chapter 22

Days we both spent together were the golden period of my life. But everything turned upside down when my father came to know about our relationship.He was indignant once he learn about our relationship. I never thought to hurt my love. So I decided to hide this matter from her. I said I had some important work and leaving her alone in Bangalore I traveled to my home.Thanks to God. My mom and sister supported my decision and they convinced my father in my behalf. At last, he accepted our relationship and asked me to take her home.I was on cloud nine. There was a family gathering, so I stayed there for another week. In those days I realised that I couldn't live without her. Every second passed like a year and my heart longed to see her beautiful face and to have her in my embrace. Every day she called me and everything she would utter is, "Come fast! I miss you!" Those words smitten my mind and I was in the urge to see her.But when I reached, she was not there in our home. I tried to reach her but in vain. She returned home around 11 and I saw her boss dropped her home. All my frustrations got disappeared once I saw her beautiful face.I didn't waste another second. I just run towards her and hugged her tightly to feel her warmth. She hugged me back but that was something different. "What happened to her?" I thought. "How was your journey? Have you had a good time with your family?" She asked with a smile but that smile didn't reached eyes."Yeah! I had a good time but I missed you terribly" I replied what I truly felt, she smiled and left the place to get freshen up."Why she is behaving weirdly?" I thought but only she has the answer. We both had our dinner in complete silence."I have a good news for you" I said cheerfully to change her mindset. "I too have something to share" she replied which was a quite surprise."Tell me Hari, what's that?" I asked making her sit on my lap.She looked into my eyes. "I think this is the time to settle in our life" she said not averting her gaze from my face, I smiled because I too thought to open up about our marriage but my smile shattered hearing her next statement."So let's end our relationship at this point and move on in our life" she said looking straight into my eyes, I just couldn't believe my ears. I'm sure it's not a dream because I know the dreams are reflection of our thoughts. Even in my dreams, I never imagined her seperation.I never imagined my life without you! "Where were you lost? I'm talking to you" she said standing away from me. "Why are you talking like this Harini? Why should we end our relationship?" I asked controlling my tears."Then do you want me to continue our relationship like this forever?" She asked crossing her arms."Hey! I never said that. Don't worry, let's get married soon. Don't you believe me Harini? How could you think like this? Do you think that I'll leave you when it's time to marriage?" This time my voice was also broken like my heart."No Karthik! I know how sincere you're. But do you think that this relationship will work?" Her words creating a Strom inside me."Harini, what do you mean?" Yes I was really confused. Is she my Harini? "Okay Karthik, let me come to the point. Just tell me how could we both lead our life? Do you think this income is sufficient for rest of our life?Never Karthik, this income will not be sufficient for us and if we have kids in future, their life will turn more miserable too.I don't want my children to face the same struggle I gone through in my youn age. I don't want us to be in my parent's position. I don't want the things to happen that way anymore.The did this same mistake in their life and they suffered a lot in their life, I witnessed everything infront of my eyes. I'm not a fool to choose the same path which my parents chose.So I have already took a decision. You should accept for this if you really have some concern on my life.My boss proposed me last week. From that day, I thought about that and today I came for a decision, I analysed everything practically and made a decision which is safe for both of us.Today I accepted his proposal. Next month we are getting married. I too said about our relationship but he took that in a easy way. So now it's time to end our relationship" she uttered those hurtful words without any mercy.I felt a deep pain in my heart like someone is poking it with a sharp needle. I rested my eyes on her face couldn't talk further."Look Karthik! I know it's hard to come out from this but just think practically, we don't even have a own house to live. How could we survive in our future? Please try to understand the situation and move on, you too will get someone who will change your life" she said cupping my face with a smile.How could she smile, killing me alive. Is she she the one whom I loved for her kindness and innocence?"I love you Harini! I know you love me too. How could you stay with someone else loving me so much? And how can you kill my emotions?" I asked looking into her eyes but her eyes just resembled the cold reaction."Look Karthik, I don't want to answer any of your questions but at the same time I couldn't just leave you like this because I loved you. Yeah, I love you but love itself is not our life. It's just a part of our life.We shouldn't waste our entire life for this simple part. It's just an emotion, we shouldn't choose a wrong path because of these stupid emotions.Again I'm repeating this, think practically" she said and left that place leaving me broken."Morning, I'm moving out from this house" she said before she enter into her room. My eyes were pooled with tears. I just can't believe whatever happened in my life.How can you be so cold?This is the most unbearable pain I experienced in my lifetime. I never had a heartache like this in my entire lifetime.Next morning she left our home with her things. I found everything was packed already, so she already took the decision and she just informed that with me. She left my home taking away all my happiness.When she was in my life every simple things seemed more beautiful to my eyes but once she left, she too took away my soul. Morning Sun never seems brighter than her glowing face, birdsong passes as if the melody can't glide through the air as it once did before. But the truth is, I'd rather forgot comfort than keep a lover who doesn't love. So instead I will let this heartache be as my teacher and the reason to keep seeking one who can hear the playful calling of their own soul. Because I'd rather this relationship broke up than me, either it turns to ashes or I do, because I'd have to have no self respect at all to stay with one who can't see my true love and affection.But it's not at all easy for me, I calmed my mind by giving several self advices but it repeatedly chanted her name. "I want her back in my life. I need you Harini! I need you in my life forever! I'll come for you and this time I'll make you understand our love" I thought and decided to meet her.I called her and she attended the call after several attempts. "What's up?" She asked casually, "Don't you miss me Harini?" I asked because I couldn't feel anything in her voice."No!" She replied coldly making me numb, I forgot the reason why I called her actually. "If nothing else, shall I end the call? I have several things to do" she asked, for which my silence was the only answer.She cut the call abruptly making me realise my position in her heart. My heartache increased but my heart never stopped it's beat for her! My love for her never faded a bit! She is the love of my life! Only one in my life!"My thoughts are a strange ocean to you. Should I speak of them I see the wandering begin in your eyes, your desire to flee the conversation written on your face. You think the churnings of my mind petty words, fluff and never substance. Your thoughts you guard, hardly ever letting an unconsidered word escape your lips - and this you think of as self control. In a way it is, but the effect is to leave me on the outside, rarely granting me a glimpse of where your emotions really lie. I don't know who caused you to hide, or even if it is just in your nature, but I need you to hold that door open more often. Even if you haven't the patience to get to know me, perhaps I could at least know you better"Hi dear friends,Twenty first chapter of "Miracle of my life" is updated. Do read and give me your views on this story ♥️