Chapter-63

The tiredness encasing my whole body is making me drowsy. But still against every cell in my body I push my eyes open.

"For how long will you avoid sleeping?"

Lorenzo asks.

I look up and see his eyes already fixated on me as he holds his head up with his hand, lying beside me.

"Till you decide to stay by me."

I mutter and shift closer towards him as if we aren't already glued together.

Resting his head back on the pillow he smiles at my response.

With an unforeseeable movement he rolls me over so that I am lying over him. He then pulls the duvet over our bodies covering us.

Resting my head on his chest I sigh.

"I really did push past my limits, today."

I say referring to the wild sex we had couple of hours ago.

"Well you looked so tempting. I just couldn't stop myself."

He says teasingly.

"I just know it's going to hurt tomorrow."

I tell him reminiscing about our first time and how my legs hurt the next day.

"Sorry sweetheart. I should have been more gentle."

He says as he grabs my hand. Bringing it to his lips he places a kiss on the back of my hand.

Lifting my face I rest my chin on his chest.

Looking up at him I smile and say

"Doesn't mean that I didn't enjoy it?"

The naughtiness in my voice is quite evident as he also chortles hearing my response.

"It was all worth it, Mr Accardo."

I wink at him.

"I know you enjoyed it. You came like five times."

He says haughtily.

"Well I lost the count after three."

I say as I hold 3 fingers up.

"You are so stinking cute. I wish I could just gobble you up."

He says his arms tightening around me.

Streching myself a bit up, my face hovers over his as I bend down and gently peck his lips.

"Believe me I wish the same."

I say and the room fills with laughter as we both chuckle.

Putting my head back at his chest I sigh in satisfaction.

"This feels so surreal."

I whisper.

"It's difficult for me to believe too. It feels as if I am in a dream."

He replies.

I nod as a peaceful silence stretches amidst us. Involuntarily I yawn as my eyelids droop. Still I force my eyes open.

"Sleep."

Lorenzo says as his hand gently brushes through my hair.

The gentle movement of his hand on my head lulls me more into sleep but still fighting it I say.

"I can't. You'll leave."

My voice little heavy due to the semiconcious state I am in.

"Don't worry about it. Just close your eyes and sleep, sweetheart."

He says and the exhaustion completely takes over as my eyes shut close.

Before completely succumbing to my slumber I ask

"You won't leave right?"

"You're are too stubborn..

Are the last words I hear as I drift deep in my sleep.

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I feel a chill running down my spine as the cold sheets wake me up from my slumber. Rumaging my hands through the sheets I look for my source of warmth, Lorenzo.

"Where is he?"

My mind questions even in my drowsy sleep.

When not being able to locate him I jerk awake from my sleep.

Did he leave?

It is the first question that echoes in my mind as I sit on the bed jolt awake from my sleep.

The bedsheets lie in a puddle around my torso as I sit half naked on the bed. My eyes roaming around the room.

"Did I wake you up?"

My head turns to my right as I see Lorenzo standing there and buttoning his shirt up.

Taking in a breath of relief. I calm myself down, the turmoil in me settling upon seeing his visage.

The cold air hitting my bare skin makes me shiver as I scrunch my body.

Looking at Lorenzo I see all his focus on me as his hands hang still in the air.

His eyes raking in my half naked form. But it is least of my concerns now.

The fury is quite apparent in my voice as I ask

"You were leaving without even telling me?"

Lorenzo looks at me as if I just pulled him out of a daze.

Clearing his throat he casts his eyes down again working on buttoning up his shirt as he turns his back on me.

Clenching my fist I try to subdue my rage.

"I asked you something?"

I say

"Yes, I am leaving. I have to eventually."

He says in a nonchalant tone, his back still turned on me.

Enough is enough.

Fisting the sheets in my hands I throw them away.

Not bothered about my nudeness I put my feet on the cold ground ready to give him a peice of my mind.

But as I try to stand up my legs cramp.

"Fuck."

I curse and with wobbly legs sit back on the bed.

"Fuck him for fucking me so hard."

I murmur.

As I am pressing my legs to get rid of the ache, he comes and stands in front of me.

Looking at his hands I see a shirt.

"Lift your arms."

He says

Even though I don't want to do as he says. But I just can't sit here naked while fighting with him. So I oblige after a little moment of hesitation.

He slides down the shirt over my body and I first thing I notice is the musky cologne the shirt is emanating.

It's his shirt.

Sitting on his knees in front of me, he holds my legs. His hands gently pressing them both.

His warm hands agaisnt my cold skin feels really good. Even though he was a dick just few seconds ago but now seeing him like this have me smitten.

The cologne coming from his shirt is urging me to inhale his scent deeply.

Still I fight against the urge as he says

"Take the water and the meds. They are to your right."

I turn to my right and see a glass of water along with some painkillers on the cabinet next to bed.

Ignoring them I question him

"Why were you leaving without saying a word?"

He looks up at me and says

"Please don't expect me to bid you farewell every time I leave. I am incapable of doing that."

"Well then don't. Just stay by my side."

I counter him.

"It is what I wish for too. But it seems impossible."

Comes his reply.

"Why? What is bothering you? Atleast tell me the reason lorenzo. You can't just get up and leave after a night of intimacy."

I say as I fist my hands.

"It it.. makes me feel used."

I bare my emotions.

Bending down I feel his lips pressing a kiss to my knee as he says

"Don't take the liberty of measuring how much I adore you? You won't be able to even scale it. Making love to you has almost become sacred for me. Don't malign it with the vortex of emotions your mind builds on baseless observations."

"Leaving you here hurts me too but if I get anymore involved I won't be able to leave."

He confesses.

"But why? Why are you leaving?"

I ask for the unmpteenth time.

Inhaling a deep breath he says.

"Can you choose between me and Nikaloi?"

"What?"

I ask dumbfounded.

"So what do you expect?"

"What do you want me to do?"

"Wait for you to leave along with Xavier and Nikaloi."

"No I can't bear to see to go away from me that too towards another's man. I rather leave before that."

Comes his harsh reply.

"And have you ever consider about how are you going to deal with nikaloi?"

His words shut me up.

"If you end up choosing me you'll lose him and if you choose him I'll lose you. And I know giving you that choice of choosing one of us is only going to pain you."

His words clears up my fog of foolishness and reality seeps in.

How ignorant I have been this whole time.

"I know you love nikaloi. Even though you didn't birth him. Still he is like your own child for you. You never differentiated him just because he wasn't your flesh and blood. I have seen you both and I can't separate mother from her child forcibly."

"So unless you choose me willing there is no way we can be together. And I am just too afraid to ask you to chose between nikaloi and me."

"To choose between your son and your lover."

"The fear that you might reject me cripples me."

He voices out hus concerns.

"If I leave now atleast I'll know that you loved me. Staying and fighting here will only cement my belief that if you were to pick one, it'll not be me."

The tears fall from my eyes as I cry at my utter helplessness.

"Why is it that I am always eluded of happiness, Lorenzo?"

I ask him

Wiping away the tears he says

"Don't cry. You will be happy with Xavier and Nikaloi. I have seen you three. You three are a perfect family."

"Xavier has given you a lovely family while I have always been the cause of your pain. So it's better if you go with him."

"So you're are advising me to leave the man the love."

"You are a pathetic adviser Mr accardo."

"The man you love is an incompetent man who have always troubled you so now let that rotten man go and chase the happiness you deserve sweetheart."

He says cupping my face.

"When I say I love you I am talking about all your imperfections too. So how can I call this man a rotten incompetent man when I love even his flaws."

I ask as I see his eyes turning glassy too.

"Then, please do this man a favour and let him go. With much difficulty I have mustered up this courage. I am afraid that if I stayed back I won't be able to go."

He pleads.

"How can you ask this from me Lorenzo?"

I sob

Leaning in he kisses my forehead and says

"I am leaving after 4 days. After I leave I want you to go back with Xavier and live your life as you used to before I entered and created this mess."

Letting me go he gets up and moves away from me.

Without another word he makes his way out of the room as I ponder over our ill fated relationship.

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I know you all are tired of this melodrama. But stick a bit more as the book is coming to it's end. We are left with only a few chapters.

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