Chapter 91 - What’s Wrong With Abandoning Your Parents And Younger Siblings
I Won't Go Back to My Family Who Abandoned Me
Chapter 91. Whatâs Wrong With Abandoning Your Parents And Younger Siblings
âDonât worry, Irene. Father and I are looking for ways to regain our abilities.â
It was just as she put her luggage in her room. Emil, whoâd followed her in, said this to Irene and expected her to feel relieved.
However, Irene looked at him as if she didnât understand.
âWhy?â
âWhat?â
âDo you need to find your ability again?â
Emil could not hide his confusion at the look on her face, as if he was doing something useless.
âWhat are you talking about, Irene? Of course, I canât live without it.â
âI donât need it.â
âAre you serious?â
âYes, itâs better without it.â
Leaving behind Emil, who was looking flabbergasted, Irene recalled a time from when she was staying at her maternal uncleâs estate.
It felt like something was disappearing from her. The more she tried to grasp it, the emptier she felt.
It was so strange, when she tried to use simple magic, there was no response.
At first, she was embarrassed and scared. The significance of her existence had always been due to her magical ability. When her magic power suddenly disappeared, she was afraid of how she would live in the future.
However, as time passed and her mind calmed down, she thought it was for the best. She felt that sheâd finally been given the opportunity to live for herself.
It was difficult at first for her to get over the pressure and anxiety to meet her fatherâs expectations, and solely focus on herself, but later she began to feel more comfortable. At the same time, she blamed herself, and regretted it.
âMy family wasnât normal.â
She didnât know it at the time. It was so natural to keep each other in check and compete, so she thought it was normal. No, she was so busy showing her father her results that she didnât even have time to think about it.
A father, who was always cracking the whip; and a mother, who turned a blind even though she knew everything. Then there was Diana, who would belittle and demean others; Emil, who was vain; and Xavier, who only cared for himself.
âIâm the same too.â
Irene smiled bitterly, and sighed. Whatâs the difference between her, a selfish person who didnât want to suffer any damage, and her family?
âSo, itâs better now.â
It was too much of an ability for her from the beginning. Since this was how it was going to be anyway, Irene was just going to use this as an opportunity to decide her own future.
However, Emil looked at her as if sheâd lost her mind.
âAre you crazy? Does it make sense that you arenât going to even try, and find your ability?â
âDoes it make sense to make a big fuss over it?â
âIRENE LEROY.â
âIs that all youâre worth?â
âWhat?â
âDo you lose all of your value just because your ability is gone?â
Irene looked straight at Emil as she asked. Her expression was one of pure curiosity, rather than scorn.
Not liking the way she was looking at him, Emil burst into a fierce laugh.
âThen why did you return? You should go live quietly on Uncleâs land.â
âI didnât come here because I wanted to.â
When her ability disappeared, she thought she should go home as soon as possible. The next day, after she had time to calm down, she thought there was no need to go after all.
However, she was forced to return home after her family convinced her uncle that they were worried about her since sheâd been gone for so long.
âIâll be going back soon, so you can relax. Also, thereâs no reason to put in any effort, because your ability will never come back.â
âHow do you know that?â
âJust a feeling?â
It was a strong hunch that she couldnât explain in words.
She was a little sad that she couldnât use her ability in the future, but she was still able to laugh because she felt more relieved and refreshed than anything else.
Emil just looked at Irene in frustration, and said.
âStop talking nonsense, and get a hold of yourself. We need to find a way to get our abilities back.â
âBrother.â
At her serious expression, Emil breathed a sigh of relief. He thought Irene had finally come back to her senses.
âIf you have time to look for your ability, you have time to think of how to live in the future.â
âWhat?â
âYou have a smart head, how are you going to use it?â
Emil didnât even chuckle as he looked her up and down as if she was pathetic. However, Ireneâs next words froze him in place.
âOh, thatâs right. You lost your ability. Is that why your brain isnât working right?â
âYouâ¦â
Emilâs hands trembled when Irene opened her eyes wide, as if sheâd only just realized it. An unbearable anger soared within him at her obnoxious sarcasm.
âYouâll regret it if I find out how to restore our abilities.â
âYou wonât tell me? Thatâs fine, you can do that.â
Rather, she didnât have much interest in what he wanted.
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âThank you for coming like this, Miss Aster.â
âThank you for inviting me to the tea party, Miss Melony.â
Seeing Count Melonyâs daughter welcoming him, Leticia smiled.
At the party thrown by Count and Countess Aster, Leticia happened to have a conversation with Melony, who was surprisingly easy to communicate with and easy-going. The next day, Melony sent an invitation, and asked if she wanted to come to a tea party she was hosting if she didnât mind.
At first, she was worried about whether she should really go. However, she ended up accepting the invitation because she thought it wouldnât be a bad thing to become acquainted with other young noble ladies.
âOh, itâs Miss Aster, right?â
âItâs nice to meet you, Miss Aster.â
âLetâs have a good time today.â
Everyone looked surprised, as if they didnât expect her to come, but soon they welcomed her with big smiles.
The tea party was so much fun that it overshadowed her nervousness. It was their first time meeting Leticia, but they were able to hold many conversations without excluding her.
âI heard youâre engaged to Duke Achilles.â
Everyoneâs attention suddenly focused on her. Leticia, who was eating freshly baked cherry pie, smiled quietly after a moment of bewilderment.
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âOh, my. Is he good to you?â
âI heard heâs really sweet to you.â
When Leticia just smiled softly as if they were right, everyone began to ask more questions with curious expressions.
âThatâs right. I heard he was only nice to the young miss. Is that true?â
Leticia paused for a moment, then she nodded firmly, unable to resist the twinkles in their eyes.
âYes, I think heâs only kind to me.â
When she answered with great conviction in her voice, everyone sighed with looks of envy, or regret.
That was when a maid brought in a familiar dessert. A surprised Leticia looked at Melony, who just lightly shrugged her shoulders.
âThis isâ¦â
Leticia muttered without realizing it, and picked up a dessert. It was almost too âplayfulâ to be a dessert.
âThe lucky cookies made by Miss Aster are popular at tea parties these days.â
Melony had been smiling for a while, and slowly distributed the lucky cookies to the other young ladies. She heard that the cookies were handed out at tea parties. It looked like they did this because of the kind words, and good advice written on the paper inside.
Melony glanced at Leticia, who was touching her cookie with an expression of wonder, and said.
âI barely managed to get these.â
âI had no idea.â
Leticia knew that the cookies were selling well. What she didnât know was that they were difficult for even nobles to get a hold of.
âIf you donât mind, can I send some to you next time?â
âReally?â
âI want some too. Could you send some to me as well?â
âIâm thinking of having a tea party soon, so Iâd like to get some too.â
At this unexpected suggestion, everyone whoâd been quietly listening to the conversation began to interrupt. As they tilted towards her, Leticia smiled gently and nodded.
âOf course, Iâll send some to everyone here.â
âThank you, Miss Aster.â
âThanks to you, Iâll have something to brag about.â
After that, the conversations that followed were filled with smiles. Leticia was in a relaxed mood, and chimed in as the ladies talked about other young lords and ladies, but that pleasant feeling didnât last long.
âDid you hear the news?â
âWhat news?â
âYou know⦠about the extinct family.â
Leticia, whoâd been drinking tea with a slight smile, paused for a moment.
The conversation continued.
âIt seems a child of that family is still alive.â
âI thought they were all executed.â
âThatâs what I thought as well, but thereâs been disturbances here and there.â
âI heard theyâre eager to catch them because of that.â
They were talking about Keena Erebos. All the young ladies began to talk about how scared they were, and whether they should even go out.
During all of this, Leticia was the only one who drank her tea quietly, as she felt detached from it all.
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âThank you for inviting me, Miss Melony. I had a great time.â
âThank you very much for coming, Miss Aster. Please come again next time.â
Leticia sighed as soon as she entered the carriage after saying some light goodbyes. When stories about Keena started to circulate, somehow she felt like an uninvited guest, and had trouble concentrating on the tea party.
In the end, she decided to leave for the Achilles mansion earlier than she expected, so she gave the excuse that she was feeling unwell. As she looked out the window to soothe her frustration, she suddenly paled at something she saw.
âHold on!â
Leticia yelled for the carriage to quickly stop, and then ran to the poster as soon as she alighted from the carriage. A familiar face was drawn on the wall.
âWhyâ¦â
Leticia couldnât believe what she was seeing, so she looked at it again. Still, Keenaâs description was written very specifically on the wanted poster. Leticiaâs lips quivered as she read out the phrase that said that she wasnât a rebel, but that she was rampaging everywhere, and to report her immediately if seen.
âI donât think sheâs the kind of person who would do something like that.â
But did she truly know anything about her?
Keena appeared at will, and offered to help when she wanted. It was also true that they had a slight affinity for each other, but it wasnât that long ago that she broke into the mansion, and stole Leticiaâs book.
Nevertheless, Keena was someone who kept bothering her because she felt sorry for her.
âI wonder if itâs trueâ¦â
She didnât think Keena would do this. However, she wondered if she would for the sake of revenge.
âEven so.â
She wanted to believe that she wasnât that kind of person.
At that time, she heard movement behind her. Leticia looked behind her, and hardened as soon as she saw who it was.
âItâs been a while.â
It was Marquis Leroy.
As soon as they made eye contact, Leticia had the strong urge to leave immediately. Marquis Leroy didnât seem uncomfortable, and even gave her a sweet and friendly smile for the first time in her life.
His relaxed attitude said that heâd already expected her to be here.
As the number of eyes on them increased, Leticia was forced to move to a different location with the Marquis.
She sincerely hoped that this mysterious foreboding was just her imagination.
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âHow have you been?â
ââ¦.â
Leticia clenched her hands, and kept her mouth shut.
She didnât want to say anything, and wanted the time to pass quickly.
When there was no answer from Leticia, the Marquis smiled coldly, and said.
âWe should try to get along. Does it make sense if you donât get along with your parents and younger siblings?â
âJust say what you want to say.â
Marquis Leroy looked disapprovingly at Leticia, whose expression didnât change even after heâd used a criticizing tone, and sighed briefly.
âI know that Iâve made you sad.â
ââ¦.â
âBut thatâs because I couldnât be sincere. It was all because I wanted you to do well.â
ââ¦.â
âThatâs how a parent feels. Even if I wanted to cherish you endlessly, I have no choice but to be harsh with my children.â
ââ¦â
âI thought you understood that.â
What should she say?
Leticia let out a short laugh at what heâd said so casually. Sure, her head understood, but her heart didnât.
âDid you kick me out because you wanted me to do well?â
âLeticia.â
âShould I understand that everything that happened was supposed to be, and hope that it would all work out?â
It was all nonsense from the beginning.
Her family abandoned her because they judged her to be filthy and useless.
âWhatâs wrong with abandoning your parents and younger siblings? Iâm the one who was abandoned first.â