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🤍Y/N🤍

I was watching Christiana and my dad interacting and it was so wholesome. I understood that I needed to get get the resentful ness out that I had for him a long with grieving but I had no idea where to start. I couldn't drink the feeling away, I couldn't take anything and I couldn't fuck it away either. This was truly something I had to deal with. I just got my marriage back on track and no this bullshit.

"Babe" I heard Chris say as I looked over at him. "Hmm?" I asked as he nodded his head towards the door of the hospital room. I walked out behind him as I crossed my arms some. "What you thinking about?" He asked "how I'm going to plan this funeral, how I'm going to cope with this, how we're going to plan this vow renewal." I started off feeling tears fall from my eyes. Chris then hugged my body as I cried into his chest.

"We can postpone the vow renewal-" he started off as I pulled away. "Hell no. That was in motion before this and we went through so much in a time span of a year to sit there and put that on the back burner. That is for you and I" I expressed.

"We'll figure it out" he said grabbing my hand as I faintly smiled. "I don't think you need to be planning the funeral" Chris brought up.

"Yeah but who else is going to do it?" I asked "the very person he cheated on your mother with" Chris simply said. "And as you can see she's no where to be found" I said as Chris and I walked to get him some coffee. "I wonder why" he simply said.

"Yeah but we already knew how Sarah was going to do. Johnathan gave her everything and once he couldn't she dipped and went to my dad. Now he's on his death bed and nobody can reach her" I explained.

"I just don't need you being stressed out or planning anything while hurting because that's not going to go over well" Chris said as I just let out a small breath. "I don't want to talk about it anymore we'll deal with it when the time comes" I said. "Well I got you a counselor who's meeting you at the house tomorrow." He started off as I looked at him. "I understand that you want to be there for everyone and be Wonder Woman" he said as we shared a small laugh.

"But you got to be there for yourself you seen what happened with us" he explained. "If your mental health is fucked up then our house isn't going to be a home and I refuse to go back to that" Chris said as we looked at each other and I faintly smiled.

"I love you baby" I said as we hugged each other "I love you too" he said as I smiled. I just licked the side of his cheek as he pulled away and laughed.

"So fucking weird" he said in a chuckle "and that's why you love me" I said as he smiled. We then went back into the room seeing Christiana watching TV. "That's daddy?" She asked my father while pointing to the screen. "Yeah that's him" my father said as he looked between Chris and I. "I want to talk to you guys" he started off motioning us to sit down.

Chris and I sat down waiting for my father to start talking "so I want to cremated" he started off as I just looked the other way "it's been three almost four years since I've spoke to you and you're telling me you want to be cremated" I started off as Chris touched my arm. "Relax" Chris started off "no because not only did you do what you did but you literally came on my wedding day trying to stir some shit up" I expressed.

" you also disrespected my husband and the father of my child and I don't take none of that lightly." I said. "I get it" he started off. "No you don't get it because if you did you wouldn't be sitting here talking about being cremated you would've been bringing closure" I simply said as I felt Chris look at me.

"Y/N I'm sorry" he apologized as I just sat there looking at him "is that it?" I asked. "What else do you want me to say?!" He questioned. "Chrissy let's go" I simply said standing up and reaching for her hand. "Babe" Chris started off "no I'm not about to beg anyone not even my father for an apology when they were in the wrong" I said grabbing Christiana's hand.

"So with that being said don't worry about being at peace just make sure you at peace with God because I don't have a Heaven nor hell to put you in" I simply said. "Y/N don't be like that" I heard my father say. "Don't tell me what to not be like when you did what you did and said what you said. And you didn't feel like how I felt for these past years" I expressed as Christiana and I walked out the hospital room.

Chris and I went home as I started on dinner keeping to myself. Christiana was on the couch watching cocomelon but fell asleep. I was cutting some red peppers as I was still pissed.

"You okay?" He asked as I nodded continuing to cut up the peppers. "Y/N are you okay?" He asked as I finally looked at him. "Yes Christopher" I simply answered. "No because you just called me Christopher" He brought up as I just glared at him.

"Okay I was just kidding" he said coming beside me "He's on his death bed Y/N the least you could do is try and make peace" Chris said as I just rolled my eyes. "And I was pregnant while he did what he did, placing his hands on me and shit" I brought up. "He can go to hell honestly" I simply added. "Okay relax" Chris said grabbing the knife from my hand as I just turned and looked at him.

"He needs to apologize" I brought up pissed "and I'd he doesn't?!" Chris asked getting a little loud. "You made sure you snatched that knife away before getting loud" I brought up.

"Y/N I'm serious what are you going to do if he doesn't give you a sincere apologize?!" He asked as I just stood there. "He's gone and you're still here." Chris stated.

"So I shouldn't be upset about him not wanting to truly apologize?" I asked. "You have every right to be upset but if he doesn't apologize what can you do?" He asked as I just frowned and Chris automatically begun to hug me. I begun to cry as he continued to hold me.