Chapter 5

NICK POV

What the hell happened? How the hell am I standing infront of the diner ?

After the cafe incident with Luke which was a week ago now I am back to the same town that my family lives and I couldn't get myself to go straight home maybe because I have missed oreo milkshake right? Right? Until the door was being pulled and all I could see is Hazel eyes staring straight into my eyes and it was filled with.....relief ? I don't think so.

Neither of us moved until someone hit him straight in the head.

"Hey fatty move aside no one is interested in seeing you blocking the way or are you stuck and don't fit to walk through the door." He smacked his head again and pushed him aside and walked out. WTF? the hazel eyes which were relief now is blurry with tears and For some reason I was furious.

I saw my self walking towards the asshole and pulled him back and punched him in the face twice and pushed him.

I turned around and my hazel boy wasn't there. Wait MY? I searched for him and found him on the back of diner sitting on stairs were I left him 2 years ago before the hell goes down. I ran to him and got on my knees.

"Hey are you ok?" He nodded his head and that pout made him so cute. I wanted to wipe his tears and I was like fuck it and held his round chubby face in my palms and wiped his tears with my thumbs his eyes widened.

"Are you sure your ok?" He sniff. I felt like squeezing his cheeks or better yet bite them in loving way.

"I am fine and used to it , sorry." He whispered. And he had angelic voice.

"Used to it?" He nodded.

"People body shame me because of my size." He sniffed and tears fell. He may not be skinny but he is perfect round shape or maybe he is just perfect for me. Without thinking I embraced him in my arms and held him close. Trust me he fits to me perfectly I don't care if people will judge. Its their work to judge right and all we have to do is ignore.

"Hey you're perfect don't think otherwise ok?" he nodded his head I pulled away and he pouted without realizing. He whispered something I couldn't hear him.

"come again." He blushed. God so cute.

"Where have y-you b-been for the p-past 2 years." It was so slow that I barely heard but I heard it clearly. I was shook like I thought maybe it was one sided thingy.

"missed me?" I teased him he nodded his head I chuckled. For some reason I felt I could trust him and I did. I told him everything from A to Z. I was sitting next to him on stairs.

"Will you go home now?" I can't get enough of his voice.

"Hmm ya I miss my parents and him but I don't think so I can forget those words easily." He was quiet just listening.

"Its ok he is your brother that doesn't mean he should've said that but you know you can take time in forgiving him." I looked at him I couldn't turn my head. I smiled.

"Thankyou so much its just I don't know what to feel right now. He broke my heart and I had nightmares because of that and if I'm being honest I don't want to even face him despite I miss him but can't have it in me to forgive him yet."

"If you feel low you know where to find me." Can I kiss him? Can I ? Can I ? Once again fuck it. I leaned in and pecked his cheek and that cheek was turned into rose shade. I rested my forehead on his shoulder and o man his smell is just like you walked in garden filled with flowers and roses. I kissed his shoulder before getting up.

"See you soon cutie." I winked and walked towards my car.

Drive back home was nerve wrecking and I was beyond nervous and now here I am back home so I walked in only to stop at the door. I took a deep breath and walked in it was weird feeling I don't know why and all the emotion came back when I saw them sitting at the dinning table Papa , Dad , Finn and Justin and no one said anything and they ate silently but Papa didn't even touch the spoon.

"Papa , Dad." My voice cracked and all of them turned and looked at me with mix emotions and that broke my Papa he ran to me and took me in his arms. God I have missed this so much I finally felt home.

"Where have you been? You know how much I wanted to hold you in my arms ? How much we searched for you? Do you have any idea?" Papa broke down completely and I just hugged him tight and cried with him and Dad hugged us both and kissed my head.

"Son I am so happy that you finally came." After a long hug I wiped Papa's tears and kissed his forehead and kissed Dad's head.

"I missed you both so much and I'm sorry Papa I'm sorry Dad I just couldn't bring myself back here sooner." Papa gave me wet kisses all over my face and I laughed lot. We pulled back and Justin and Finn were standing far and Justin just walked and said hey I just nodded my head.

I just took their appearance. Papa has lost a lot of weight , Dad looks older than his age and Finn looks like he haven't slept since years.

Just than Finn walked towards me and I moved back so he stopped.

"Sorry that I am in front of you but don't worry not for long." I was shocked due to my voice sounding so cold. But he have hurt me the most.

"What you mean Nick baby." I looked at Papa And I felt bad for saying what am about to say.

"I have a life where I came from. I'm here for a little time." Papa and Dad looked mad and Papa held me tight.

"No you ain't going anywhere please baby don't leave us and go again please." Papa yelled and tighten his grip on me.

"Papa wasn't I suppose to disappear? But I came for you and Dad since I promised you."

"Please son don't leave us again if not for me then for your Papa please son." I can't do this but Papa is broken and I cannot break him more.

"I'll think about it." I hugged my Papa and we walked to living room and from the side I saw Finn sobbing in Justin's arms. Sorry lil bro but you broke me.

After a while I was sitting between Dad and Papa and they held me tight yet so softly like they were scared either I will disappear or break well I am already isn't?

"What's with the look son? Why beards?"

"Just didn't feel like shaving."

The whole night we sat and talk and it felt good and we said good night and I went to my room it looked exactly the same like I wasn't gone anywhere It felt good then I took shower and when I was done I went had dinner came back in room and was about to sleep just realized I didn't ask his name. I smiled remembering his rosy cheeks.

The next day felt strange yet familiar feeling and seems like I over slept so I changed and went down and was greeted by entire family. Uncle Kai came and hugged me and one by one all hugged and Adam cried and I jus held him like always.

"You promised to meet me but you just vanished." I remember.

"Sorry just unexpected things happens." I smiled and pulled back and Daniel hugged me tight.

"Missed you asshole." I chuckled.

"Me too man."

"You look like man." I laughed and pushed him back I guess I hugged everyone except 2 people and its gonna be that way for a while.

After that we all sat and talked it was nice but not completely. Suddenly my phone rang it was Luke so I picked the call.

"Hey bro." I noticed Finn's blurry eyes maybe because I never call anyone bro other than him. And everyone seemed to notice but I could care less.

"Where are you? I have been knocking at the door. And there is a delivery for you."

"O shoot Luke do me a favor just receive it and keep it with you till am back." I remembered that I ordered a book online just forgot about it.

"And what do you say for that?" I chuckled.

"Pleasssseee." He laughed. That boy can be annoy but he is good.

"Thank you bro see you soon bye." we hung up and I looked up all were looking at me and I cleared my throat And no one asked about 'till am back.'

I was grateful after spending time everyone left except for Adam and he asked me to spend some times with him so we went to the park with my car so I can drop him later. After a walk and we spoke a lot about those 2 years except there was something he wanted to say but he didn't.

After a while he said he wants ice cream and the only place was nearby is the diner I was happy I might see him. So we walked in and there he is when he saw me he gave me a big smile that brighten my day but that last for seconds because when Adam held my arm and gave me a pout , his bright smile disappeared and he moved back. I didn't understand what happened. After Adam ordered we sat and talked a little more and he just kissed me on my cheek it was clear the hazel eyes saw that and in matter of seconds he disappeared and I couldn't find him so we walked out and I was dropping Adam.

"I want to say you something and no one knows yet." I raised my eyebrow.

"Ok go on." He took a deep breath.

"Ok here goes nothing. I have been in love with." Love? Wow.

"With?" He blushed but same time I noticed the tears. I was curious now.

"With."

"....."

"IAN." OKAAY.

"Um ok so whats wrong with that?"

"A lot."

"Like?"

"Amber."

"Whose that?"

"His girlfriend." I closed my eyes.

"Does he know?"

"No."

"Will you tell him?"

"No."

"Why?"

"He loves her and he is straight."

"How do you know?"

"He is my bestfriend."

"Did you try saying him?"

"No."

"Try!"

"No."

"You wont know until you try right?" He wiped his tears.

"Bu-" I cut him.

"No buts Adam as you said if he is your bestfriend he will understand you for sure and if he didn't I will punch him like his brother." I chuckled remembering the worst day of our life.

"Fine but I'll think about it." I smiled and hugged him.

We said bye and he left and I drove back to the diner when I didn't find him in I went back of diner but he wasn't there. Maybe he left.

So I went back home and when I reached I noticed Finn sitting on stairs so I just walked passed him only to stop mid way because he held my wrist.

"Can w-we please talk?" He whispered , can we? Am I ready? Nope.

"There is nothing to talk about." I pulled my hand and left him standing there.

When I got in my room I felt annoyed I don't know why , my eyes blurred and I went to my comfort zone and knocked the door and when the door opened it revealed topless Dad and I hugged him tight and I broke down I tried controlling my emotions but its Dad and Papa who I can not hide my emotions in front of.

"What's wrong son?" He tightened his grip around me and Papa ran came to us and hugged us both.

"What happened baby?" I love my parents so much.

"I d-don't know what to feel. I f-feel empty at the same time. I don't know what to do. Every time I see him , his words run in my head and I feel absolutely shit." I sobbed and my parents just held me. After a while Dad asked me to sleep with them.

For the first time I don't feel old and I feel am just that 5 years old when I used to run and come to my parents whenever I had a bad dream.

The whole night Papa held me and Dad played with my hairs and they told me that everything is going to be fine.