Pregnant And Rejected By My Alpha Mate By Caroline Above Chapter 20
Pregnant And Rejected
Chapter 20 Bastien And Arabella Buy Rings Seleneâs POV Drake sits across from me, appearing surprised but sympathetic as he processes my revelation.
âBastien doesnât know?â He asks.
âNo.â I confirm simply, âAnd heâs not going to find out.â I rub the back of my neck, âOur situation has always been complicated, but Bastien is a good man. If he found out the truth he would never go through with the rejection, and I wonât have him stay with me out of pity or obligation.â
âFor what itâs worth,â Drake offers kindly, âI think heâs a fool for wanting to reject you at all.â
âThen youâre one of the few.â I reply honestly.
He frowns, âIs the baby the reason youâre leaving?â
âItâs the reason I realized I had to go,â I confess, âBut in all honesty I donât think I could have stayed either way. I donât want to watch Bastien marry someone else.â Hot tears burn my eyes, âAnd Iâm sick of being the pack side show. I need a fresh start, someplace where nobody knows me. Where my baby and I can be safe.â
Drake squeezes my hand. âI understand.â I swipe at an escaped tear and he offers me his napkin. I take it with appreciation, dabbing my eyes. âIf you want to come to Asphodel, I will help you in any way I can. Weâll find you a place to live, a job, weâll introduce you to the pack as a distant cousin and never mention the Novas at all.â
I blink in surprise, a kernel of hope blooming in my chest. âWhat about your father?â
âMy father is getting older, most pack business has been under my control for a few years now.â Drake explains. âIf I tell him it is important we help you, on your terms, he will respect my decision.â
âI donât understand why you would do this for me.â I state warily.
âHas the world truly been so cruel to you that kindness is cause for such suspicion?â From anyone else the words might have sounded self-righteous or judgemental, but from Drake they merely sounded aggrieved.
âYes.â I confirm icily, âIt has.â
He frowns deeply, taking my hand again. âIâm sorry, Selene.â He professes, âIt wonât have to be that way for much longer.â
âTruly?â I ask in disbelief.
âTruly.â He vows, âHave you thought about how you want to do it?â
âHow Iâm going to leave, you mean?â
âYes.â
âNot really, Iâve mostly been thinking about the afterâ part of the equation.â I wince at my own shortsightedness.
âThatâs alright.â Drake insists.
âIt has to be soon.â | announce abruptly, âbefore he can figure out that Iâm with pup.â
âDonât worry.â He advises, âWeâll come up with a plan together. By this time next week, it will be like you were never here.â
1 Day Until the Rejection Ceremony The day before our rejection ceremony | slip away to Elysiumâs shopping center, intent on purchasing new clothes and supplies for my imminent departure. Drake and I talked for many hours on Sunday, laying out plans for my flight from Elysium.
He helped me realize that slipping away in the night would not be enough to truly escape. As I already suspected, Gabriel and Bastienâs sense of responsibility for my wellbeing would result in a search, one that would extend into Eros territory and may not be thwarted by the Alphaâs protection alone.
If I truly want to be free of my past, I must sever myself from it completely, leaving no room for doubt or second guesses among those I leave behind. It had not been easy for Drake to convince me to fake my death. After all, I do not want to hurt the people! love with such a cruel lie, but in the end I saw that there is no other way.
The only chance I have to start fresh is if I end my old life once and for all. My past cannot catch up to me if no one ever comes looking for me, and the only way to keep my baby safe from the likes of Arabella, is to make her believe it does not exist.
I know a day may come when I regret these decisions, but for now the desire to turn over a new leaf is so overwhelming that I feel nothing but relief.
As I stroll through the mall, more and more bags accumulating on my arms, I let myself imagine my new life. I dream of my baby, of the home I will build and life I will lead. I dream of being normal, rather than some pathetic victim; an incomplete wolf so broken that I cease to have a place in the pack.
I start to feel warm and light, as if I am walking on air. Every purchase I make is another step forward, another puzzle piece bringing me closer to my goal. I do not think about the pain I will cause, only the joy to be found ahead.
Then I see them.
Through the shining glass window of a high end jewelry store, I can clearly make out Bastien and Arabella bent over a jewelry counter, wide smiles on their faces.
Irrational hurt lances through me. After all, here I am daydreaming about faking my death and putting people I love through great pain, yet I have the temerity to feel affronted by my contract husband planning his own future with the woman he loves.
Then again, love is never rational and Goddess help me, I do love Bastien.
I do not know when Arabella was released from the hospital, but she looks perfectly well now. She is beaming, so full of love and beauty that my stomach revolts â not that this is anything new. These days Iâm nauseous more often than not.
Perhaps it is the fact that our rejection is still before us. Bastien and I are still married for the time being, and it seems wildly insensitive and disrespectful for them to be publicly advertising their relationship this way.
I stride across the atrium in a daze, coming to stand at the entrance of the jewelry store with blazing eyes and flushed cheeks. *Please tell me I am not seeing what I think I am.
Bastien and Arabella turn toward me in surprise, and I find myself shrinking back, unsure of where I found that sudden wave of confidence.
âSelene â
âLet me, Bastien.â Arabella cuts him off, placing a graceful hand on his arm. âAfter all, jewelry is womenâs business.â
My husbandâs face twists up in concern and confusion, but Arabella is already striding toward me. She links her arm with mine as if we are old friends, pulling me out of the doorway and away from the windows so we wonât be overheard.
âWe are still married you know,â I remind her hotly.
âYes, youâre married.â Arabella drawls, âFor one more day. After that heâs mine. If I were you, Iâd let it go before you make things even more uncomfortable than they already are.â
âYouâve got a lot of nerve.â I tell her. âFirst with the stairs, and now this. Are you really so desperate that you cannot wait until the papers are signed?â
âSweetheart the moment the papers are signed Bastien and I are going to be married. We have to have a ring in advance otherwise weâd have to wait even longer.â Arabella croons, âAnd weâre done waiting.
Youâve kept us apart long enough.â
âThat was never my decision or choice.â I argue.
âWhat, like it was mine?â She hisses, baring her teeth. âI didnât have any more say in this than you did, and itâs worse for me.â Arabella insists. âYou might be his mate, but that bond is not a choice. He loves me so much that your bond seems like nothing in comparison. He loves me so much that he is forsaking what nature ordained.â
I stumble backward, not understanding her strange words. She pursues me, a wolf stalking a rabbit, âYouâve stood in the way of that love, love so powerful even the Goddess cannot break it.â She growls.
âDoes that make you proud? Are you happy to know how badly youâve ruined our lives?â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â I insist.
âOh yes you do.â She snaps, âYou know exactly what youâve done and if you think that brat youâre carrying can change anything now, youâre sorely mistaken.â
âThat brat.â I repeat harshly, âYou mean the baby you tried to kill? Your husbandâs child?â My anger raises empty threats to my lips, âhow do you think Bastien would feel if he knew what you tried to do to his heir?â
Some of Arabellaâs composure slips, and her blue eyes flash, âBut heâs not going to know, is he Selene?â She retorts, âDonât forget you showed your hand.â Her clawlife fingers catch my chin, tugging it up so I have to look her in the eye. âYou donât want him to know. You want to leave but youâll never be able to get away if he finds out the truth.â
âMaybe not, but I might be able to show him what a snake you are.â I combat, âAnd thatâs got to be worth something.â
Pure rage bleeds into Arabellaâs saccharine expression, âIf you say so much as one word to him, I will finish what I started in the hospital.â She threatens. âIf you want your baby to live, youâll keep your mouth shut.â She growls, âAnd when you leave, you will never come back.â