• Would've •

Sinn's POV

Leonardo was briefing everyone on our next mission when I indulged in my thoughts.

I could still hear him and process every word he was muttering but at the same time, I was also lost in my thoughts.

It's what I do whenever something's occupying my thoughts but I still have a lot of work to do cause we always do.

And now what occupied my thoughts was her.

Talking about that night was easier than I had imagined it to be, I didn't think she would also want to talk about the same thing; to keep our boundaries.

I don't regret the little moment between us at the Astor mansion, it was the only thing that made my insides fill with desire but I should've known better.

The world we live in won't approve of this, he won't approve of it.

The little conversation Papa Dino had with her should've been enough to make me stop whatever this was and get back to my senses.

And then he told me that day;

"I expect no stupidity from you Sinn," he glanced at me after we were finished with the Astor family.

She and the rest had already left the premises and it was just us three and Papa Dino's men.

Leonardo and Yuri couldn't hear what he was saying cause they were at a distance from where we were standing.

"Don't make me step in." His words were simple and clear but held warning in them which I grasped.

I didn't reply anything to it and just bowed down to him as he left with his men.

I was dragged out of my thoughts when she mentioned his name.

"So it's up to me however I deal with Seth?" She asked raising her brow and Leonardo nodded his head.

"We have nothing to do with him, our target is his brother. You're free to deal however you want with him." He told her and a slight smirk formed on her face.

"Don't take your words back." She pointed at him and Leonardo chuckled, "The Three Devils are true to their words." She smirked and then stood up.

"So when do I start?" She asked and Leonardo replied, "Probably a month from now, we're still discussing."

She nodded her head. Mattheo and Luca were sitting beside her and looked up at her who was now standing.

Mattheo and Luca seemed reasonable guys to me. From what I have observed thus far, they pose no threat to her. Of any kind.

Especially Mattheo, that guy seems like a genuine person who cares for her. Platonically.

They're platonic. If they weren't, I wouldn't try to initiate anything with her.

But if something was only from his side, that would've been a whole other story.

Cause if he would've tried to make her uncomfortable like how Spencer made her, he would get the same outcome as that guy. But if he weren't doing any of that, there would've been no problem.

I don't care about anyone else's feelings, the only one who matters is her and if she would've refused me that night, I would've backed off.

If only I wasn't involved in this business and there weren't any Papa Dino involved, things would've been much different than they are now.

I wouldn't have had to keep my distance from her. But she wanted the same thing. It's her who asked me for it before I could.

So what's been occupying my thoughts is did she regret it? She would've.

But why is it making me feel upset? Is it my ego that's hurt? Can't be, my ego doesn't intervene in matters like these.

But it's for the best if she regretted it. It'll make it easier for both of us to keep our distance.

Without glancing at any of them, I exited the room climbing the stairs to my room.

It's upsetting thinking she regrets it.

I tried to clear my thoughts. This shall pass as everything else did in my life.

I've been through worse hell, something like this holds nothing to them. But she's starting to feel she's far superior to anything in my life and I don't know what to do about that.

I opened my eyes which I didn't realize I had shut maybe because I want to shut everything. These feelings. Her.

I looked out from my balcony, gripping the railing.

It's time to clean my thoughts.

Layla's POV

It was midnight and I still couldn't sleep. It has been a few hours since the meeting ended and Sinn left the room without paying a look at anyone.

He didn't glance my way the entire time. Not even once.

Well, I should be relieved that we're following what we agreed on but still, what do I do about the fucking feeling? It feels like I'm upset when I should be happy that I'm not messing up my work life.

My thoughts were too much to handle in this room so I crawled out of bed and decided to go downstairs to the living room.

Everyone must be sleeping or either working so there is a high chance no one would be using the living room.

I walked down the stairs and into the moonlit living room. I had my headphones on cause music always helps me calm down.

I entered the living room and my heart jumped when I saw a shadow there. I froze in my steps not even breathing.

Just when I thought it'll be better to just turn around and walk away it was too late. I saw Sinn walking in the living room with blood on his hands and a bit sprinkled on his face.

He didn't seem to notice me at first but when I didn't move he was quick to note someone else was present there other than him.

His eyes flashed onto me and I saw they were cold. A lot colder compared to the one they were the first time I met him which made a shiver run down my spine.

But a part of me that felt upset now felt ecstatic that he looked at me after not passing a single look throughout the entire meeting. Even if his gaze were capable of freezing me to death.

However, the state which he was in made me think it was better to excuse myself and give him some space.

But when I was finally leaving I heard the sound of liquid dripping which made me stop. I turned my head and lowered my gaze towards his fingers from where blood was dripping down on the floor.

My eyes widened and concern filled my insides as I removed my headphones to rest on my neck and took large steps in his direction.

"Your bleeding!" I held his hand examining it. Even if it must've been hurting he didn't show it when I held his hand.

He was wearing full sleeves so I tried to fold his sleeve to see where it was bleeding from but he pried his hand away from me.

He didn't say anything but I was still feeling worried that it might be a serious wound cause he was bleeding a lot.

"Sinn, let me check you're bleeding a lot-"

"It's fine. I'm used to these scratches." He dismissed it as it happens daily. I stared at him in disbelief.

"Scratch? A scratch doesn't make you bleed like this." I was growing impatient seeing him lose so much blood but he was still unfazed by any of it.

I was reaching for his arm once more when he stepped back putting some distance between us. I stopped in my steps when I saw him do so and I'll be lying if I said it didn't hurt my feelings.

"I told you I'm used to it. I can take care of myself." His voice was stern and laced with frustration.

I pulled my hand away and crossed them against my chest as I continued staring at him.

"Weren't you the one who lectured me it's not something to be proud of getting used to?" I asked him from the first few days when I just came here and he bandaged my hand, the very first time he showed any care.

Now looking back, it's almost a year since I came here.

He shot his eyes at me, his gaze was fierce like he was trying to contain his anger.

"The more you leave them untreated, they'll turn into scars and haunt you for life," I repeated the exact words he told me that day and I noticed him clenching his jaw.

The sound of his blood dripping on the floor could still be heard as he muttered, "I also told you you're annoying." His tone remained the same as before, stern.

"I'd like you to stay out of my business, it's best for the both of us." He more like ordered me sternly and left with his bleeding arm while I stayed back in the moonlit living room with a sinking feeling in my stomach.

The next few months till the mission in this place are going to be painful.

I never thought I'd want something like this but I can't wait to start with this fucking mission.