"Fake"
No mercy, no grace,
Return to ash and race the game,
Block your ears and pretend to hear,
A facade smile and don't fear,
Be human, be normal,
Act like a child with good morale,
Cover your eyes from darkness,
Indulge yourself without lightness,
Be mighty, be fearless,
Never be weak and useless,
Keep your mouth shut,
And never let them know who you are.
- BlackDescendant
***
I was welcomed by an unknown and suffocating space right away when I opened my eyes.
And out of nowhere a numinous spark of light appeared in the dark-covered space. It was blinding but I felt to myself I was drawn to the light.
I tried to reach it and I was able to hold the light in my palm. So enchanting and strange. While admiring the beauty of the light, it suddenly turned dark.
A frightening sparkle of dark. I tried to let it go but it didn't. The sparkle of dark became hostile and started to expand its size.
This time rather that letting it go I throw it out of fear. The sparkle of dark became a fearful snake and attack me. It hits my eyes and the sparkle of dark spreads into my body like a roots.
"Aghh!!" Painful! It's painful!
My eyes hurts! It's throbbing like crazy!
The pain then circulate in my body.
Please, no!! No!
"AGH!!" I yelled louder. I can't bear it!!
A series of events clouded in my head. Like a fast forward episode. My eyes can't follow it because their are many of it flowing in my mind.
There's a woman.
A child.
Knife.
Blood and tears.
Children.
Death.
Screaming.
Laughter.
Gift.
Books. Many books.
Tears aggressively fall down on my eyes. My hearts beating quickly and my breathes shaking. My body is trembling weakly.
Hurts. Everything hurts. Why it won't stop?!
Crown.
Black mist.
Forest green eyes.
Puppets.
Death.
Sacrifice.
...............huh?
Raffael?
***
"As long as he is fine?" Raffaelo repeated.
"Yes."
Raffaelo sighed. He was silent for a moment.
"Raffael, you know why are we doing this, right?" He said bitterly.
"..."
"We can't indulge ourselves with that kind of dream and warmth again." This time he sounded aggressive and miserable.
"Brother,"
"We promised! Unless we have this thing shackling and keeping us in prison, we can't give in to that forbidden pleasure."
"Are you not tired?"
"Of course, I am. We do all are. You, me, and father. We carry the curse of our ancestors. It's a forever grievance and sorrow they casted upon the generations who hold this blood."
"I know. I just can't stop myself. It's killing me everytime I run away."
"We all want to break free. That's why father was doing his best to carry all the burden. And we must do our responsibilities on taking on this part."
Raffael stared at the ceiling thinking of the curse of their family.
"Why in order to protect someone it has to be in a most cruel way possible?" Raffael asked in distressed. They've been doing that for years yet he was unable to cope up. They have no choice but to do this because of the
circumstances they have.
"It's hard to accept since it's the only way to keep him away from us. Even though it was the only option we had as long as he still despise us it's already enough. We can't let him forgive us."
"He's too good for his own sake. I know, brother. He must hate us so that he won't be able to change his mind."
A curse with no salvation still searching for hope. Even though that warmth can't be felt anymore we still keep on going.
We can't let you know what monsters were hiding inside. You need to push us away whenever we keep coming unto you. You need to.
You always break the restrictions we made ourselves to keep you away from us. That's why hate us more, curse us, mock us, kill us.
We will accept it all.
I'm begging you before we might do something again. Before we embrace that warmth from you again. It's a forbidden pleasure you gave us.
I'm sorry from the bottom of our hearts. We have to do this. More than anyone you are the only one who we only cherishes.
It's breaking our hearts. But we have no choice. A sacrifice is needed. We cannot let you involve in this. You are too precious. We are truly sorry.
***
"I was wondering about something. Enlighten me, brother." Raffael asked.
"..."
"It was about father on the day of rescuing Evyterr." Raffaelo eyes glowed under the grace of the silent moon. He kind of guessed what it is due to the sudden turn of events on that day. It's like a moon at daytime.
You won't be able to see it if you won't look up in the sky.
"I'm sure you know." Raffaelo leaned back at the chair.
"It's not really hard to notice but they miss that part."
"Your question was? Why did father bring almost all our forces to annihilate the count?"
"Yes."
They both went in silence before Raffaelo spoke.
"You know father. He won't make decisions where he is on disadvantage nor would leave no reason behind."
"Then........"
"It was a rash decision, don't you think? Leaving no knights to protect the dukedom. It must be a great opening to an outsider perspective. Father receive a report right after the discussion we had that day. I don't know what kind of report that is but he made the Raid Knights left in the dukedom."
"So that's how it is. A honeycomb trap."
"Exactly. They were the kings high combat magicians. I guess they still want to dig a hole in our family. Father has a lot in his hands already. If it weren't for that king who didn't keep his promises."
"Did the Raid Knights manage the capture all of them?"
"Of course. But, father killed them."
Rafael's eyes slightly narrowed.
"I can't blame father either. That man brought nothing but agony."
"Raffael, no matter what we do, fate will always never change to Glastieve."
Raffaelo's eyes went down. The atmosphere turned dark and gloomy within the cold night. The brothers was surrounded by silence.
Thinking deeply as if realizing real nightmares won't go away in one single night.
***
There's a two people standing in a one cold winter night. The young one was holding a dagger in his hands gripping it tightly suppressing his anger inside.
While the other man just stared at him with eyes fondly.
"WHY?! WHY?! YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS! YOU ALL ARE! YOU ARE SO SELFISH! I HATE YOU! WHY?! I'M GOING TO DESTROY EVERYTHING YOU HAVE! YOU DESERVE IT! YOU DESERVE IT!" The young man shouted all the words of resentment to the man infront of him. Yet the words he all poured seems not enough to contain all he felt right now.
"Are you going to kill me?"
"That's a stupid question. I've been wishing for your existence to cease. I have strength to do it now. You'll die here." He said as his eyes glowed in anger. This is it. The day he's been waiting for. He doesn't care. As long as he could kill him.
The young man attacks before receiving a response and casted a spell that created a hundreds of ball of light and released it at the same time. Anyone who made a physical contact of the ball of light will immediately be wounded. It's no use using a barrier to protect yourself while encountering this spell. Because the mana concentrated on the spell was cored by an anti-magic power spell that cancels all surrounding magic that can be access.
The other man received multiple injuries due to the magic. He didn't fight back nor protect his self. He just stand there accepting the other side's attack. This infuriates the young man, feeling that he looks down on him.
He casted another magic called.....
Hell's Bind.
The magic unables the target to use magic with the chains that binding him. It was an offensive magic under the anti-magic power.
The man was chain on a tree. He was silent. The young man tightened the grip of the chains into the body of the man. Even though the chains sinks deeper to it's skin the man didn't wince in pain.
He went closer to the man. The first magic casted that strike him wounded him in every part of his body. The young man flinched everytime he saw wounds that hit deeply. Some were went through thus creating a hole in his body.
The young man cried helplessly again. He don't understand. He don't want to accept this kind of result.
He bent down infront of him and cancels the magic straightway. Lowering his head he cried as his voice quaver with mixed emotions of sadness, pain, anger, and helplessness.
" I ha-t-te you. I-I hate you."
"W-h-why? Why? Why are you like that?! I despise you! Die! You should die! You don't deserve to live! Why!? Why? Why?! Tell me! I don't understand! I don't! I don't! Not a thing." He cried again.
A bleeding and trembling hand touch his face wiping all his tears away. The young man's hot tears soothes the man. It blows away the pain he felt like it was nothing. As if the cold winter were summer.
The man look at the young man infront of him. His face is covered with blood and his eyesight is getting blurry but he wants to see him. He wiped the streaming tears into the young man's eyes.
The young man cried so hard. The tears endlessly flows. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." His teary eyes desperately look at the injured man's eyes.
"I really hate seeing you crying." The man said.
"Why are you sorry? I was the one who should be. I hurt you. I left you. I was not there at your painful days. I even promised to protect you. But I end up doing the opposite."
The man teared up. He don't want this to happen too. He never wish to end up like this too. He also wants to live. However, better than anyone he knows. It's impossible. So he plead.
Please.....
We don't care what will happen to us.....
We are used to this.......
That's why........
Engraved that resentment into your heart........
Keep it ablaze......
Hotter......
Stronger.....
Kill us with that burning desire......
If it's you.....
It's okay.......
We have done this miserable acts to you........
When the time comes......
It's your turn to pass your judgement to us.....
Blame everything to us.....
All your sufferings......
The pain......
Everything......
We gladly accept it......
I'm sorry......
The curse will hurt you......
This curse we carry.....
Will kill you someday......
We don't want to lose you.....
Anyone but you......
I'm very sorry......
I was not able to hold you.....
I was not able to reach you......
I can't help you......
I'm truly sorry for everything......
It always breaks our hearts whenever you look at us with nothing but hate.....
But we think it was for the better.......
If you knew......
The reason why......
You will not be able to hold on.......
You are a good kid......
You're full of sparkles whenever you talk or walk......
It brought us happiness and freedom.....
Are we being greedy?........
Keeping you beside us after everything we have done?......
We need to holding back whenever you step outside and let the carriage take you......
I feel sane whenever I saw your room empty.....
I need to swallow the price of our actions........
I'm sorry.......
I'm sorry......
Everything......
We must keep you away......
The shackles......
The chains......
You must not see this.......
You burn too bright....
It's blinding.....
Beautiful......
Addicting infact......
I'm sorry......
We are too weak.....
I'm weak.....
If we're stronger.....
We don't have to do this.....
We might be able to stay beside you.....
Happy and cherry.....
If I wasn't weak.....
If only I'm not......
How wish I'm not......
We already gave everything to this cruel world.......
Our body.....
Our soul.....
Our blood.....
Our tears.....
Our life.....
But we get nothing back......
Then you came.....
I never thought......
I was this weak.......
You're making us weak......
It made me happy.......
Being strong for nothing......
Is meaningless........
You change me......
I was weak......
That's why I need to be strong......
Just for you.....
I want to offer everything to you.....
The world was unfair to us......
But you aren't.......
Thank you......
For the strength you gave us.......
I don't know how are we able to hold on........
While carrying this curse behind our back.......
You gave us a reason to be alive......
And the curse will kill us......
Before it happens.......
Kill us.......
It's fine......
We prepared everything only for this......
I'm really sorry......
You have to go through that pain......
I'm really sorry.........
I will do everything.......
Just to keep you safe......
We all do.......
But this is the only way.......
You don't know how it break my heart......
We need to hurt you.....
I'm sorry.....
You don't need to forgive us.......
Not ever.......
We are already fine.......
Finishing our lives.......
By your hands.......
You need to build up......
That pain we cause you........
And stab it through us.......
I will be happy.......
I'm sorry.......
I'm sorry........
I'm sorry......
I really do......
Be brave........
Strengthen your heart......
Someday.......
You have to kill us......
You can do it.......
You're the light that can kill us......
The flame that will burn us.....
The sharpest blade that can go through........
The strongest curse......
Our only weakness........
You can do it........
Please......
Please......
Evyterr.......
Set us free........
"Don't cry, okay? You did the right thing. No one will blame you for doing this." Raffael said.
"Why are you saying that? Is it fine to you that I will kill you?! You promised me you'll always to protect me!"
"It's alright. I'm sorry I was unable to protect you. If I won't die, I will never forgive myself If did something bad to you. You discovered the reason why we did all of that. That's why you need to kill me."
The snow hits the ground and the cold started to get even colder. But the tears of the young man never went dry.
"I can't do that. I don't want to."
Raffael put his head into his and cupped both his cheeks.
"Putting this burden to you pains me. I can't do anything to stop this curse. I want to protect you. So, kill me. Pierce that dagger into me. It will be okay. I will be fine. I will be alright. It won't hurt. I'm happy to take death if it's you."
The young man's hands trembled while holding the dagger pointing as his abdomen. He hesitated many, many times.
"It's alright." Raffael words made the young man hold the dagger tightly and stabbed him at last. The young man's breath became heavier and his tears stream again.
Raffael kissed his forehand gently. He felt the dagger peirce into his body. It's painful but there's nothing more painful that seeing the young man infront of him drown in tears.
He was sorry for everything he had to do. Because there's no choice.
On his last moments, he silently prayed. That if he could given a second chance he will do everything to make him happy again. It was truly selfish of him. But whenever he sees him smile everything in his sight light up. He was so precious and deserved to be loved.
Raffael forced to kiss him in his forehead to comfort him. He could feel his body become heavy and his heart is beating slowly. He's going to die.
After he did the last gesture his body went dead and cold.
The young man panicked. "Raffael! Raffael! Noo! Don't! Raffael!"
The young man screamed and cried. He is already dead. The second son of the Glastieve died in a one winter night.
Evyterr never forget the words Raffael whispered to him that night.
'Evyterr, look, the moon is beautiful tonight.'
The words that only his brother, Raffael, only knows what's its meaning behind.
***
Honestly, I was crying making this chapter. I was questioning myself on why am I this cruel｡:ï¾(;'â©';)ï¾:｡. Sadly, everyone, this was the side story of what truly happened on the of Raffael's death. After this I'm going to focus on the present timeline.
So, I will postpone the events involving the curse and the background history of the Glastieve. It will remain lock for now.
I am enjoying writing this even though the updates were slow. The comments I read positive or negative really helps me a lot on progressing the story. It really makes me happy that a lot of readers read my story.
I'm sorry for the delay of releasing the chapters and the mistakes in my writing if you noticed like typos, misspelled, grammar, or etc.
I also understand your anger towards the members of Glastieve (â¡ Ï â¡) (Oh, my poor characters)
My dear beloved readers, I am wishing you a great new beginnings in the upcoming year of 2022.
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!!!
Enjoy this holiday!! And never forget the enjoy the day! I'm wishing you guys the best and have a great day!
I'm very grateful to all my readers for all the support you gave into my story. Will it be acceptable to make this two chapters a Christmas present from your author?
I love you all(｡･Ï･｡)ï¾â¡
So, my dear Descendants, happy reading!
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