CH 15: It Has Always Been You

Gulf tightened his hands around Mew. He wanted to keep Mew as close to him as possible. This was probably the happiest thing to have happened to Gulf to date. His one and only love started to love him back.

Even though Mew was still crying. Mew was still to understand the whole situation. Mew still thought that Gulf doesn't love him anymore. Mew's senses were all numb. But Gulf was too overjoyed by hearing those words from Mew's mouth. Mew had been saying all those hurtful things to him but the last words had cancelled all the hurt in Gulf's heart. Gulf was happy to just know that Mew loves him.

Mew tried to free himself from Gulf's embrace and move away. For Mew, he didn't understand why was Gulf hugging him. He thought that it was just pity and Gulf just wanted to stop Mew from crying. That only made the pain in Mew's heart increase. And his tears too increased. But Gulf was quick to grip Mew tighter. Mew looked to Gulf's direction, to find answers. But what he found was not the answer that he had been looking for at all.

Gulf held Mew close. Mew cried, "Let go... please" Gulf only caressed his back. Even though Mew was saying all this but he had already rested his head on Gulf's chest once again. Mew's hands were clasping on Gulf's shirt. He didn't want to leave this embrace for a long time.

He wanted to stay here in this warmth for a long time. This was the kind of calmative no one else but Gulf could give him. It was like an assurance to him that there is someone in this world who accepts him regardless of all his differences and scars. That there is someone to aid all his pains and hurt. This embrace reminded him that there is a pair of arms that are there for him to come to. That he had a shoulder to cry on whenever he was sad. That he a chest to dig his head in for comfort. And that he had a pair of lips to kiss him reassuring his safety.

But Mew could not be sure if this was still his place. If the arms were still there to embrace him and him only. That his safe place would not be taken away from him like his past ones. That night, he was about to talk about his feelings to Gulf. It took him the whole day to build up the courage to confess his love. But when he saw a girl standing that close to Gulf, his courage got flushed out of his systems. He didn't know what to do. He cried the whole night and was still not feeling well. When Gulf was there to talk to him the next day, he went harsh on the younger because he didn't know what to do. He was so lost.

The whole week, he was avoiding Gulf because he was afraid. He was afraid that Gulf might ask Mew to split with him. That Gulf would tell him that  he has found someone else and he no more felt the same for Mew. That he didn't want Mew in his life any longer. That was why Mew was keeping away from Gulf. Just so that he could at least have their marriage certificate to call Gulf his. He wanted to return to this house. It was his home. Rather, anywhere Gulf was, that place was Mew's home. The only place he feels safe. The place he could spend his whole life without any regret.

When Gulf said that he should come here tonight for their parents' sake at least, his heart stopped beating. It couldn't find a reason to beat. It was like Gulf was only asking him to come home because there would be guests and not because he himself wanted Mew to return. Seeing Gulf cook like before, Mew's heart was full. He missed the determination Gulf had in his eyes while cooking. Nothing could disturb him when he was standing in a kitchen. He would dance around the kitchen, swaying his hips to some inaudible rhythm while getting ingredients, chopping them, decorating the dishes and admiring the flame. He missed this sight every morning. He missed how Gulf would smile widely at him as he placed the food on the table. And how Gulf would eagerly wait for Mew's comments on his cooking. He missed those puppy eyes that begged for Mew to have liked it.

Mew requested again, "Please.... let go o-" Gulf didn't let Mew speak any further. Gulf just captured those lips he had wanted to taste for so long. Gulf moved his lips on top of Mew's, gently. Mew was frozen in his spot. He was still trying to absorb the fact that Gulf was kissing him right now... on his lips. Mew loosened his grip on Gulf's shirt and moved his hands to Gulf's neck. He firmly rested his hands on Gulf's chest and neck and started moving his lips to Gulf's rhythm.

Feeling Mew's lips move in sync with his made Gulf smile. They had their lips dancing together slowly and gently to the beat they had set. Their hearts felt at ease after so long. They tilted their heads in opposite directions to get better access to each other. They were savouring each other's lips like the other's lips was the sweetest candy in the universe. And gradually Gulf went forward by entering his tongue in the other's mouth. Mew welcomed it gladly. Mew liked the presence of that warm piece of Gulf's flesh in his mouth. Mew proceeded to do the same.

There the two went, eating each other's tongue up. It was not fueled by lust, it was purely because they wanted the other man to be as close to them as possible. It was for the warmth that only these two could provide each other. They kept sucking each other's tongues slowly and lovingly like it was a precious gem that they can't harm.

After kissing for some minutes, they both retreated to gather some air. Though it was slow but did not lack in passion. They felt a connection severe towards each other. Their foreheads rested on each other, eyes closed, still lost in the ecstasy of what just happened. Gulf was smiling from ear to ear, some tears of joy and love pacing down his cheeks. Mew was now in his senses more than ever. He was now ready to talk over all the matters and apologise for whatever he has done that hurt Gulf properly.

Mew slowly parted his eyelids, "Why did you ki-" Gulf interrupted his words by pecking his lips. Gulf started to clear things for the last time. He started, "I have never loved anyone other than you. And I never can. Mew... I'm too madly in love with you to even think about anyone else but you." Mew slid his left hand down Gulf's torso. It had lost the strength. Gulf continued, "Puifai is never going to be more than a little sister to me. And that night... she was here to help me with our situation. She was talking of you when you came and that's why I was smiling."

"And please stop running away from me. Mew, I- I can't be me if you're not with me. Please don't say things like divorce... I can't live without you," Gulf was once again on the verge of tears. "This past week, I have been missing you so madly. I even started seeing things... You're all I could think about," Gulf said in a breaking voice. Mew moved his head to the crook of Gulf's neck, "I can't live without you either... Please go back to that annoying man you were before your vacation. My heart hurts so much. I can't be without you," Mew's voice was hoarse from crying for hours.

Gulf held Mew's face up, facing his. He asked Mew, "But you did say that you love right?..." Gulf wanted to confirm it again. And it sounded so good from Mew's voice. Mew's face grew roses on it and he shyly nodded. "I need words," Gulf said with a teasing smile decorated on his face. Mew took a deep breath, "I love you, Gulf." Gulf held Mew's neck, "I love you too. I love you so much."

And they kissed again. Gently devouring each other's lips. Feeling a lovely bond form between them. Then Gulf picked Mew in his arms, bridal style, and started walking to the stairs. "Gulf! What are you doing?!" Mew exclaimed, embarrassed. Gulf smiled widely at him, "Don't worry. The kiss was sufficient for me. Or do you wanna have dinner then go to bed?" Mew didn't have to answer through words, his empty stomach growled to be filled. Gulf chuckled and settled Mew on the dining table.

"I'm sorry for not listening to you..... ever," Mew said apologetically. He was sitting on Gulf's lap, and Gulf was feeding him. Mew was really guilty for whatever he had done in the past. Gulf kissed his cheek, "Don't be. You must have your own reasons, I get it. But now, can you love only me. That's all I ask for, Mew. Please," Gulf's eyes were pleading Mew to never leave him again. Mew hugged Gulf's neck, "I'm not leaving you ever again. This week was enough for a lifetime. I love you." Gulf smiled and continued feeding his clingy baby.

***GULF'S ROOM***

Gulf and Mew were lying on the bed. Mew's head was on Gulf's chest and Gulf was patting him gently. "Let's move your stuff in my room tomorrow," Gulf suggested. Mew just agreed. "What if I still miss my mom? I don't want to be without you for a whole weekend," Mew whined. Gulf chuckled, "Then I'll just go with you. I want to meet your mom too." Mew moved his body on top of Gulf and went limp, he was enjoying the fast beats of his husband's heart. "I want to thank her for giving birth to you. And, yes... Please get down or this husband of yours might lose control." Gulf said and Mew quickly slid down beside him.

Gulf hugged Mew tightly and Mew returned it. "Sleep now. We have to go to work tomorrow. Or... do you wanna skip work and cuddle for the whole day?" Gulf offered. Mew hit his chest playfully, "No. We'll go to work," he declared and soon their eyes were getting drowsy.

"You don't know how much I missed you hugging me to sleep" Mew mumbled in his sleep. Gulf kissed Mew's cotton candy lips for the last time and fell asleep too.

*A MONTH LATER*

The couple was more in love than ever. GulfMew started to go to work together. Slowly the whole office was finding out about their marriage but no one dared to let it out. After all, Gulf was only gentle with Mew and to everyone else, he was still the old, strict block of ice. They could only congratulate Mew. And he would just blush and smile at them. Everybody could see the love blooming between the two.

"Are you coming with us for lunch, P'Mew?" Win asked. They were standing near Mew and Wan's workstation. "I think... I'll have to pass. I and Gulf are having lunch with mom in her cabin," Mew smiled. "I never knew that you'd be that honey-sweet to your 'husband', Phi," Wan teased. "Do you want to work overtime for a week, Wan?" Gulf came to them. He wouldn't let anybody tease Mew even if it were Mew's only friends. "No sir. I was just telling P'Mew how much I admire you two," Wan said with a sheepish smile. "Better be true," Gulf remarked.

Gulf stood beside Mew and wrapped an arm around his waist. Mew chuckled at his possessive man and earned a kiss on his cheeks. "Let's go, mom must be waiting," Gulf said and dragged Mew with him.

***MEWGULF HOME***

"Mew, can I ask you something?"

"What is it?"

"Did you never have a friend before Win and Wan? Why are they the only friends you have?"

"I did but then he left me," Mew told his husband. Gulf cuddled closer to Mew. They were lying on their bed. "Why did he leave you?" Gulf asked, annoyed. He could never understand how people could not like a person so good as Mew. Mew smiled sadly, "I don't know."

"Can you tell me about him? I want to know you more," Gulf made pouty lips. "Like you never did any research over me through your spies," Mew scoffed. He didn't know that Gulf never used that method on him. Gulf frowned, "I never did any research on you." Mew was shocked, "So you don't know things about me? Like nothing other than those I told you of?" Gulf nodded. "Why?" Mew asked, confused. Gulf's reply made him fall only more in love with him. He replied, "If it's someone I love, I won't ever do that. It would be stalking. Plus a little secret."

"What secret?"

"My husband is really scary when he is angry. I'm so scared to anger him if I do something like that."

Mew hit Gulf's chest. "Now can you tell me?" Gulf asked after a while. Mew nodded and prepared to tell Gulf about his only childhood friend...

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Who was also his first love?

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I clear one mess and make another one... I'm an idiot. But yeah even after tale, MewGulf will be happy for a long time.

Who do you think will this first love be? It's not Gulf is all that we know.

Please vote and comment.

- Wan <3