CH 2: Regret It?

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-Wan<3

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Mew was furiously walking out of the building. Everyone who passed by him could not believe if it was the same Mew they knew for five years. Nobody had ever seen Mew in this state. He was always an easy to approach guy, but today he treated everyone around like air.

"Hey! Mew!" Yibo greeted him. Only now did Mew take a halt. They were standing in the ground floor lobby. Mew just clenched his jaw and looked at Yibo. Yibo was Gulf's only friend, this is why Mew respected him. At least there was someone else who knew of Gulf's normal side and not just the business face. "Anything wrong?" Yibo asked.

YIBO'S POV...

"Anything wrong?" I asked Mew. He looks stiffer than usual. He seems like he's gonna punch the hell out of anybody who approaches him. Mew exhaled heavily trying to calm down, I guess, and then closed his eyes tight as he turned his face to me. "Nothing, sir. I am just, you know... kind of... excited. You see, I got a little vacation," He told.

Okay... So now, Gulf isn't someone who would let Mew have a vacation. He hates it when Mew is not around in the office. The last time Mew got a vacation, Gulf behaved like a literal demon. Gulf even scared his own father away. Mew is the only one who can keep Gulf stick to being a human. And right now, Mew is fuming with anger and... Is it disappointment and irritation in his eyes? Yeah, but...

OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD. Did Gulf confess to him?

If that is the reason, I think I underestimated Mew. I never imagined Mew to be this angry. I just thought that he would reject Gulf and maybe give him the cold shoulder. But never this angry.

My friend seems to have fucked up big time.

Mew bowed to me and stormed off like a tornado, out of the building. I should go check on Gulf.

***GULF'S OFFICE***

YIBO'S POV...

When I reached here, Wan seemed disheartened. I don't know what happened to her. "Mr Wang!" Wan called in a formal tone as she bowed. I just nodded. "Is the CEO in his cabin?" I asked and she just nodded nervously. "Then I'll go see him. Do notify if he's got any appointment," I said as I walked in.

Gulf was sitting in his chair, frozen. He seemed to be shocked. Must be the 'Mew Effect'. Damn it Wang Yibo! your friend's sad and you're thinking of lame jokes. What did Mew say to him that he's looking like a lost child? I was still standing at the door, absorbing the scene in front of me as much as I could. Everything in this room seemed to be frozen.

When I walked to his desk, I noticed tears on his face. He was crying, but silently. I squatted down, "Care to talk?". He looked at me and hugged me tightly before bursting into tears.

Hearing the commotion, Wan came to check. Gulf didn't seem to have noticed her, he was way too busy shedding tears. She seemed shocked too. I don't blame her though, anyone would be shocked to see this block of ice crying like this. She seemed to understand and shut the door as she left. My eyes drifted back to my crying friend.

"He's mad at me!" Gulf said between sobs. I caressed his back. "He won't resign, will he?" now he is scared to lose Mew. Gulf seemed to like Mew the moment he laid his eyes on the man five years ago. Gulf loves Mew like crazy but he also respects him. Gulf knows only as much information about Mew as Mew ever told him. Gulf doesn't want to seem like an obsessive rich man who could do anything to have Mew. He wants Mew to tell about himself and not dig it up. He really is different from others.

"No, he won't," I assured him. "Didn't you give him some days off? He will cool down and return. Believe me," even if Mew only returns to hand his resignation, I have to console Gulf for now. Gulf pulled away from the hug and stood up. He wiped his tears as he took his car keys. "I'll leave early," he just announced and left.

***SUPPASSITS'***

MEW'S POV...

After a whole fucking hour of driving, I reach home. 'Home' hahaha, it never feels so. I really can't believe that my boss confessed to me. I knew he feels at ease around me but I thought that it was because he thinks of me as a big brother. But turns out he wants me to be his! I'm not gonna let anyone control me ever again. I am not going to love anyone else but that person.

As I reached the door, I saw my mom carrying some luggage. "What are you doing?" I asked her. She looked at me and rolled her eyes. She always does that, why did she have to become my mother? "Jenna got a job in another city. And I'm gonna live with her. Anything else?" she answered flatly. Good that she and her daughter's leaving. She's not my actual mom anyway.

My mom died when I was seven. My dad remarried for my sake but my stepmom hates me. Her daughter is a year older than me. Jenna really is the worst person I have ever met. She used to spread rumours about me in school. And my dad would be forced to take their side when I complained. "Great. Now I can finally have my house to myself and not share it with you," this house and a quarter of his property is all my dad left for me before he died. I had to do part-time jobs ever since my father died nine years ago.

Nine years. For nine years this pair of mother and daughter were still here. Even if they had the rest three-quarters of my dad's property, they didn't leave. Always said that I should be grateful to them for them providing me with food. I could live all on my own without them. I lived all on my own before they came into the family anyways. It would have been better if they never joined us at all. And here comes the other bitch. My so called 'sister', Jenna walked down the stairs with her stuff. "You ungrateful bastard. How could you say that? We took care of you when your father was gone and now you term this place as just your house!" Jenna almost yelled. Who would be grateful to be treated like a faggot in their own house? No one.

I stayed silent and then this old woman spoke, "Let it be, sweetie. He never had a mother to teach him manners. We're not gonna meet him again anyways." Now that gets on my nerves. I've already had enough for a day and now she adds fuel to the fire. I fisted my palms, "Not that your daughter has manners even after having a mother. Oh! And my dad got you as my mom but you failed to be a good one" I saw the anger rise in both their eyes. Why does this feel so satisfying?

"YOU!-" I cut my stepmother off. "Before I forget. Give me all the keys you have to this house." I ordered. Jenna collected all the keys and threw them to my feet. "Pick them up yourself! Fag!" Jenna said and they left the house. Finally, I can say goodbye to their faces. I hate them to the bones.

I went to the living room and flopped down on the couch. Satisfied and stressed. "I've got some days off. Where do I go?" I asked myself. "Should I just stay at home? It's been an eternity since I had this place all to myself," those two never left me alone. They loved pestering me so much.

After an internal quarrel with myself, I decided to go to Phuket. It's gonna be a solo trip.

There, I'll just run wild. I want to forget all this stress and responsibilities just for a day or two. I go upstairs to my room and pack some clothes and essentials. I also booked a hotel for four days of stay.

***PHUKET***

AUTHOR'S POV...

Gulf was aimlessly driving when he realized that he is already in Phuket. He just wanted to escape his office. That was the place where his love had rejected him terribly and left him to feel guilty. He wanted to make Mew feel his sincerity but didn't know how to. 'Toy' that was what Mew thinks Gulf would treat him like. Whereas, for Gulf, Mew was the most precious and priceless thing for him. He would never treat Mew badly, he would cherish him no matter what. But Mew had to make Gulf feel guilty for his feelings.

But this did not mean that Gulf would stop loving the other. Gulf was ready to follow Mew's any request to just keep him in his sight. Gulf was ready to hurt himself than see Mew disappear.

Gulf was sitting in a café facing the sea right now. He had cried the whole night long. His eyes were puffy and his voice hoarse. Gulf took a sip of his chocolate milkshake when he heard something. He heard the voice he's been craving for. He heard Mew from the table in front of him.

Mew was sitting with someone he didn't know. "It's fun befriending total strangers, isn't it?" said the unknown man. Mew nodded, "Sure is. I can share all my problems and you won't meet me again..." Mew sighed, "...Just like the secret diaries that we forget where we kept." The two were chuckling. He doesn't know that person!? Gulf was worried. What if this man tried to hurt Mew? Gulf wanted to punch this man right away.

"But what happened? You seemed so lost at the beach, Mew" said the unknown. Mew sighed again, "I feel relieved and pressurized at the same time, Mild." Mild asked, "What are you relieved about?" This guy was a nosy one. Mew chuckled, "My stepmom and stepsister moved out. And they won't be back." Mild was confused. "We weren't on good terms ever since they entered the family. As I grew older it turned to hatred," Mew said plainly.

Gulf never knew this side of Mew's life. He never thought that Mew would be dealing with a hateful stepmother the moment he returns home. Then Mild said, "Good for you. But then why are you stressed? If I was in your place, I'd throw my friends a huge party instead of coming here" Mew replied, "I never had friends, thanks to my sister. She would spread rumours about me in school. And in university, I lost interest in people" Mew paused to take a bite of his doughnut, "I only have two colleagues as friends but I never mention my messy family to anyone. I try not to remind myself of it as much as possible." "Sucks to be you," Mild shook his head lightly.

"But what's the problem?" Mild asked again. This part was not answered yet. Mew shut his eyes to keep calm. "My boss confessed to me," Mew told him.  "WHAT?" Mild exclaimed. "Yeah, he was like, 'I really love you', but I don't like that" Mew furrowed his brows.

Gulf's heart sank deeper than it already was. "You really hate me, don't you. I should have just let my feelings eat me up than tell you." A lone tear raced down Gulf's face. He had been listening to the whole conversation. Good that Mew's back was facing him. If Mew saw him, he'd probably brand Gulf as a stalker. But Gulf really didn't know that Mew would be coming to Phuket.

"What did you do, reject him on his face? Or ask for some time?" Mild loved to gossip. "Rejected and left for my vacation," Mew said indifferently. "Will you resign after this?" Mild was somewhat worried. Mew shook his head, "I won't. It's his feelings, I am not going to let it affect my professional life," Mew was serious.

Gulf had enough of it, he stood up and left the café. He was now driving back to Bangkok. "We'll just keep it professional if that's what you want," Gulf was crying, again. "I can't lose you. I'll just suppress my feelings," Gulf said to himself as his heart clenched worse. He was ready to do anything for Mew until it was within his power. And that is what he was gonna do. Suppress his feelings so that Mew is not uncomfortable.

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This lover boy. Why is he ready to sacrifice so much for Mew?

When the hell will Mewie start loving Gulfie?😥 Sorry, I don't know that for myself rn.

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- Wan <3