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William

Things did a get easier, I guess. I think whatever Nicholas's mom said to my parents worked, because the next day at dinner, my mom didn't push me to eat more when I couldn't.

She just sent me a smile and nodded in approval. So I think it's progress.

I tried not to purge as much afterward, I just normally called or texted Nicholas after dinner to distract myself.

My mom made an appointment for me to get new medicine because she also noticed I became a lot moodier and easily agitated when I took them.

I was just glad that the new ones didn't impact my... Mood... Yeah, my mood is my main concern.

School was nearly over, all the stress from finals done with. That probably also had an effect on my medicine, but I'm still more than happy they're over.

"It was awful!" I smile gently at Amber, who was telling a story about how her pet dog nearly got ran over by her dad. Nicholas was just dazing off, not saying much. I thought it was quite adorable how he was shy and quiet around people he didn't know. It made me feel special.

I picked at my food all through lunch. I ate a few bites of my banana, but that was really all so far.

Nick would whisper-soft encouragements to me, but I had no motivation to eat today. I ate only a few bites of eggs for breakfast and a sip of juice before I was finished. I knew dinner would be a struggle tonight.

I guess it's just one of those days.

"That's what happened to my hamster." Macy shrugs, eating a bite of salad.

I furrow my brows, "you don't have a pet... Oh, wait..."

The girls giggle and Nicholas continued to rub my knuckles.

"So, Nicholas," Amber spoke, causing him to lift his head up. "You don't talk much, do you? Are you shy?"

He shook his head, "no, I just don't like people."

"We'll make you a people person! Just hang out with us!" Macy beams loudly, Amber giggling annoyingly after her words.

Nick hums in thought before responding, "Nah, I'm good." The girls just gasped and he just smiles before resting his chin on my shoulder. "I'm going to the bathroom."

I knit my brows, "why?"

"To make love to an elephant... To take a pee, dummy." I just snicker at his words, kissing his lips swiftly before he stood up to leave, sending me a gentle smile as he left.

"Did we scare him off?"

I shake my head, "no, he's just pissing. And just avoiding people."

"What people?" Amber asked while shoving a spoonful of pudding into her mouth.

I couldn't help but smile, giggling on the inside. "Probably you guys. He doesn't like people."

"But he likes you."

I hum in denial, "no, he loves me. I'm an exception." The girls just roll their eyes in annoyance but kept gentle smiles on their faces. "Do you guys like him...?"

The girls nod, "yeah, he seems to make you really happy. Haven't you been dating for like, 3 months now?"

"Yeah, almost." I smile gently at the thought. "I know it's too early to say this, but I have a really good feeling about him."

"Wait," Scott began, swallowing the food in his mouth. "I thought he was the reason you were in the hospital."

I scowl, "what? No! What made you think that?"

Macy hums, "that's what I thought."

"Why would you think that? He would never hurt me..."

Macy just shrugs, looking down, "I just assumed since you never told us why."

I scoff, "so you thought my boyfriend put me in a hospital? What the hell, Macy, I wasn't in the hospital for that!"

"Then why were you?" Amber urged, narrowing her eyes. "C'mon, we're your friends, we aren't going to judge you. Did you accidentally cut your penis off?"

My eyes widen, "no! It's just for reasons that I don't want to share."

Amber just dramatically sighs, "why not? You have been keeping this for nearly 2 months now. I think you should just tell us."

"It's personal."

"Does Nicholas know?"

I roll my eyes at Macy's comment, "he's my boyfriend, of course, he knows."

Amber replies, "well, we're your friends. So we should know."

"You should, but you don't. I expect it to stay that way. It's not even that important, anyway."

The girls gave up on trying to push me into replying, Scott gave me a "sorry I brought it up," look. I shrug it off, waiting impatiently for my boyfriend to come back.

Soon, he plops into the seat beside me, instantly noticing the tension. He grabbed my hand with his damp one, pressing a kiss to it.

My eyes widened at the picture the popped up in the messages, my mouth watering at the lovely sight.

Nicholas and I were innocently texting each other after I finished dinner, and one thing leads to another, and I ended up getting a very... Lovely picture.

Me- I was kidding when I said to send one!

Nick- Whoops. That was meant for my doctor.

Me- Mhm. I'm sure it is. I am suddenly missing you now.

Nick- I miss your pretty little lips wrapped around my...Fingers.

Me- Fingers?

Nick- yes. Fingers. Indeed.

Me- Ugh. I miss your fingers.

Nick- And my fingers miss you.

Nick- I'll brb, I need to get some holy water 0_0 That's all I'm doing, nothing else. I swear.

Me- have fun getting alien probed

I giggle at the text, flopping onto my bed. I scroll up to the exotic picture he'd sent, admiring it. Damn, I miss him.

I just wish we could just lay in bed and... Cuddle. Yeah, just cuddle like the innocent boys we are.

About 7 minutes later Nicholas texted back.

Nick- Alright, I read my Bible verses for the night. Wanna see?

Me- Ooh. Yes.

I choked on air at the picture that suddenly popped up, my eyes the size of the sky. I wasn't able to breathe properly for a minute, texting back a few moments later.

Me- Damn. That's some good ass holy water

Nick- Wait shit... I honestly didn't mean to send that just now. I was just going to send a picture of a cup of water I took before this. Whoops

Me- I think that was better

Suddenly, my phone rang, a smile growing on my face as I swiftly answer, holding it to my ear.

"I'm eating potatoes," Nicholas informed me, silverware clinking.

I stifle my laughter, "you're eating potatoes after you just... Ejaculated?" (Low-key, I fucking love that word. Like just say it out loud. Ejaculate. Cool word, right?)

"Yep!" Nick had a smirk in his voice as he ate. "I miss you, baby boy."

"I miss you too, Daddy," I waited a moment before adding, "Long Legs."

Nicholas coughed violently making me laugh, "you made me choke you little bitch!"

"Not the first time."

"Very true." I laugh into the phone, the full feeling in my stomach going away. "Talk dirty to me, love."

I look around my room, humming in thought. "I like your nipples."

An odd, sputtering noise came from the other line before Nick coughed out an answer, "what?"

I hum in reply, "you told me to talk dirty. It's the first thing that came into my mind." He doesn't respond, continuing to cough. "Stop choking."

Nicholas clears his throat with a grunt, "I want to see you." I furrow my brows, glancing at the time. "Can you ask to take a walk?"

I hummed in reply, "yeah, of course."

Excitement burst inside of me as I skipped towards the skate park, seeing the gate swaying open from the wind. I gasp in glee, running into the area, my eyes scanning for my boyfriend.

Warm arms wrapped around my waist, my body suddenly getting lifted from the ground. Yelping in surprise, I squirm in the arms.

"Hello, my darling angel, sweet cupcake, cutie pie." Nicholas says while lowering me, our eyes meeting once her flipped me around. "Jeez, you're light."

I tensed at his words but I was relieved that he didn't say, "you're heavy,"

His eyes widened once he saw my frown, "I didn't mean it like that! You feel heavy!" My frown deepens. "I didn't mean... i... You feel healthy. I'm sorry, love."

My frown twitched into a smile and I kissed the space between his eyebrows, "It's okay. I know you didn't mean to offend me."

Nicholas quickly connected our lips, instantly searching for my tongue, which needed his. I cupped his cheeks with one hand, my other arm wrapping around his neck to bring him closer.

"I love you so much." He moans against my mouth, sucking on my bottom lip. "Just..."

I shoved my tongue into his mouth to quiet him, exploring the fleshy, moist place. Another noise escapes his filled mouth, one of his hands gripping onto the back of my thigh while the other was clawing at my bottom.

Giggling at his eagerness, I slide my tongue out of him mouth, looking at the boy. "I love you too." He hoisted me up from my behind, both of his hands squeezing onto it. My arms wrapped around his neck, curling into the hair behind his head. "What were you going to say? You said 'just' then stopped."

Nicholas sheepihsly smiles, holding me closer to him. "I don't remember."

I hummed in suspicion as he pressed warm kisses against my lips. "You don't?" He nods quickly, kissing me again. "Just tell me."

He inhales a deep breath and I braced myself for his rushed speaking. "I really want to just touch you and for us to have sex but I don't want to scare you or come off as desperate and I'm not sure if it's too soon or if you want to but I didn't want to make things awkward and I really just want to please you but not make you feel uncomfortable."

Nicholas intakes a large breath after the rant, his eyes falling to the floor.

I process the words he spilled out, tightening my gentle hold on his hair. "Oh."

He just nodded, his eyes still glued to the floor.

"I'd love to!" I beamed, my hands moving to hold his face. His hazel orbs meet mines and a gentle grin appears. "Here?"

Nicholas looked up and down, side to side, his eyes wander back and fourth. I impatiently twist my fingers into his shirt, rubbing his skin underneath. "Slide."

My eyes widen, "Nick! Kids play on that!"

"My kids with be on it, let's go."

My mouth hangs in shock but our lips locked as he walked towards the playground, street lights glimmering towards the grounds.

Panic rose in me as he placed me on the bottom of the slide, beginning to slide off his jacket. "Wait, Nick." He looked down at me, furrowing his brows. "What if we get caught? What if there's cameras?"

Instead of sharing the same worried look, he just smiles, tilting my head up. "It's late, no one will catch us. And those cameras probably don't even work. Relax, my love."

His hands rubbed my shoulder while he fumbled with the hem of my long sleeve. "Okay."

"Arms up, baby boy."

With a nervous sigh, I lift my arms, my shirt sliding up, the air hitting my exposed skin. Instantly, I self consciously wrap my arms around my stomach, knowing there would be rolls from me sitting.

As Nicholas removed his own clothing, I could help but stare at his bare chest, wishing I could look at gorgeous as him. I felt like a sack of potatoes compared to his stunning state.

You don't deserve him, he's way too charming and good for you. You don't deserve anything but to be single and alone. Pathetic.

"William." He crouched down and his hands carefully hold my face. "What's with the frown? We don't have to do anything if you don't want to. I could walk you home and we don't have to do anything until you're ready."

I shake my head, stuffing my face frustratedly into my hands. "I don't deserve you."

"What? Why wouldn't you? Love, you deserve the world and more, I'm nothing compared to that. If anything, I don't deserve you."

Tears left my eyes and I raised my head, "what do you mean? You don't deserve to be with an anorexic boy who's ugly as shit and-"

His hand clamps over my mouth and his face darkened at my words. "Don't ever say that. You are absolutely perfect in everyway, William. I don't care if you have a disorder or two, you are more than your body. Yes, I want you to be healthy, but I don't love you for your body."

Tears streams down my face and his hand muffled the sob that left my lips. He removed his hands, wiping my fallen tears. "You're just so handsome and I'm just..."

"You're perfect in every way, shape, and form, William. Sometimes, I just sit and think of how beautiful you are."

Nicholas's words made me feel better, but I still felt like shit compared to his God like self.

"Sorry." I say as he wipes another tear, "I'm supposed to cry during sex, not before it."

We both laugh and our lips connected once again.

Nick parts our lips after a few moments to kiss my nose. "You still want to do this, Will?"

I nodded, my hands flying to his jeans, seeing a tent in them. As I dried the last of my tears, my fingers carefully slip the button for the slid, tugging down the zipper.

He squirms as my fingers grazed across his clothed hardness while I pull his pants down.

"Will." He groans while stroking my cheek with his warm knuckles. "C'mon."

"Be patient."

I carefully removed the rest of Nicholas's clothes, him doing the same to me but much quicker. Calmness took over me and I felt a lot more comfortable with the idea of having sex on a slide.

My legs were thrown over Nicholas's shoulders as he moved between my thighs. A hand gripped onto my thigh, the other running across my stomach, insecurities growing in me.

"Nick." I mumbled, stopping his hand on my scarred stomach. "I... I just feel... Insecure."

He tilts his head, "no one's going to see us, love."

I shake my head, "no, not that part. I just... Ugh." My eyes lowered to my thighs, stomach, and then wrist. "I just feel exposed."

His eyes followed every point my eyes did, frowning. Nicholas moved his hand down to my upper thigh, rubbing the scars. "I would never judge you for anything on your body, William. Scars don't define you. You're gorgeous."

(Ugh, my ex best friend once said all those words to me and I started to cry and forgot I was writing a scene where they were about to fuck...)

"I guess."

Nick stroked my thigh, rubbing my stomach. "I love and adore every single thing about you, Will."

Smiley softly, I nodded, moving down the slide, my hardness becoming uncomfortable and needy.

It pulsed with need and pleasure. I began to feel bubbles in my stomach from just staring at Nicholas's body and hearing him voice.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked as he kissed the inside of my thigh, his finger tips grazing it. "We could always-"

"Just fuck me already!"

Just use your imagination hehe.