chapter 30

Chapter 30. I don't want to fall in love.Just as Arianna relaxed her head on the bed, there was a knock on the door and she sat up again.“What did you forget Papa bee? And why do you even have to knock on your own bedroom door?” she queried and laughed.“Um… I have no idea who papa bee is, but it is me Rosie at the door,” Rosie replied and laughed.“Oh my God, Rosie? Please come in,” Aria ushered and stood from the bed.Rosie turned the door knob and walked in, she stood at the spot, staring around the room in astonishment. She had not seen something as expensively furnished and decorated like her best friend`s new matrimonial bedroom.“You are not gonna stand there all day, are you?” Rosie asked and went to hug her.Rosie laughed. “I was just admiring your bedroom, and also… you don’t have to act like I am the one who has come back from Asia, we saw each other this morning at the hospital,” Rosie recalled and they laughed.“Hahaha, I see you must have heard of Oliver`s tough, strong political grandpa that will be coming back in the next twenty four hours.” Aria said and walked back to the bed.“Yes, the news is everywhere in the mansion, the servants seem to be excited about it, but you don’t look excited to me.” Rosie said and walked to the window side.“You are right; I am quite worried about it.”“Wow, it is a nice view from here; I can’t believe there are three large swimming pools here in one compound.” Rosie said, while staring out of the window to the wonderful view below.“True, actually it is four swimming pools; you can use the one on the back side of the house if you wish.” Aria offered.“Oh, maybe some other day, I am not in the mood today. How is Lena doing?”“Lena? I told you we are not calling her that.”“Well, as her godmother, I say Lena is her middle name. You and Oliver already agreed on princess, but that sounds more like a title to me, so now it is Princess Lena Gomez.” Rosie stated in finality.“Oh, well that makes sense and she is fine. But you are not, you seem off since you returned yesterday at the hospital, so tell me what is wrong.” Aria said.Rosie sighed and walked back to Arianna, she sat with her on the bedside. Princess had fallen asleep again, it felt like she was sleeping and waking up every five minutes, but at least she was not crying, so Aria was not bothered.“Aria, it is Sammy, I think… I think I am…” she paused and sighed again, and then she stood up and looked away.“You think you are developing feelings for him,” Aria completed the statement for her and she laughed softly.“Well, something like that but I just don’t want to, I mean…”Aria went closer to her and held her hands. “Look Rosie, I knew you vowed that you won’t fall in love with anyone ever again, but these things are not in our control. You can use me and Oliver for example; we went from enemies to lovers in a few weeks.”“Aria, it is not that, your case is different and weird too.” She chuckled, “It is not about falling in love, it is about the precautions, what if history repeats itself, what if he hurts me like every other person that has come my way. You know, when I saw Sammy for the first time at Oliver`s office, I was only drawn to him because he looked good and wealthy.As usual, I just wanted to get into a relationship with him, no emotions attached. He gives me what I want and he gets what he wants in return. That has always been the plan, but when I got close to him, everything changed. My feelings and emotions seem to get in a whack when I am around him.At first I tried to get rid of the feeling by distancing myself from him, always using my anger management issues as an excuse to get angry at him, but all of that was not working, it even made me fall more for him, I am scared Aria, I don’t want to open up to him and get hurt again, I don’t want to relive those pains.I had changed my character to this badass young lady because I did not want to be hurt again, wouldn’t I be making a mistake by letting my guard down around him, by letting my feelings and emotions rule our relationship,” She said with a few tears rolling down her eyes.Aria pulled her closer to her chest and hugged her.“It is fine Rose, I know you have gone through a lot in the past but that does not mean that you should lock up and not give other people a chance, don’t let a few bad people ruin your life and take the love out of it. If you feel that you love Sammy and he loves you too, then you should give him a chance, open yourself to him and trust him. Who knows? He might be your Knight in shining armor, you just have to try,” she advised.Rosie pulled out of the hug and cleaned her eyes. “Okay, thank you for the advice and being here for me.”“Is that not what we do for each other? We are both in this together; we would always help and support each other. Don’t forget the rules, you jump, I jump.” She reminded Rosie of their friendship slogan and they laughed.“Alright, he asked me out on a date but he has not proposed a relationship yet, so I should not get my hopes high yet, maybe he just wants to be friends and nothing more,” Rosie said and spread her arms in the air“I doubt that, but you have to find out anyway, just make sure to have fun, you deserve it. If things work out between you two, then maybe we can have a double wedding,” Aria suggested.“Oh, that sounds awesome; I am definitely in for that. Now tell me about this your tough, strong, political Grandfather in law,” Rosie requested and they laughed.“Sure, let us sit, perhaps you don’t know that I am a mother now,” Aria said and they laughed again.They went back to the bed and sat down. “Alright, so tell me why it is bothering you.”“Isn’t it obvious? I am scared that he might not accept me and don’t ask me what I mean. My dad is not some famous politician and I don’t have a super large boutique, I am not a famous model or anything great either.”“Stop Aria, since when did you start to look down on yourself? If it were me, I wouldn’t even be bothered about it, I am already married so what can the old man possibly do? But since you care about everyone's feelings, let us hope he likes you and if he doesn’t, then you would just have to win him over like you did with his son.”“Huh? You mean I have to make him fall in love with me?”“Oh no you dummy of a best friend, you have to make him like and trust you, show him that you are not some useless gold digger like me, that you are responsible and have great potential. You can still achieve your goals of becoming a model, so don’t look down on yourself. I trust you completely, I believe you can do it and your husband would be there to support you too, no matter what his grandfather says, he would stand by you and that is your advantage.”Aria smiled and hugged her. “Thank you sis, I really needed that.”“Good, now stop hugging before you suffocate me, and I think I have changed my mind about the swimming pool, let’s go girl.” Rosie yelled“Hahaha, I knew you would change your mind, but I am definitely not swimming, I am in no condition to, I would ask Veronica to get you some snacks and wine to pass time with while swimming, she makes the best cookies. I would be watching you from up here,” Aria informed her.“Okay, whatever you say boss,” Rosie replied in conclusion and stood up.