Part 32

Veer- ( ray is becoming like dad. He left me speechless. That brat. I started driving, but his words were still in my mind)

Ansh-( he was holding the steering wheel tightly. He was angry. But what's wrong.) Veer, kya hua hai? Aap gussa kyun ho?

Veer- ( as soon as I heard him, I turned my car towards a deserted road. I opened my seat belt along with his.) Get on my lap(he just stared at me with shock) Ansh, GET. ON. MY. LAP.

Ansh- veer, please calm down. Hum baat karte hai aramse.

Veer- JUST FUCKING GET ON MY LAP ANSH.

Ansh-( I flinched badly. He shouted so loudly. )

Veer- ( he slowly got up and was about to sit sideways. I asked him to straddle me. He was shivering.) Look at me. ( his eyes were red and teary) why no one knows that you are married? I am asking something. Don't make me loose my patience. (He was Hiccuping but eventually started speaking)

Ansh- I.. Di.. Didn't want anyone to know, because baba said I should enjoy college life.

Veer- you wanna enjoy being called Ray's boyfriend. ( he was Hiccuping and saying I misunderstood) what's your name? ( he. was looking clueless about my question) I will tell. You are ANSH RAJVEER SINGHANIA. My husband. All mine.

Kiss me ansh. Show me you belong to me. Prove me that you are all mine like you said. Show me. (He slowly started kissing me. But couldn't match the intensity that I had for him) fuck, baby.

( he moved back from the kiss) baby what's wrong?

Ansh- mene kya kiya hai?

Veer- (exactly, he didn't do anything. The look in his eyes made me feel guilty) I am sorry baby. Please, maaf kardo apne veer ko. I was jealous. Jab me college aya, I heard that student say, ansh is with his boyfriend in canteen. I couldn't hold back. You are mine right? How can he say that?

Ansh- ( he is unbelievable. How could he shout at me for such a small thing.i won't let this go or else he will always treat me like this) was I not genuine to you? Kya mera apki taraf joh feelings hai woh apko nazar nae aati? I have accepted you with all my heart. Is that not enough? You are hurting me. I am not liking this treatment of yours. No one ever raised their voice at me. But you... You always treat me like I am a thing that belongs to you. You don't like me. Aap sirf haq jatana jante ho. Apko mujhse emotional attachment kabhi nahi hogi. I doubt, aap sach me mujhse kabhi pyar kar paoge.

Veer- ( he was a crying mess and I was left speechless and stunned by his words. Taking advantage of my state he moved from me and settled in his seat) baby listen to me.

Ansh- mujhe ghar jana hai Rajveer. Abhi.

Veer-(the way he took my name, i knew I fucked up. the whole ride I tried talking to him and but he didn't speak to me. I was getting angry but I need to control myself. Or else my anger will ruin everything. When we reached home. He didn't wait for me and went to his parents house)

Ray- so, you ruined it. ( he turned towards me I can see the regret, but he needs to learn.) I see. Great job bhai.

Veer- ray. It wasn't..

Ray- save it bhai. You need to think again. Do you really want him in your life? Because I will not let you hurt him. I will stand against you if I need to protect him. He likes you bhai, in fact he has started having feelings for you. He has never been in a relationship. He is allowing you to do everything to him as you please, not because he is desperate. He wanna make you feel loved and accepted. He respects you and also scared of you. If you keep doing this, I will involve dad in this along with papa. We will find a nice guy for him.

Veer- ( this was a different ray in front of me. The way he was saying all these things by looking in my eye, I knew he will definitely do it. After all he is just like dad. He turned and left from there. I decided to go to malhotra house. I went to his room and luckily it was unlocked) baby, listen please. Give me chance.

Ansh- apko joh karna hai aap kar chuke. Leave me alone.

Veer- jaan dont be like this. I know my jealousy and possessiveness is overbearing.

Ansh- was it really that? You were not just jealous, you were trying to claim me. Didn't I said I am all yours? Was it not enough? Me koshish kar raha hu. I want to give everything to you. But you make me doubt my worth in your life. When Neel said you don't like me and just want to use my body as you please. I agree I misunderstood you because of him. But i regret that and gave us a new start. I have given you all the rights on me since our wedding. Am I not doing enough?

Veer-( I couldn't hold back and pulled him towards me. I need to clarify this and get him back. I need to tell him that neel has made me feel like this)

Listen to me. Please jaan, just once. I beg you.

Ansh- ( the desperation in his voice made me stunned. He grabbed my head and pulled even closer)

Veer- on our wedding night I got a call from neel. He said you deserve better and I am too old for you. He said you will be disgusted and scared looking at my body. You will leave me and divorce me. No one will love me Or accept me because I am not good enough. I can't let you leave me ansh. The way you accepted me on our wedding night completely after that I can't let you go away from me. Baby please, I am sorry. I feel insecure. You are young and beautiful. I am 8years older than you.

Ansh- ( I was stunned by his confession. My heart aches looking at his crying form. I will show him how much he and this relationship means to me. I hugged him tightly) veer, please stop crying. I am not leaving you. I like you alot. I have feelings for you. I am scared of you. Because you are unreasonable sometimes. You also have to understand me. I can't do this alone you know. We both have to work on this. You are the first man in my life. No one has ever touched me like you did. I would not allow anyone other than you to get close to me. When I was single, that thought didn't cross my mind. And now that I am married to such a good looking man how can I think about someone else. You make feel these things veer. Your touch, your kisses, your closeness, everything gives me butterflies.

Veer- ( I was feeling so good listening to him. He is my everything. I have these feelings for him which I never had for anyone. He kept looking at me with those beautiful teary eyes. I couldn't hold it anymore)

Ansh- veer( yes jaan) let's stay in my room today. Aaj raat yahan so jate hai. Please. I miss my room.

Veer- I don't have clothes here and I can't wear yours like you were mine. Let me go and bring some clothes and essential.

Ansh- no you stay here. I will bring you clothes. Let me just wash my face. Then we will spend sometime together. Humne lunch bhi nahi kiya hai. Let me get your clothes and then we will eat. ( I kissed his cheek and went to wash my face) veer, aap baitho. Me aata hu.

(While getting our things, I was thinking about whatever he said. I will make sure he feel the love and care that I have for him. I will make him completely understand this relationship)

Raj- ansh baby, bag lekar kahan jaa rahe ho? And bag me hai kya?

Ansh- baba, bag me mere and veer ke kapde and kuch shower essentials hai. Hum dono aaj malhotra house me rahenge. And aaj raat aap sab wahin dinner k liye ajana. I am gonna cook. Me chalta hu, veer mera wait kar rahe hai. Mumma, what you cooked?

Richa- I made chicken and rice. Salad bhi hai.

Ansh- thik hai. Humne lunch nahi kiya hai so isliye pucha.

Richa- achha thik hai. Jao ab and lunch kar lena.

Ansh- ok. Bye everyone. (I saw him lying on my bed with his face buried in my pillow. Is he crying?. I went towards him and ran my hand through his hair) veer, aap thik ho? Kya hua?

Veer- this pillow has your fragrance baby. I love your fragrance alot. Come here jaan. Let me hold you, feel you.

Ansh- no, first we will have lunch. Aapne bhi kuch nae khaya hai. Mujhe bhi bhuk lagi hai. Chalo jaldi ab. (I saw him just holding the spoon and not eating) kya hua? Achha nahi hai, kuch or bana du?

Veer- tum khalo. I am not in the mood.

Ansh- (I stared at him and got up from my chair. I went towards him and sat on his lap. He held me in a flash. I took the morsel near his mouth)

Veer- baby, what are doing? You don't have to. Eat your food. Go.

Ansh- Agar apka dhyan hota, toh aap notice karte that I already ate. Now your turn. Come on, open up. I am gonna feed ny husband.

Veer- how can you forgive me so easily?

Ansh- because I like you. I want us to spent our life together veer. Me nahi chahta ki koi bhi aye or hamare rishte me darar daalke chala jaye. Kisi bhi Neel ki baaton me itni power nae honi chahiye ki hamara rishta kharab ho and aap mujhse disrespectfully behave kare. ( I kissed his forehead) now come on eat. Fir hume sona bhi hai. Aaj I am gonna cook for everyone. Mene sabse keh diya hai ki yahin aaye dinner k liye.

( they both had dinner and went inside ansh's room and while talking to each other they slept. Veer was holding him so close as if he will run away)