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🤍Y/N🤍

We got back home as I ate my food. I then realized Chris was upstairs the whole time and didn't even touch his food. I got up placing my left over food into the fridge as I snatched off my jeans from being full leaving myself in a T shirt and a pair of panties. I went up stairs walking into our room as Chris was just sitting on the side of the bed with his face in his hands as I was confused. He lifted his head some as I seen a tear drop as I heard resentment playing.

I was now beyond confused, I threw my pants into the hamper in our closet, changing into an oversized t shirt coming back out. "Chris" I called out as he didn't look at me. Instead he paused the music continuing to look down at his hands. "why are you listening to resentment?" I asked worried.

"The song made me think of what you maybe feeling and what you are feeling and I am so sorry" he apologized. "Chris" I started off as he finally looked at me and he looked so broken which hurt me.

"I forgive you, I know we have a child and two on the way but I sacrificed a lot just for you to just lie to me and sneak behind my back and I don't think I want to keep going through that" I admitted. "Come here" he said. "What?" I asked confused. "Come here" he softly said nodding his head for me to come over to him as I walked over to him and he placed my arms around his neck as he placed his head on my stomach.

I just looked down at him holding onto me and faintly smiled. I rubbed the back of his neck with my thumb softly while rubbing his back with my other hand. I felt a tear leave my eyes as I finally leaned down to kiss his head. He continued to have his Forehead on my stomach along with hugging me as I rubbed his back then pulled away. I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I hurried to wipe them.

"Go eat something, I'm going to take a nap since you know I love this weather" I said pulling away as he hurried to wipe his tears away then stood up. "Alright" He simply said before walking out. I opened our balcony door as it was storming and the trees and rain were moving like crazy due to the wind. I turned out the room light and just got in the bed enjoying the weather.

I was just watching and enjoying the storm as I got a little lightning. Chris then chuckled walking in the room as I turned some then turned back to look outside. I took a boomerang video of the balcony catching the storm and posting it to my Instagram before logging out of my accounts. I was going to take times off from everything and get myself together because I just feel like I'm everywhere and I don't even know where to begin with picking up the pieces.

I felt Chris place his arm over my body as I then moved it off. I heard Chris sigh to himself before turning his back to mine. I just stared outside before the silence was broken.

"When do you want to tell our family?" Chris asked. "I don't know yet, this one I just want to play it by ear because with everything going on we really don't know how this pregnancy is about to go." I admitted.

"You're not going to miscarry Y/N" I heard him say frustrated. "Chris don't you think I understand that?! there's more to pregnancy than that" I snapped sitting up to look at him some. "First off" he started off sitting up "we need to keep this arguing thing to a minimal for one you're pregnant and two I'm not going to keep arguing with you everyday" he said.

"And you don't have too" I smartly said as he just rolled his eyes. "Okay" he simply said laying back down this time on his back. "I don't want anyone to be worried especially our parents and freaking me the hell out because I'm already freaking out with different scenarios running through my head I don't need anybody else there." I admitted.

"How are you feeling?" Chris asked softly as I laid back down. "Part of me is sad, part of me is mad and part of me is worried" I truthfully said. "Can I touch you?" I heard Chris ask me as I just looked back at him crazy. "Really Chris? right now?" I questioned. "No not like that" he started off grabbing my hand. "Can i hold you?" He asked as I was hesitant to give in.

"No" I simply said taking my hand out of his turning back around with my back facing him. I soon felt his arm wrap around me bringing me in as I just laid there. I heard my phone ring as I moved out of his embrace immediately going to get the phone. I seen my manager call my phone as I sighed then answered it.

"Hello?" I said "you're not in New York what's going on?" She questioned. "I am going through some personal things and I'm not going to be there tonight. I honestly might not finish the whole premiere tour" I admitted. "Would you like your publicist to make a statement for your fans?" She questioned. "Please?" I asked. "Okay anything else you need just call me and take care of yourself please?" She asked as I faintly smiled.

"Thank you I will" I assured before we both hung up. I then grabbed a suit case out of the closet. "What's wrong? What are you getting ready to do?" Chris asked "pack some of my clothes" I admitted. "Oh Go- Y/N you still talking about moving and us living separately?" Chris asked irritated sitting up. "We clearly said Boston was where we was going to stay out the light, I didn't necessarily stop the process of me getting my own place and living on my own. what else do you want?" I questioned.

"Yes but what's the whole point of trying to fix something if you aren't there?!" He asked. "For one I told you I wanted to focus on myself, and the kids if I even feel like coming around to it then us" I said before taking shirts and summer dresses out of my closet. "If anything we need to be under the same roof for the children" I heard Chris say. "Yeah and who said that?" I asked folding up the clothes and throwing it into the suitcase.

"You making this more complicated than what it needs to be" Chris said. "No Chris, I'm making it to where you reflect on your actions. You see" I started off. "You're going to miss the affection with me being in the house with you. If I'm out of the house you're going to miss my very existence and you realize all the shit I do and how everything is different now that I'm gone and you'll begin to then appreciate me" I explained.

"Me on the other hand will be hurt but I don't have to put up with it if I don't want too and the more I'm by myself the more I can work on myself and think for myself without you or anybody else getting in the way of what I should do regarding this whole situation because at the end of the day i have to not only make the best decision for me but my kids" I admitted.

"But wasn't you the same person who said you didn't want your children growing up in a broken home?" Chris asked. "I also want my daughter and the other two babies to know their worth and when someone is doing them wrong to step and not stay in that situation." I shot back. "It's whatever you want to do" Chris simply said as i ignored him continuing to pack for the spring and summer since that was the next season.