chapter 22

Vicky - Grow up, Divya. I can’t go on talking to you day and night for the rest of my life. I also have to do some other words. I have to handle my dad’s business as well. Divya - Earlier also, you used to handle your dad’s business but at that time, you had time for me too. What happened now? Vicky - Oh ho, have you gone mad or what? Divya - Vicky, you can’t talk to me like that. I have given you everything I had. I gave you my full body and now, you are saying that. Vicky - Hey, don’t ever say that. It’s not only you who gave your full body to me. I also gave my full body to you. If I enjoyed making love to you, you also enjoyed making love to me. Divya - What the hell are you saying? I am a girl and you are a boy. If a girl surrenders her body to a boy, it’s a very big thing for a girl. Vicky - For me, giving my body is also a very big thing. Okay, bye. Now, I have to go. I wrote angrily, “Are you an idiot?”Vicky - Go to hell! Having said that, he blocked me on whats app. I was shell shocked to see that, “What! He blocked me!” A cold current passed through my whole body. I started trembling in fear lest he should leave me forever. I tried to control my emotions but my emotions got the better of me. I didn’t even realize when my tears started streaming down my cheeks. My eyes fell on my hands. They were shivering because of my mental anguish. On the one hand, a sudden distress had trapped my heart in its net. On the other hand, I was shocked to see and feel whatever was happening to me. I thought, “What’s happening to me? Depression is overtaking me. My tears have gotten out of my control. My full body is trembling in sadness.” I literally started crying. “Oh, I am feeling as if I am devastated, as if my soul is crushed.” After crying for about ten minutes, I thought, “I can’t bear this mental pain any longer. I should try to sleep now.”I lay on the bed. Just after a second, I felt as if my heart was trying to come out of my mouth. Immediately, I got up, “What the heck! What’s happening to me? I can’t even lie down. If I don’t lie down then how will I sleep? If I don’t sleep then this mental agony will kill me!”I again lay down and tried to sleep. Again I felt the same feeling as if the whole blood was trying to rush to my mouth. Quickly, I got up again, “Oh my God, what’s happening to me? I never felt like that before. I think something is wrong with my blood pressure. I don’t want to disturb my mom now. I should wait for sometime. If I try to wake up my mom, what would she see? She will see my fallen face and tears in my eyes. At once, she will come to know my mental condition. No, no, I should not try to wake her up.”I started walking in my room. The fear of losing Vicky was very strong. It had convulsed me emotionally and drained all my mental and bodily energy.  “What kind of emotional whirlpool is this? It’s not letting me either in a waking state or sleep. It’s eating into my vitals. Oh, I want to stop all this! I want to make myself unconscious. I can’t even do that! If I try to sleep, all the blood starts making its way to my mouth. Uff! It’s hurting me. It’s hurting me very badly.”I kept on walking and thinking, “If this is love, then I never want to fall in love! God please escape me from this emotional turmoil once, I will never fall in love with anybody again! It’s killing me.”I kept on walking for about one hour like an insomniac. I felt a little bit okay after that. I looked at the time and was shocked to see that it was not one hour but two hours passed. “Oh, I have to sleep. If I don’t sleep then I will not be able to go to school tomorrow.”Timidly, I walked to the bed, climbed on it and lay on it fearfully because I didn’t want to experience the same feeling again. Luckily, time favoured me this time, I didn’t feel as if the blood and heart trying to rush out of my mouth. My heart was burning in pain. I was fluttering like a fish out of water. Tears were running down my eyes yet. But I kept on lying on the bed. I could not sleep for a long time but don’t know when my eyes closed and I fell asleep. I opened my eyes. I looked at the clock. It was time to have my breakfast. I pushed myself up. I was feeling very tired. My head was aching. My full body was in pain. “I must have slept for a very short time. That’s why I am feeling very tired.”Again, the memories of Vicky started flashing in my mind. Again, the sadness was trying to overpower me. I thought, “Somehow, I have to go to school. My mom should not come to know my reality. Once I reach the school, I will get some help to change my mood.”I took showers, had my breakfast and set off for school. Vaishali had already come. I sat beside her. Just by looking at my face, she realized that something was wrong in my life. She asked me, “Is everything okay?”I tried to say in a good way but my voice came out in a miserable way, “Yeah, everything is fine.”(It will be so nice of you, if you leave at least a single word comment and please don't forget to follow me and become my superfan. You will be able to read all the locked parts of all my series for free and you will also be able to chat with me and my superfans directly.)