chapter 57

I thought and said, “I guess I am getting your point.”Sanaya - One more thing. It’s not like that we are against sex. But so far, we didn’t feel any need to do it because we are already more than happy in whatever we are doing. When we just see each other, our day becomes blissful. Truth be told, now I enjoy being with Nikhil much more than sex. Example, if a girl enjoys a hundred percent in sex then she will be able to enjoy 100000000 percent in a pure relationship. Divya - Really? She said with conviction, “Yeah. I know I gave you a very stupid example. But I hope you understood my feelings. You can also say like that if you give a hundred marks to sex then you will give one trillion marks to a pure relationship.”I interrupted her, “Hey, wait wait! How can you say that you are enjoying your pure relationship more than sex?” I smirked and said, “I guess you forgot that you told me you never had sex with Nikhil.”At once she fell silent. I teased her, “Haha! Now, what happened? Your lie is caught. Haha!”She thought for a while and said, raising her voice, “I didn’t lie to you. I never had sex with Nikhil but…”I looked at her face by closing my eyes a bit so that I might see her face very clearly, I didn’t want to miss any of her facial expressions. I said, “But what?”She again thought for a while and said, “Okay, today, I will tell you my secret. But you have to promise me that you would never tell this to anyone.”I quickly said, “I promise.”She lowered her eyes and said, “I am not a virgin. I had sex when I was in ninth class. I also met a boy like Vicky. He just used me and threw me out of his life.”I was taken aback to hear that, “Oh my God! Why didn’t you tell me earlier?”She said, her eyes lost confidence for a while, “I didn’t feel any need to disclose this earlier. But now, I am telling you all this so that I can show you the right way. I have tasted sex. I know what the pleasure of sex is. But I also do know what the joy of a pure relationship is. If I compare the happiness that I derived from both of these scenes then the happiness of a pure relationship is way more better than the happiness derived from sex, not only in quality but also in quantity.”I was still in shock to hear that, “Ohh…”She insisted, “That’s why I am saying to you to learn to love good boys and good things again and again.”Divya - Hmm…I thought for a couple of seconds and then said, “I thought you were very intelligent. I never ever thought that any boy could cheat you. But..”She added to my sentence, “But it happens. I also suffered like you. The only difference between you and me is that I learnt from my first wrong relationship that whatever I did was just stupidity. I immediately started working on my life, on my mind, on my brain and changed my thought patterns. I learnt to love good things and good people in my life. I learnt to stay away from bad habits, bad people and bad things in my life. We have to learn all this.”Perhaps, I asked a childlike question to her, “Why do we have to learn to love good things in our life? We are human beings. We should know these types of things by default. But we don’t. Normally, all boys and girls are attracted to only bad things.”Sanaya - It’s because our ancestors were chimpanzee.Divya - Haha! She said seriously, “I am not kidding. I am telling you the truth. Our ancestors were animals, We are also animals but a bit refined. We are civilized animals but animals. We have the same tendencies. If we want to be humans, we have to learn to become humans. But first of all, we have to accept that we are animals and we need to develop our mind, brain and soul with good education.”I said, feeling under pressure, “Oh gosh! Our talks have become very heavy. My head has started spinning.”She giggled and said, “Do you want to have another cup of coffee?”I laughed and said, “No, no. Thanks. Haha! I think for today, it’s enough.”Sanaya laughed. I bade bye to her and took her leave. I came back home. Logically, I was convinced by her. I was also convinced that Raj was the best guy for me. It was only me who had to develop more taste for him, who had to learn to love him and his lifestyle because that is the only good lifestyle that one should follow.I continued talking to Raj a lot. Slowly-slowly I started feeling better. We never talked dirty. We always talked only on good topics. In a nutshell, we were living a pure life. For one thing I was sure of was that he had become addicted to talking to me. Now, he could not live without talking to me. Obviously, it was a very good thing for me.The exams came nearer. Along with exams, the onset of stress and anxiety were natural. I never took exams very seriously. For me, talking to my boyfriend was much more important than exams. But in the case of Raj, it was just the opposite. As the exams were approaching nearer and nearer, he started feeling stress more and more. He began to feel our relationship as a burden.I called him at night at about 9 a.m. He picked up my call and said, “HI Divya.” I sensed anxiety in his tone. We talked for a few minutes and I felt as if he was ignoring me. He was not actively participating in the conversation.(It will be so nice of you, if you leave at least a single word comment and please don't forget to follow me and become my superfan. You will be able to read all the locked parts of all my series for free and you will also be able to chat with me and my superfans directly.)