calling Mew but he won't pick his calls. Is he ignoring me again? Gulf asked himself. But I haven't done anything to anger him this time, he was losing his sanity. Gulf wanted to call some private investigators to track Mew. But that would be stalking. He didn't want Mew to hate him again. It took him so long to gain his trust. Mew, where are you? Gulf could cry any minute now.

Gulf was about to head out to look for Mew himself but he heard the door click open. It was Mew. Gulf was so relieved to see no visible harm on Mew.

Mew seemed to be in a rush. Gulf stopped him, "Where have you been? I was sick worried." Mew just ignored it. Mew was clenching his stomach, he looked constipated. Gulf asked again, "Hey! answer me! Are you okay? Is your stomach aching?" Gulf was gentle with his words but Mew just wasn't in the mood. Mew clicked his tongue, "Can you stop being nosy for once?" Gulf tried to stay calm.

Gulf was controlling the hellfire in him. He could not understand why Mew was acting so irritated. He was being careful with his words but Mew was still being rude for god knows why. Mew removed his coat and hung it on the stand beside the door. When he turned, Gulf spotted something.

"What's that spot?" Gulf asked. Purely curious. Mew stiffened. Fuck! How did he notice it so quick? Mew mentally facepalmed. Mew tried to ignore the question and get past Gulf. But Gulf wasn't in the mood to wait anymore. Mew had finally made his lover boy angry.

The red spot on Mew's light brown pants was terrifying Gulf. Did someone harass MY MAN? Gulf was furious. If it was true, he understood that Mew must be feeling so bad right now and wants to be alone. But Gulf wanted to confirm before he did anything. If he found out that someone else forcefully touched Mew, the hell would be let loose. Though Gulf had never got anyone killed, he was ready to dirty his hands with blood if it meant that he could avenge Mew.

Just when Mew was about to go past him, Gulf grabbed Mew's wrists. He pinned him to a wall. Mew wasn't fighting back. He seemed too exhausted to do that. Just what happened that you're so exhausted? Gulf wanted to voice but couldn't.

Gulf still tried to sound calm, "I asked what is that spot?" Mew didn't respond, he was too shocked by Gulf's behavior. Never in his wildest dreams had Mew thought that Gulf would be this harsh on him. "If anyone hurt you, just tell me. I'm going to kill them." Gulf was being scary now. But Mew was not someone he could scare off so easily. Mew looked him in the eyes and gritted his teeth. He never thought of telling about this matter to anybody, because this matter had brought him nothing but hatred. But he was stuck in a situation where being hated was better.

Mew took a deep breath. Mew glared back at Gulf, "If you want to know so badly, then listen. I don't give a fuck if you hate me after this." Whatever it is, I can never hate you, Gulf yelled mentally. Mew took another deep breath. He continued, "I have a goddamn vagina down there. I am an hermaphrodite. And I'm on my periods. SATISFIED?!" Gulf was left frozen. He loosened his grip on Mew's wrists and let him go. Seeing Gulf's expression, Mew chuckled sadly. Just what I  had expected, He said inside his head. "I knew you wouldn't be able to take it," with this, Mew left to his room.

"He has a vagina?" Gulf confirmed his memory. "That means... I love the most special man in the world? Just how happy can this man make me!" Gulf squealed. Mew expected Gulf to despise him, but the fact that he is a hermaphrodite only made Gulf fall deeper in love with him. Gulf quickly looked up the internet to find ways to take care of Mew.

Gulf found Mew's favorite chocolates in the kitchen and checked if they had ice cream in-store. He then searched for painkillers and the heating pad. "Where the hell is the heating pad?" Gulf questioned. He couldn't find it so he just ran to Mew's room.

***MEW'S ROOM***

MEW'S POV...

After telling my darkest secret to Gulf, I just ran up to my room. Why the hell did these periods have to hit me while I was outdoors? The shocked look on Gulf's face convinced me that he can't take it. I don't think he can even believe that something like this is for real. He'll just give me a divorce, I think. That would be good for both of us.

I was lying on my bed, clenching my abdominal area. It fucking hurts. I couldn't even take the painkillers with me. Damn it!

I heard my room's door open. Must be him. I just faced the opposite side of the room. He didn't say a word. Then I felt the mattress compress, is he sitting here? I turned and caught him staring at me.

"What?" I asked blankly. he shook his head, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you earlier." He looks guilty. "I'm not in the mood to talk. It's already too uncomfortable." I just said. He got up and pulled out something from his pockets. "Here, painkillers," he extended his arm to me. I took it and tried moving to my bedside table to get water. But this cramp attacked right then. He jolted up and got the water for me. What is he doing? I just took the pills.

I turned my back to him, still clenching to my stomach. My eyes were shut and I was trying to fall asleep. I felt something around my waist. Gulf's arms. "What are you doing? Aren't you disgusted with me for being a-" I tried asking but his comforting body warmth cut me short? I never felt this comfortable in anybody's embrace. Not even when the chairwoman- I mean, mom hugs me. "I don't care whatever you think of yourself or the world does. All I need to know is that I love you," he said.

Why is he so persistent about his feelings? He knows he can't make me fall for him. But he still won't let go of a chance to be with me. He thinks I can't hear him every night when he coos over the conversations we had that day. And how nice he finds my voice. This man makes me so guilty for not loving him back. He deserves the world. He's too precious for this world, in fact.

But I can't love him.

I am already in love with someone else and have been for years. My feelings have been persistent ever since I first met that person and only grew deeper the longer we stayed together.

He's only hurting himself. He should just stop loving me.

He slid his hands under my shirt. I turned to look at him, a  fake frown decorating. It is so comfy and I needed just this for now. But,  "Sorry, I couldn't find the heating pad. So, I'm using my hands to warm your tummy. Can you please let me take care of you just for this while?" he smiled like a child pleading to his parents for permission. I just nodded. His hands are perfectly warm.

"Can I ask you something?" he said in a pouty voice. "Hmm," I agreed. "Where did you go today? You didn't return for so long. I went crazy thinking that you got in some trouble," he is such a kid. Is he sure he's 28 years old? I turn to face him. Our faces were close but he moved back giving me space. "It's my mother's death anniversary. I went to visit her grave," I told him. I never talked about this to anyone. I only noticed that I was crying when I felt him wiping something off my face. I tightened my grip on his shirt that I didn't even know I was holding. He pulled me closer. My face rested near his neck, he was caressing my back.

I didn't notice when my eyelids got heavy and I fell asleep. The next morning, he was already staring at my face, amazed. I just got up to change my pad and when I went downstairs, he had laid all the chocolates we had on the dining table. I chuckled to myself. He's cute at times and at times a pure asshole.

I think I'll befriend him. He doesn't seem as forceful as I imagined.

He never left my side till my periods ended. He didn't even let me go to work. Even he himself took the whole week off. He's the boss though. He even got me pads when I unexpectedly ran out of them. He's surely good at taking care of people.

*DAYS LATER*

AUTHOR'S POV...

Mew finally opened up a little to Gulf. They were now more peaceful than before. They would spend a lot of time together. Talking to each other. Eating together. Opening up to each other. Understanding each other better. Now Gulf had found an entrance to Mew's heart. He just had to wait for the right time to proceed inside.

***GULF'S CABIN***

Mew was standing near Gulf's desk, Wan beside him. "When do I have the business trip to Chiang Mai?" Gulf asked. Wan replied, "This Saturday to next Wednesday. P'Mew will accompany you. The flights and hotel are booked already." Gulf nodded. "And while we're away, Chairwoman and Mr. Wang are the ones taking care of meetings here. Wan will deal with the details." Mew concluded.

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Yep! I made P'Mew the bottom here. I know I am one of the craziest ones you might have seen ever. Now, let's wait for Mew to fall in love.

But who is this person P'Mew loves?

Please vote and comment.

- Wan <3